Plucking Shavings
Pluckingpieces from elementalreality Knifeblade slicingwood.
creatingpuzzled of what Longslowstroking towardlead.
I wants tobe.
Finally a verysharpoint
Pretending thruthfact a linearcontour a veryshortpencil
within rightangleborder of a veryfine pileofshavings.
nature&nurture.
Pencilpoint piercingpaper whilewriting.
Forcingfragments tofit to makemysense Puttingaside epistle pickingup castoff.
within parent'smortar of Scatteringtrimmings in wind of forgetting
pastfuturetense. what I meant tomean &almost wrotedown.
Yetdeepwithin unknowing thisnow shallabide Better leavingpencil dull&leadless
letting puzzledpieces becomepatternless asif a drumstick for rappingoutrhythm.
as transform's wildeyedbride. Beguiled by wordless training's trance
begining elementaltransform'st wordlessdance.
Memorizing
Playingmyfugue Children
"bymemory." Children of harvest cold&snow
learningall they needtoknow
Literally nonsense. before next plant&grow.
Noseeinghearing
touchingtasting Fromfarm to city seekingfame
smelling. visionariesproud astheycame.
Structureunderstood Falling. Leavinglame.
yetstill brute repetition.
.................. Childrenofsleep&screen&same
Trainedtoplay seasonlesselves in guiltlessblame
Bach'sfugue. before nexterm of testing.
Littleleft forme todo Parentlesschildren of latchkey woe
but listen&enjoy. wonderingwhere they're supposetogo
................ awash in ebb&flow.
Memories
sweetmemories Facelesschildren sanstruename
keepingmealive dreams sowild schoolturningthem tame.
imprisoningme No sticksorstones yet maim.
eternally.
Havingallcome youngbold&vain
Pulse dreamingofspring forgiving its rain
Nobetween withinpulsing beginninghuman
continuity unknowingtime. becominghumane.
Asif I couldstay Ink
asif I couldreplay Ink burning black&white
bestworse of mycloying past. flowersbudding vibrantbright
blamingods for my shortsight
Addinglegs to snake. whileliving inmyhead.
AddingGod to elementalbeing.
Addingtime to transform. Choosing embryonicform
countingdarkness asmy norm
Asif afraid to letgo now. fearing inlight I mightbetorn
Asif afraid to love. from my womblike bed.
SingleVision Inmydrab of selfishsame
Theysay a marriedcouple glorifying each holyname
havinglivedogether for whilelivingdeep in senslesspain
manymanyears believing what's beensaid.
somehowseem tocometo
resemble eachother. Best toremember toforget
inaworld beyond youth'sthought &let
Soitseems with poet&poetry each teasingbreeze each fragrantflower
becoming as onesingle vision. drench lesself in elementalshower.
GroundToCrown Hydrogen
Sunsettingdark from groundtocrown Sunsettingoaks notletting
becomingone in orangeflaming hydrogengyre godark
beforeblack. tillast.
Sunrisingbright from crowndown Sunrising igniting oakflame
breathtaking thenforesaking then lightingtrunk in shades
drama for routine. of tame.
TwoDegrees Shiney
Coolingmyhouse just twodegrees warmer Shineyspinning lifedeathcoin
duringriotous summerswelter. strobing in partyhall
illumedbylesself's nearperfectlight
Heatingmyhouse just twodegrees cooler off facets of mirroredball
duringeach winterwelt. withus dancingdrunk in freedom'sgrace
neverfearing facelessface
No grandgestures. No vowsofpoverty. playing harpstrings of ourbleedinghearts
Suffering littlesweat. Feeling nofreeze. through all&forever
Simplychanging mythermostat twodegrees. &neverapart.
RighteousRain Assist
Righteousrain washingnight Waiter eatingleftovers.
showeringblossoms with gravity'splight. Guest beingpassed entree.
Petalsdowned dawnpallet groundkite Dump or dish
yet billowingclouds surviving tillight. each an assist.
Righteousrain rinsingsight MichaleJordan.
of Aprilblossoms in springsunbright. LebronJames.
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Fullmoon leaves &us. Only herbrown nose
Stillfalling fallen &still protrudingfrom leafpile
till wrestling withdog. before explosion.
Rain notreachingound Abandoned bird'snest Seventeensparrows
with a leaf for everydrop over winterslick roadway pledging highwire allegiance
yetnot finalstop. in skeletalhand. to limp redwhiteblue.
Forgettingentrance A wellpeopled day
fighting golfcourse shrubbery yet cicadas makemoresense
seeking holeinfence. &mydog &dark.
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Grammy
Grammy sittiing at bassend of piano. Boy trillingsoprano to angels he didn'tbelievein
On her right books she&herchildren hadread poundingfortissimo to devils heknew toowell
separating her from inahell thathabit had renderedpainless
Sundaynoon chickendinner diningroom. with vanity Gramma couldn'thear or possiblyknow
inherChristianScience sanity.
Grandson thunderinglefthand
drowning upstairsilence Shetaught his dimmingsoul
hammeringhisemptinees whenhe pausedplaying to chat
into oldlady's leftear. that GodwasLife that GodwasLove
sans heavenhell
Whoknows what sheheard justhis excruciatingnow.
snugbetween music&books.
