GLOSSARY - 3
GlibLinguisticsOfferingSemanticShenanigans
AkaRandomYammering
SimplyNatural
ElementalBeing
TrainedLesself
BeyondCrossOfSelf
NoBelief
--Reality--
Some hopefullyhelpful operationaldefinitions.
Baseon puzzlepieces wellaged&weatherbeaten
accumulated duringmylifetime.
My (never)completedpuzzle presented as COSTofSelf.
(COST = CellularOriginSymptomsTreatment)
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self - 1. fiftythousandyears of neuralcircuits reinforcedby successfulsurvivaloutcomes becoming
corememories continuallyfirng inordertoallow quickresponses to threateningsituations
while strengtheningweakening under environmentalpressures.
2. fivethousandyears of increasinglysophisticated neuralcircuitry influenced by socialenvironment.
Hun&Gath createdbyneed.
Self as distinction creating greed.
Desire&defense becoming creed.
3. firstfiveyears postfertilization
a. fundamental behaviorpatterns&memories established
b. nurture interacting with nature(DNA) to shape burgeoning nearlydefenseless personality
exhibiting moderateplasticity (to mydismay during latertraining to stillness&lesself
finding my self intransigent/intractable)
4. secondary sentience as memory
4. apparent locusofchoice occuring withinbrain's synapticswamp
5. past incarnate
a. elementalself - reactions to eachthisnow furthering maintenance&safety of organism
with minimalintrusions from desires &defenseofreputation
b. socialself - reactions to eachthisnow serving desires &defenseofreputation
1] creatorofdivinity inorderto survive thoughtdeath via SuperNatural afterlife
2] creator of unrealisticmap of lifebeyondmemory madeseductive by SupraNatural
confidentlyreasoned scenarios
3] brainonplayground duringrecess makingup gamestoplay
4] brain'sconferenceroom where memoriesmeet to chat
5] brain's voluntaryshutin watchingreruns of soapoperas&gameshows
6] imaginaryfriend I neveroutgrow
7] voiceinmyhead
8] me ontrial beingjudged by juryofmypeers
9] fantasybasketball using lastseason'stats
10] weapon with sevenrounds - envy/greed/gluttony/lust/ire/pride/sloth
11] desiredrivendynamo seekingpleasure
12] memory'spuppet wishingitwere a boy
c. lesself - memories trainedtowardstill
1] mindfullness minus mind (where "mind" implies duality as SupraNatural
or worse divinity as SuperNatural)
2] forgivenmemories
Iam constantly creatingmaintaningdefending the self Ithink Iam
fearing that withoutmypersonalidentity extendingthroughtime
lifewouldbe hopelessmeaninglesspurposeless (which it is).
Less I abidingwithin eternaltransform lost&loving in eachthisnow.
senses (external/input) - famous 1-5
(internal/stayput) - 6. memory - from exact to halforgotten to false to hallucination
7. emotions - thesaurus fullofeelings caused by mems+chems
servingorganicsafety disserving defenseofself
(chems = a. 65+/- hormones including about 20 endorphins
b. 40+ neurotransmitters
c. combinations of above
8. interoception - headache stomachache earache muscleaches...
9. vestibular/proprioception - position movement balance
synapticeswamp - 1. 100trillion+/- synapses in sapienbrain
2. caulderon of mems+chems brewing survivalstrategies
limbicmilieu - 1. BermudaTriangle of brainstructures aiding&abetting "feelings"
2. self's dressingroom inwhich I mask desire&defense as emotions
behavior (output) - motoresponses toboth internal&externalsensing
unwilled - 1. musclememory
2. dreaming hallucinating impairedperception hinderingsurvival
willed - 1. untrained - ignoring thisnow chosing thenwhen tosupport self's desire's&defenses
2. trained - using thisnow to chosebehaviors supportingsurvivaloforganism
SOS
(symptomsofself)
sevendeadlysins sevensubtlesins
1. envy - self judging 1. belief - self choosing asif free
2. greed - self desiring 2. faith - self seekingsurvival within eternalife
3. gluttony - self indulging 3. hope - self notsoconfident of lifeverlasting
4. lust - self excited 4. meaning - self judging thisnow insufficient
5. ire - self defending 5. purpose - self tryingtoearn eternalife
6. pride - selfrighteousness 6. forgiveness - self in righteousjudgment
7. sloth - self bored 7. goodness - self servingself icecreamtreat
memory - preserved synapticinterrelationships able tobe recalled for guidingbehaviors
1. muscle - trained physicalmovement inserviceto FirstImperative (Maintenance)
2. social - guiding interpersonalinteractions inserviceto SecondImperative (Safety - in number)
& ThirdImperative (Reproduction)
a. aggressiondependence as civilized freezeflightfight
b. building&maintaining self inresponseto perceivedthreat from anyallother
c. culturalconditioning by parents peers society
3. factitious - a. desire'skitchen serving comfortfood to self
b. self'sprivatehell of separation
4. forgiven - natnur (naturenurture) faced&accepted via trainingselftowardstill resultingin lesself
dream - memories lackingexternalstimuli runningamuck
liminalbeing - memorydream interface
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Ifonly I couldforget
whatIwant
&become whoIam.