When in musicalrespite
Whoknows whatshesaw on TV spinningonslick pianobench
watchingsports she'dneverplayed facingTV watchingnothing
&quizshows from the neworld. unknowing hisdad was rightwrong
unknowing hisGramma was enigmaticallystrong
Boy singingrighthand unknowing thatboys of men faithless&faithful
of Gods&afterlives are sapeins&sinners separate&suffering
below secondstorypurgatory without a savior
ofbombs beingdefused &that redemption isonly
ofblood seeminglyinfused forthefew.
withtension of mockcivility
withdeclension of conviviality
of jerryrigged preacherprigged reactiontoreligion
of nurture ruled alcoholfueled geneticpassiveaggression.
GentlePine SnowMelt
Gentlyneedledpine Featheredfamine perching on snowmeltwigs
beingsokind stayathome birds in searchofseed
supporting winter'sreflecion in basrelief
spider'sfilaments no greenfulfilling deepwinterneed.
inits rootedfirmament
web becoming Rivulets&streams created&exposed
dew's sparklingdish during stormingdays' briefrepose
for eachdrop's perfection adding rushingwhite through this silentsight
of shape&reflection. being what noheaven knows.
Parents PuffWhite
Mymother stardust. Myfather gravity. If child'sgoldenhair
Me as nebula. is dandelion
thenwhatof aging
Until I canforget my auspiciouslineage yet stillspring
livingasorphan puffwhite&gone?
withing finitefirmament
tryingtoforget who I think I am. Brother teaching her
to gentlypick &blow
CaterFly watching backlitseedlings glow
Butterflybeing caterpillarinflight with duskorangefloating
insecta always inoutof development'swomb. inthis dayending.
........................
Born tobe plantleaf'sblight Nextday helpingmom
thenpollinatng in pure delight spreading turfbuilding weedcontrol
neverknowing numberoflegs unknowingscience of herbalsentience
while winging by as limbsofsky unaware of mom'sbeing
caressingnow causingwhen both gentle&harsh
of flower whoselife I ate backthen. springmeadow fallmarsh.
Allasone in eachonlymoment NeverKnow
lesselfbeing stainedglasseeing Lovingmybeloved
of arthropod's emptycrepe. is tolove a reflection
anecho
Beard of my motherfather
Waterfalling greenslime stranding eachofwhom
into single spout I willneverknow
as sage'sbeard tillyou showmeso.
tiedbelow
histhroat. Connection
felt &real asfelt
Then splashingdashing isnot with anyother
dispersing immersing atall.
into tumblingplay
asif findingnoway Wandering
but to begay Wanderingthroughletters in forestofwords
inits downstreamdancing. thinking selflost &farfromhome
till soft startlingtouch from wife or ourchild
Now? remindingme truly I'm neveralone.
Then. Now. When.
ThenNowWhen. Together a start onpath to forgetting
Thenowhen. howtospell myowname with woodpencil takingroot.
The no when? I fallingaway as petalfromflower
The now hen? revealing love'sbeing as seeds of ourfruit.
Understanding Fractions
Understanding all isto ravish all Butterflybush
feedingonfragments of its fall. onequarter blossomingviolet
onequarter blossomingbrown
Powertojudge toblame toshame onehalf blossoming halfofeach.
allin name always in nameof.
Pollinators
Forgiving all isto frame all one eighth to seven eighths
within fretwork of myrighteousness. blackedged yellow
............................. or
Understandingnothing yellowedged black.
unforgiving because unjudging
powerless&loving. Workers with
abdomen striped gold&pitch
Epiphany invisiblewings buzzing
Epiphany among diaphonous wings waifting
unveilingreality busyones darting yet deferring
dismissingdivinty. to delicateones lighting
silentlyreciting
Fastbreak benchpressing grace for transform'sgift.
defendingpost windsprinting
changinglure settinghook
hearingdistantloon. Crystalconifers
mademiniature by miles
All inbetweens sparkling through snowfall.
me justme.
**Nose** **ThirdCommandment**
FatherSon&HolyNose Justbeyond mysnake's singleye slit
runningfrom coldreason overglans downhill in erectileslide
asif divinity soleyknows asif mytumescence ever unfit
why the route ofthecrows or mymanliness couldever hide
is supposed tobe sacrosanct. simplybecauseofage.
Asif itcouldever totallyquit
**Draft** torespond tomemory or totouch
Detesting militarydraft. or memoryoftouch
Desiring draftbeer. or touchofmemory
aliveinrising neversurprising
Needingtodraft newproposals. increasinginsizing
Neversatisfied with a firstdraft. alwaysobeying thirdcommandment
eat
Avoiding chillingdraft. don'tbe eaten
Having a littlelaugh. reproduce.
StreamWedding
Magmaborn pebbles beamingcare
eonscold rebels gleamingrare
meetingthenwhen &streamingwith screamingsex
steaming glacialmeltdown ifonly theydare.
becomingthisnow's visceralflow
of fire&ice&forevergo. And daretheydo on streamsidebed
murmuring purling babbling gurgling
Sittingstreaside streambecoming febrileseam
nearfar herethere of unsocialstirring
meeting in icefire's &propriety'sblurring.
foreverstare
in bubblingteem Sharingthrusting surgingtailhead
ripplingimageseen vows beyondscheming
reflectingup&up&up allunseemly unsaid
&then. innocence redeeming
being unweddingwed.
Her spilling endlesstreaming hair
streaminghips legs streamingbare Wed theywere wouldbe theywed
his streamingarms&chest&waist leafcushioned magmamelt
their steaminglance untouchedbychaste thismoment's bed
beaming theirendless dreamingeyes intenselysensed civilityshed
purelovepooling in purepassion'scries magmaborn pebbles
flowingfromblood toriver tosea those passionate rebels
whereonly purelove can impossiblybe atone atlast as reason'sfast.
Because UnderGrowth
Because myDad wasweak Undergrowth having overgrown
I posture. I don't stand a chance tofind mywayhome.
Because myMom wasdour Havingwandered foryears in wilderness
I joke. why am I not in a stateofbliss?
Because myParents wereloveless Couldall thewiseones havebeenwrong
I trytolove should I havebeenlistening to streamsidesong
withoutknowing or ripplingwater in selflessgoing
the feel of it. before steppinginto deepunknowing?
Better Asif I everknew that ripplingstream
Ofalldesire asif I neverdesired my selfishdream
"togoback to bettertimes." of finding a font of wisdom&youth
beyondreality of claw&tooth.
Forgotten sweat&fear&isolation.
Lonlinesslost in sanitation. Undergrowth having overgrown
Perfectionbeing self'screation. creatingmyhome within greatunknown.
Eachthen being illusion'scelebration.
Pulsar
Ofalldesires Treefalling unheard.
letmymemoriesburn Turnsignal unseen
in transform'sfires. becomingpulsar
for eternity
Inheritance of galaxies.
I inherited a halfacre lot.
It's square with doublehelix Phoenix
concertinawire atop a tenfoothigh Emergingfromlake
chainlinkfence. Phoenix of earthairwater
glistening in dawnglory
There are twogates on eachside. although itbe dusk
They have combinationlocks. toall mydefenses
&all mywills&wants.
Messages canbesent &received.
One of mygates is open Amphibian&chimera each
but I can neverleave. intimate in touch
proximate in reach
There are constructionsupplies hershaking creatingalaxies
a few blueprints &some within a shudderinguniverse
instructionmanuals. rainingfire as sparklingsource
into cloudlessky.
I needtobuild a house withinwhich
I amcomfortable living. Her moistfur
becomingfin becomingfeather
I must figureout the combinations in transform's mostnatural
to asmany of the other sevenlocks miraculousluster.
as I can.
Reforming oncedried
I've becomefrustrated trying to from myth to simplythis
figureout combinationcodes mylab mylove
but I'vefound a hacksaw mybestbeing.
&can withgreatpatience&effort
sawthrough locks &open newgates. Observer
I was weakside observer.
I spendmylife hackingaway. I didn't dribbletheball.
I didn't passtheball.
Apart I didn't shoot theball.
Cicadasong I dribbledtheball.
or I passed theball.
sleet against I shot theball.
window?
Enlightenment?
Seasonsapart KingdomOfHeaven?
lest I forget Nirvana?
now is never OceanicMoment?
thenorwhen MomentOfClarity?
aslifespeaks ElementalBeing?
&goesmute EcstaticAmnesia?
ineachinstant. PureTransform?
ShroudedSelf?
TooHigh StilledSelf?
Sure theyget sun first Lesselfincarnate?
those highfalutin oaks.
SunFlower
Now's theirtime Sunflowersplendor
to flauntfallfinery. useless in blossoming.
But being sotall Drybrown. Dead. Harvested.
crowns unnoticed Its the seedalone I desire.
except at distance.
Affecting
Lackingintimacy Affecting a bitofedge
proudcrown tosell heract of naivete.
becomingpicture
on walls Coy being the ultimatecon.
in a landscapepainter's
nonlivingroom. Only
OnlyBach Onlyviolin.
Chrysalis Only violinist.
No cryogenic stasis Partitite freeflight
simply a psychologicalchrysalis of memory'simagination
for those resisting transform. &amnesia to nature'slaws.
Birdsoaring in insectfeed
Mykin. Whiteskin. dartingfree butslave to hunger
Myparents. Mypeople. (& ofcourse tonalintegrity)
Sharedbelief what a relief asif rhythm a whim of unbridledjoy
thathey areall likeme. asif harmonics a feveredchild's toy
&me listening both bound&free
Myprimaltribe don'try to bribe fromto desire &mydefense
withpromises of less&less. of nothinigbut of nothingbut
pure auralglee.
Whyintheworld would I sacrifice?
Whyintheworld would I rollthedice Earned?
with snakeyes staringmedown? I've workedlong. I've workedhard.
I've earned all that I have.
Mychrysalis promising immortality. Right.
Whyshould I everagree toleave ............................
&change a winningame? Where wereyou
when your greatgreatgreat
Trick grandparents
All of fall a dirtytrick wereplanning a family?
to catchmyeye to focus onhigh
while fallenleaves hide rockhard acorns Whatwereyou workingon
ambushing eachtender footfall. long&hard
during your firstfew years
Then luringmeout in slippers or socks of crawling&bawling
towatch slantsun highlight autumn being totallydependent
onlytobruise my flaggingfaith &
thatseasons hold an answer. mostlydefenseless?
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Beingsick again. Pushingupcovers. Haunting yet hollow.
Howcanit be otherwise Rolling to freshposition. Churchorgan beatific.
when selfishness thrives? Covers settlingstill. Pipedreams of lostlove.
My lastSeptember Rising seasonless.
of newclasses&students. Fountain archingunknowing.
Yet the sameoldleaves. Seasonless falling.
That Christmas. Fifteen. Low across stoneroad Rivulets smallpools
Yet two to seventytwo giant brownbird emerging spreading along mudhard ruts
with nothingbetween. then becomingwoods. leadingus backhome.
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Cliche
I am citylonliness as numberedwitness I havebeen publicparkvoyeur
of numberedhouses smokingchimneys watchingchildrenofothers
avenues of birdlesstrees playingwithother'schildren
noescape from claustrophobicworld watchingthemplay with tinyellowcabs
of neighbors arm'slenghtaway &miniature carsofcommerce.
wishingtheirarguments&paperthinlives
wouldgo willstay. On surroundingstreets
taxishailed buthardly hardy
I havebeen crowdedbus emptiness riders lackingcurrency
&emptybus despair of this soempty age.
beneath graystored graysuited graysky ...........................
sale&sales ofthis graybusinessday I havebeen home&homeless
ofthis darkbusyway wherehome was nohome
sweatlesslabor of whitecollar blackink numbers notwithstanding
&black of longnights &white of emptyeyes with even myfamily&familyname
of cubiconfines&predatorydeadlines beingflat thin black white
thenbackto barebulbed apartment suffering love's disbanding.
however decoratordesigned
however softglow stop&go Allclocks speeding
crystalclearly insane withambition towardmymoment of leaving
in druggedfatigue&fear living a now I can'tacknowledge
of beingnumbered living a life that isn'tmine
but neverevernamed. fearingmust courtingwill
they I all missing simplestill
If I couldbecome monstrous stumbling on myown headstone
not squarelyfigured&roundlyignored self of I&alwasywillbe
taxiswouldn'tstop but peoplewouldstare numbered nameless homeless
people wouldn'tcare but wouldcertainlynotice. empty alone.
If I were a statue atleast pigeons wouldcall
&dimwitted forgivingrain wouldwash myeffacement
leavingme with whitepatina as curiouslyurban patois.
Captions Fat
Readingcaptions belowtheaction Havingaccumulated fat
rarelylooking at the actors. fromyears of indulgence
in belief&righteousness
Eachword being literal &alone will I everbeable to workitoff
lackingnuances a novelist wouldadd. whatwith myaging
&diminishingenergy?
Such is the wordsickness
of thosecommitted to ration Something to try¬
wantingtoknow thinkabout
failingtounderstand. duringmytraining.
Beginning Or faceit headon.
In a universe both ruled&random
lacking beinningending 2EZ
eachmoment isall &next also. Money islike a gun
each simplymaking it
When hominidbrains became able tooeasy.
toremember theireffect on others
selfwasborn Scatterings
as myself Beginningtospatter
&theclock started startingtoscatter
withknowledgethat allife sandgrains ofmy
ends. hourglassbeing
leaving whitecircle
And theracebegan surroundedby blacksand.
tofind a savior selling
lifeternal. Memories spattering scattering
tillfilling my emptying with
Episodes a mound of remnants of mydesiring
Mysenses sometimeseem when I wasdefenseless
toenter in a line one at a time &they wereattacking.
neveroffering morethan
an episodic reality. Better tobe strand
of sandinfall
Whenonearrives theformer wouldflee tillnothing isleft
I see but don'thear but all.
I hear but don'tfeel
I feel but don'tlove Gerbils
for thereis nolove in serialbeing Havingleft the cagedoor open
asif memorytheculprit only twogerbils remaining
asif mysenses aren'tagreeing &occasionally neitherofthem
tocomplete theportrait is using the exercisewheel.
ofmy strobbingself.
I'mbeginning to dismantle
Perhapsenses aren't meantobesorted the entire enclosure.
&you&I can meet ifatall It'sbeginning tolook morelike
intheblinkofaneye a junglegym than a prison.
blurring thenwhen
with tears from thisemptynow. Sotheystay
&theyplay
Practice while I sitquietly
I canpractice shooting&dribbling hopingthey'llnap.
alone
butnot passing orplayingdefense. Failing
Springfallsummerwinter
I'vegot toleave mydriveway in madconcert
&get outhere joiningthfray connected as earthfire
if I'm evergoingtobeable waterair
toreally learntoplay. in randomcycling
so unfair
Naked astoleave
Memory my desiringdefense
bestexposed &reason
in dulcetdream failing.
or nightmare
eachbeing Respite
aggregate accretion Pumpkin mums ornamentalrocks
of other bitsofstatuary
obstinate arrogance providingsanctuary
as self strippednaked &respite
exposed as thefolly fromAutumn's
it surelyis. incessantdervish.
**Custer**
Now I knowhow GeneralCuster felt ButoneboldTom approached foracloserlook
whensurrounded at LittleBigHorn. &aftergivingme the snakeye I thinkhe mistook
me forapossible mate.
Hearingobbling NorthSouthEastWest
knowing I wasinfor a nervesoftest Puffingup asif tochallengemyhegemony
sittingstill inmy favoriteforest spot beforeaccepting that neitherofus was goingtoflee
expectingstillness not avengefulplot. hebegan to strut&cluck fanhistail &prance
in whatsurely musthavebeen a matingdance.
NearingThanksfiving these raptors
stilliving Butoncloserinspection usinghis avianacuity
fearingtheir aim was to settlesomescores his tinybrain accepting that I wasnot hisdestiny
I remainedstill hopingthat intheir raptorsight thatmebeing hisdate wasn'tgoingtobe hisfate
I wouldn'tabeworth wentoff tocatchupwith hisflock
attack&afight. leavingmesitting torecoverfrom myshock.
Father BridalGown
I hope younever haveto Birthtodeath with everybreath
meetmyfather asif
butmytraining isfarfrom hemmingtrain of bridalgown.
complete.
Thinkingeachbreath proofoflifedeath
I apologize ifyoudo. whilebeing a plum in transform'spudding.
Mapping Self livingdying initsown mind'seye
Mappingreality with whilegivingit the old collegetry.
faith&knowledge.
Timeimprisoned with memory'slocks
Thereis nomap. wherelse couldselfstore allthoseclocks?
Thereis noreality.
Warningtag of firehazard
Simply thisnow being firehazard.
beggingforfelicity.
Sunday watchingMasters.
Reminisce Monday at drivingrange.
If stardust couldspeak
would it reminesce Shedding
on creatingourstar Sheddingeachleaf
as eternity'switness allowingwinter
to transform's enduringkiss? its brutalsay
lonliness
Orwoulditforget &neverlet emptiness
personalfeelings anger
spoilnaturaldealings fear
allowing in eachbeinglet
Eden'sin todecay
&unearnedsuffering after self'slament
forwe patheticsapiens? before lesself'stay.
BirthToEarth Effect
Birth beingdecomp Iknow thoseripples
ofitsown earth'send &bright moondancing
borrowed onlytobe bornagain aren'tgeese
asfood in elementalbeing. laboring to flight
butour unbelievable
Womb being both seedbed&tomb capabarabeaver
of perfectlove dancingeachday barelybelowsurface.
&eachnight in eternaljoy'splay
throughout my pitylessplight. Yetstill lightstreaking
across stillblacksurface
EachAll &myprimitive plethora
Iam eachall of stimulus to response.
rainbow&eye
rose&nose Etherealpause
chocolate&tongue endlesseffect
looncall&ear sans slightest
yourkiss as mytouch. thought
of causalneglect.
Eachsense a caress
asif allwerewed Notfear yetprimal
towhat myself &moredear
wouldsurelyshred. as intimacy of
moonlakebeaver
Missing &me.
Missingmostoften when thenwasnow
askingtorecall I doesn'tknowhow Spawn
withnow mixingthen with selfservingwhen Spawn of untouched untouchingmother.
thisforthatmissed &itall endsagain. Father of anger&calm.
Offspring of illmood &heart'sconfusion
Leavingmewithwhat? Realityordream? of selfdespised &familialies.
Livingonskim while skimmingoffcream
where thereal is transparent desireopaque Swimmingupstream against swiftcurrents
wherenow is a stream thenwhen a lake. flowingwithout serotonin buoy
pronetodark in brighteslight
Floatingalong with slowflowofbeing pronetosink in splashingfight
burningboth ofmyeyes tobegin fullerseeing
thenburning thatnow extinguishingitsflame againstmynature &mynurture
beforeitsrekindling inour thenwhengame. againstheir upstreamroilingdream
of fivedayweeks of righteouscritiques
Atlast missingless eachnowbecoming all ofmother dutybound &father's emptysound.
withself becominglost in bountifulhaul ....................................
of notime noplace nopretention noface Atlast havingspawned as generation'sduty
completing this toosane tailwaggingchase. midaged insearchof longmissedbeauty.
Trainingself to healingforgetting
Seeing unknowingdawn ineach sunsetting.
Usingphotons tosee
causingthatseen toflee. Decomposers
Denigratingdecomposers
Grabbing at submergedebris at greatrisk.
myforce forcingflotsom awayfrom me. Better lovingtransform's
last gentlekiss.
Soitgoes with myselfishness
pushingaway whatwouldbe mybliss. Simplyelementary
if fear abating.
Ifonly I couldbecome onewith Transform'sloving
in elementalbeing's gentlekiss. as lesseparating.
Robin
Damnedrobin robbingme calling summerfallwinter asif
ofmy everfasting graycold mytransform weremetronic
asif ¬ a meteor ofmy proudself.
inits diploidaunting
myancestors couldacquiesce Bird of prayfor &preyon
to lifeverlasting lift my hollowbonedbeing
inthough word plead. droppingme toglide windwhimsically
neverlanding in land of
Hereticalharbingers thisthat
of heaven's ungodlyfreedom thenwhen
choosingseason as sensibility neveragain
suitingsome toosanenotion of thatwhich is happening
success again&again
or again&again
secession unrefreshed by memoryforgot
ofmy unspiraling unbeing. of robinofspring
.............................. or hawkofstring
Hawk ofmy hopelessreason bindingmy freedomtobe
shred that orangebreast of springagain lean gray &cold.
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A final nothought Cicadas asleep? Chainsawlike screeching
deepwithin decayingflesh Hearing bullfrogsbellowing shutting screened bedroomfrenchdoors
a child's freshcellsuit. this midsummerdusk. to cicadasong.
In midsummerheat One groundhog nibbling.
pasturetree's black&whiteshade Itsmate fishingshallowstream.
bovines in repose. My wife me playingthrough.
AC's chillingbreath Like Christmascandles Harshwinter freezethaw
sonear my imminentdeath smallights in evergreenhills waterfall on granitewall
whilelying sleepless. being season'swarmth. frozenintoplace.
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FamilyReunion FlyPaper
Lipsdancing over glisteningpearl Flypapersapiens
splitting toflash her fleshofspeech spiralingabove cowpiefloor
unheard amongenerations of chatter ofbarn ofdance&decomp
across self'sgulf of propriety. eachdump being lifedeath asclump
of organism of transform.
Blackhair shining in Autumnbright
blendingwithsunglasses beneath blackbangs Attracting catching attachingto
untilrevealing her depthofeyes flies as fairysouls outoftime
sparkling darkdeep &childlike. lostinrime of neverendingwinter
of factruthcertainty inaworld
And herchildren'seyes sparklingback. indifferent tomy undyingdesire
for immortality.
Neither thigh norhips norbelly
bearingwitness to herpregnancies. AugustFern
Her bouyant boyish breastsofyouth Augustferns portendingfall
bearingravity with ocean'sgrace. withtheir rustingforfeit.
Noidea canbe incestuous Augustferns pretendingfall
with family'sblood running culturesthin. forbearing surroundingchlorophyll.
Noadoration canbe adultry
with actionfailing to lightaflame. Augustferns preemptingfall
defendingpretext of premonition.
But for ficklecircumstance .............................
this same reunion couldbe reuniting Augustferns forsakingsummer
wives&husbands shuffled&dealt forbidden toflaunt in Autumn.
by stranger yet farfairerfate.
Smothered
WithOut Smothered by honeysuckle sewntomysoul
Without mysupreme overwheeningfear by rocky streambed a wetdrythread
ofmy annihilation piercingmyfeet so pungently
withoutmy timetraveling shooting at a target frombeyond the homerun boundary.
only I canreach
withoutknowingimmensity of myimminent Beyondmydusk the lightoflife
&intimateseparation shining on porous fieldofseams
mushrooms pushingfromsoil softlysizing each outfielder's steps
reproducing sewing ceilingofstars to their diamondofdreams.
decomposing.
With nationalanthem sewingbleachers to bases
Patience withfield streamingstreams of fauxmoonbeams
Patiencebeginning from asphaltoder timbers pitch&stiff
withwill challenged by felled for lightofday inthis nightofplay
thisnow. soright thisMay for baseball sewntight
to familiesoflove &familiarfaces.
Trainedto count toten .........................................
againagainagainagain Thisbeing wherethe drugwar mustbegin
perhapsthistime embracingalternatives for demand.
inthisveryhour
patiencecanbore SuperGlue
mybusybee desire Memory superglueofself
&itwillmoveon withthen bondingwith then
seekingnectar thenboth bonding withwhen
in a different injoining becomingimpervious
flower. toeach thisnow.
Unloving Insidioustrength of clutchingattachment
Uncultivated in youth's uncaringfreedom whilenever suturingseparation.
uncultured asyet withinfreedom's unknowingfetter
whatoncewas lilaclove in violetfragranceburgeoning Asif failingabsorption
clusteredcolorsinviolate within densegreensea becoming adsorption
nowfetid by unnaturalfiat in supernaturalfete. as semiglosslacquer perservative
Me a gentile. She a jew. overmy naturalgrain.
Havingrownone as greenservant of sun Deluge
now floweringtwo Savagestreaming
she blossomingpink me blossomingblue straighteningwood's
withoutrecourse to codominantgenes waywardgoing.
or resource of artist's pastelblending
nolonger backyard lilacbush Whitewaterpath throughgreen.
but in separategardens of good&evil Leaflitterwake in forestpreen.
at unevenodds with belief's supremegods
beiing myriadgroupings of few. Flushingculvert carryingdebris
tohang tosnag perhapsbreakfree
Playground tocoarse toriver lake &stream.
I of playground & YMCA
unknowing C as Christianity. Thanks EmD
Self widerthansky
He of playground & CYA apt tosubsume inpride.
withme unknowing C as Catholic.
Self deeperthansea
Our othertwo each a jew apt toinclude bygreed.
notasif theyknew&withdrew
butflocked withfeathers Brain weighingGod
of their privatehue. withself asjudge
havingcreated emptythought
So our neighborhoodgang ungrew withoutgravity tobear.
separatinginto eachculture'smold
noteven having tobetold
what'sexpected from eachofus.
SheMale
Morefemale thanmale that packageoflust makingmachismo a jaundicedweed
of mindlesserection&blindblest thrust in gardenofwomen's toopreciousbloom?
locusofcontrol notnear its site
of creation'sbirth &specie'smight. Havingnowill tooweak tobe
morethan semen's wadingsea
Alert to scent &sentoknow waitingfor its signalship
itsnose havinglost it feralflow. tolight ourhouse beginning ourdip
Movingwithin from farbeyond
no self in handhalting nonsterilebond. intolife of generation'spast
&future inour primalblast
Bitch becomingmaster of its male sending then creating allof when
&itch mastered by its desiroustail in bright&joyous bacchanalianow.
self knowingless of passion'sflail
will fallingprey to instinct's sway. Who'stoask wherefrom or how
with lifesparkinglife taking a bow
Did Eve dealdirt making Adamhurt to women's soil &man'sproudplow
when flashing her blindingflesh? before thirdlife of parenting?
DidGod's rankdevil seizeitsday
makingevery shemalepay Caringless of selfishboast
guiding growth as nature'shost
for being spermcarrier for herseed shemanchild as willessdove
while cedingcontrol toherwomb conceivedinlust now lostinlove.
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Knowing&lusting
growing to parentalbond
unknowingloving.
Intimacy Portrait
Oh for intimacy of mushroom mycelia Frameofmind
beingbase as space for planet'shiddenface frameofmine
smilingonlyafter sky'sgentleweeping a frameup of
in love'sembrace silentlykeeping insidious kind.
earth&air&water&fire.
Paintmyportrait
Oh for intimacy of mushroom mycelia onfaceof bricktenement
possibilityoflesself's buffering in abstract obfuscation
promiseofless sapiensuffering. celebratingmydesperation
for escapefrom mylingering
Leaves desiring.
Earlywinterchore
blowing brownfromgreen DoubleMatchingQuiz
aroundtrees throughrocks stigma woundsofdisgrace
cleaningeveryseam. stigma woundsofChrist
stigmata pollenreceptor
Clearing velvetmoss
of oakpoplar wean Self'sDemands
pickingsome byhand Forget self'sdemand
as finalpreen. toseem in command
whilesinking in reality's
SunsOfLife quicksand.
These sixpetalled saturated sunsoflife
with love of green&growing. Butquick it'snot
tillself forgot
These six are stars broughtclose forwarmth in training redhot.
inforest of fivepetaledflourish. Tilldesire's cheapshot
tobecome Chamelot
Riverfromroot tostem growth'stide in dream'shottestrot
of ocean'sdominion on aridearth tosee lifeternal rots
whereleaves of might in sightofsun ineach Rorschach blot
buildpower intheir fruitseed mingling with selfconciouspsychologists
newgrowth fromeach nextolast flower. recreating Godel'sknot
of beingapart &/or
Turnaway burnaway all fogofsensing a singlepart
your gentle radiance beingstar of thisphere until crassjudgment
burningbright as yellowgreenfire abates.
with songs yetunsung by celestialchoir.
So sufferself'sdelusion
MyMind as selfrighteousdilemma
Mymind wouldhaveme asif lifedeath be chosen
expand transform in grandiousillusion
lest itbe insufficient asif self
tobesite of myimmortality. hasamind
ofits own.
Mymind wouldcreditme
with constructionofreality Or suffer cell'scontusion
asif other was I during self'stranfusion
& I truth by fiat. as seemingintrusion
beingpainof
Mymind being Godofgods fusion
recreating whatwas alwaysthere of lesself
buthistime inmy sacredimage. in pricelessinclusion.
**DueDate** **YouKnow**
Duedate 2 Jan 1947. Youknow you'regettingold
Taxbreak iff 1946. when peelingbanana
piquingpalateonly.
Rippingmeout
before I wasready **Wearing&Worn**
tobe a midtermstudent Torrentialwater abrasivewind
&midseasongraduate. wearing onthatwhich hasneversinned.
Me needing thosefewmonths Beginning at onewith fibersbound
for basketballskills. beatenapart by swirl£.
They needingthosefewdays Weatheringmachines both washer&dryer
for diaperdrills. onebeingwhilrwind onebeingyre.
(And nobodywinning withbirthday Wornfromwearing nothingtomourn
betweenJesus&NewYears.) lost to lint to nevereverbe reborn.
MyMatrix
Machinebrain Eroding ionicgradient
brain'smachinations corroding allsalient
coppertops fuelingself coding allradiant
creatingtruth ofself fueling slipperyslope
by one&only withme sleddinginto
for I alone valleyofshadowofdeath
masking sharedbutseparate praying for a lift
eternal but terminal creating a rift
reality. betweenamong
....................... powerless tobeone
Thus a matrix with emptiedmirror.
created byself
forself Glancing at angles
ofself glimpsingtangles
daydreaming to neversleep of reality withoutme.
where daringtodream
wouldcompel metoweep Becoming ghost of pastself freed
infaceof mirrorof noreflection. wherememory was I reality a sigh
eachdesire a dream tobehigh
Tolive among allother in heaven of belief'slie
withindream&dreaming that elementalbeing is
trainingtoquiet otherthanstill
strainingtoquit that batteries canenergize mywill
defenseagainst my fearofloss tobe amongothers whowon't.
of mirroredface unreflecting.
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Before
DimEnlightenment Before blackbirds&geese
Letmy enlightenment be by halfmoonglow finches&chicadees.
not blinded by noondaygbright
best for reading words for fact Past stillwindchimes
or words for worlds of fancy. sunless terracotta thermometer
hotub always hot always athand
Letmy enlightenment be tooplain cacophony unheard
barelyseen &wayunworthy through Frenchdoors of ourbedroom.
as searingspotlight of ration's sanction
or laserbeing of logic'schoice. From ourslope abovelake
dawnsun catchingtreetops
Letmy enlightenment be unchosen most fullyleafed some struggling.
unknown toallbut my verybestbeing
beingfeltdimly farfrom fullmoonshow Now's thetime to awakenbass
rather bare&barely in halfmoonglow. with noisytopwaters chuggers buzzbaits.
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StandingFirm Hearing night's hoots&chirps still.
Love isnotlove Watchingcrowns lighting.
if standingfirm Driftingbacktosleep todream
againstanyother of startling surfacestrike heavyline
whilebeing union withlake florafauna
memory's sulliedself before blackbirds&geese evenarise
in stubbornseeing. &me retired
with mymemories.
Evenmountain becomingplain
whenplowed forplanting. GreenStreaming
Greenstreaming horizontal florafireworks
Evenocean becomingdesert elegant in liftinglilting filamentousdance
througheons of sun'srage. in crystalclear aquahush.
No brashcrash but sinuousemulsion
Evenrust of elemenal ore hangingcolloidal in moist springeve
being ore of unknowingearth. beneath almostfullmoon pathside rush.
........................................
Evenbreath ofmylife But now dawnstillness &gentleglide
beingblood inyourveins. mirrorsurface unwashed by whitewater
no bubbling todistort clear reflection of
LetAge highdryhands of sunlightgathering.
Dye yourhair of let it age
I married you tobecome lessme Fallingmoonsmiling for master
joiningyourlife inits purity &master's secondminion
of heart ina home oflove inlove. chlorophyllbearers oxygensharers
shadowingtheirsmile on surfacetension
I will yourwill as unintentional secondseeing.
tobecome myway ......................................
till death'sredemption On highdry riversidepath
as transform's endlessday. aquafestival diminshing
to meretufts of toughgreensilence
Age asyouwould withinout my lovingeye trampled without regard by
fullnewmoon in star'semptysky naturehikers watchingstreaming.
lessmejudging beamingmoreyou
&yourbeauty throughmy surrenderingsigh. Brownedbysun dustedgold byheat
never gardenofgrace&grandeur
Dyeyourhair or let it age yet neverthelesser for beingunnoticed
letyour constantbeing becomemysage withjudgment lostinlove
knowinglesswrong lessright more real these tuftedboquets of humble
becoming elementalbeing emergentmajesty.
withinlove's tenderfeel.
Explained
Self explainingtobrain Noway youcansay cells holdmysway
"Youcan'tbe fromwhence when Iam Spirit when Iam TheWay."
I came
foryou shalldie butcertainly "Sorry dearestSelf butyou areofmemory
not I." nothing morelessthan the verysamekind
of chemicalaw &randomsense
Brain explainingtoSelf borntodie in presentense within
"Youare myhistory written in biochemistry ElementalBeing.
thus youshalltransform withoutmystery
asis theway for eachall elementalbeing. Youshall dearestSelf livedie yourlie
Simply enjoyourgame till our finalfreeing." that Supernaturalbeing isreal.
No wordsalad from SupraNaturalBeing
"Canthat bemyfate?" queried indignantSelf. willbeheard or acknowledged byGod
"Iam &desiretoremain asis Lord ofall I will. or sapien.
Hopi RainbowFalls
"ThePeople" (BigIsland Hawaii.)
holedup in caves oftheirown design Hiddendark above waterfallingmist
pueblos of sand of theirverybeing neverlight everclear havingneverbeen kissed
beingcliffs&streams of wind&way by splashofpassion as rainbowjewel
of oneness with lightdark vistas these aqualava lover'scradles
as life'svisitation &love'sintegration of moltenhot &eonscool.
within their so very elementalbeing.
What younglove couldpossibly resist
Let their restingplace be inthepool thischance for first furtivetryst
of nationsofallife tobe love&two each headlessfool
eroded scattered reforming reformed romancingeachother in fecundpool
intheconsciousness of those lessclear
about warm cool stream pool while neverlamenting an instantmissed
day night lifedeath time of livingalife of alwayswished
&the timelesstimeful alluncaring. while embracingingpassion's onlyrule
becoming lovelessex so beatifullycruel.
Standingtall standingwith.
Sand heedingwind Pulsingwithflow of streamingbelow
wind heedingsun. lessgirdle of sanity's sanitizedsqueeze
Sun heeding celestial law pleasingself with primodialthrust
as ThePeople bleed. in actspropelled by nature'smust.
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Sunlesssnowless gray, At themall thatnight Young mainstreet tree's draped
Cold raining blackice blacknight. seeingdaylightfriends notquite with strands of whitelights blinking
Unseenmoon waning. knowing what tosay. inthe bitingwind.
Snowflakes floatingpast Scraggly cedartree
stacking soft on windowsill shapedperfect by Christmaslights
of my firstgrade class. forlong winternights.
Coloredlights looping
beneath startopped Christmastree
mimicking garlands.
Feeling coldwind die Searchingformysock
hearing distantdogs howling round&round washer ringer.
Feeling tear forming. Breathing softnerfumes.
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