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reality/transform - 1. infiniterippling of causingeffecting rendering doingjustonething impossible
2. fluidfeeling forflow of thisnow withintransform'smurmuration
3. verbalintellectual dichotomies (rightwrong TF beginend)
lost to immersiveinteractions withintransform
4. wholes as part parts as wholes
5. impermanence
6. nonattachment
7. noseparation
8. thatwhichremains after accountingforself
reasoning - brain comparingthisnow to memories to predictoutcomes of behaviors serving the
ThreeImperatives - Maintenance Safety Reproduction
wisdom - ability of trainedlesself tobecome eternaltransform'sreality beyond self's desiring&defensiveness
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wisdom isto reality isto lesself
as
reason isto truth isto self
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Withinreason suffering.
Beyondreason love.
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conscious(ness) - respondingtostimuli from anyall of our ninesenses
selfconsciousness - respondingto mymemories
1. untrained - a. retrieval resulting in chaoticjuxtaposition of memories
variouslylabeled un/non/sub/semi/collective/selective/oceanic/metaphysical consciousness
b. retrieval resulting in inappropriate responses
(mistaking bossforfather wifeformistress mistressforwife)
c. dreamories - 1] confusion collusion connection correction confluence of dreams&memories
inwhich sweat&tears of mypersonalreality dilute mysharedbeing
2] dreams as sleepingmemories &/or memories as wakingdreams
2. trained - a. retrieval inwhich firing of corememorycircuits (self) hasbeendamped
through regular&longterm calmintrospection
1] allowingme toface myself
2] lesseningchance of beingoverwhelmed bymyghosts
b. retrieval of memories of similarsituations resulting in appropriate responses
(acknowledging bossorwife for whotheyare runningfromcavebear)
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Training
Slowingpace of past'sintrusions.
Slowingthen's racetopreeminence.
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TRAINING
sitting - 1. Western "meditation" (avoiding culturalappropriation)
2. sittingquietly watchingmemory selfstimulate until I becomebored with me
othertrainingexercises - 1. openclose doors&drawers silently
2. unload dishwasher silently
3. frombed to bathroom to dutiestherein &back witheyesclosed
4. gettingdressed eatingbreakfast witheyesclosed
5. atleast onceaweek watch a TVshow featuring nonsapiens
(NOVA Smithsonian NationalGeographic)
6. loveyour LabradorRetriever (or anypet bigenough tohug withoutbreaking)
7. readpoetry
a. buy twoanthologies &readthrough withoutjudgment
b. goback&typeyourfavorites for bedsiderereading
c. chooseyour tenfavoriteauthors &readtheir collectedworks
d. analyze yourfavorites (withallduetrepidation)
8. music
a. learnaninstrument orsing
b. listento othergenres
9. mutevolume whilewatchingsports
a. no playbyplay
b. no "expertanalysis"
10. discipline your socialmediause
11. create yourownchallenges
best training - 1. parenting - givingoverself to newlife
2. marriage - givingoverself to oneother
3. militaryservice - givingoverself to manyothers
4. teaching - givingoverself to expandedclan
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SuperNatural - 1. subjectivereality beyond lawsofnature
2. realmofDivinity inwhich choiceofbelief isboth arbitrary&binding
3. promise of God'sprotection now &Heaven's perfectionlater
SupraNatural - 1.objectivereality known with aid of controlledexperimatation&mathematical rigor
2. use of contrast&dichotomy to separate&isolate phenomenon
SimplyNatural - 1. sobjectivebeing (subjectasobjectasubjectasobject) unknown withinprobabilisticlparameters
2. feltfusion of phenomenon as reality obeyingnaturalaws within
eternaltransform'sgyre &immediateimpermanence
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SuperNatural SupraNatural SimplyNatural
{Divinity} {Duality} {Elementary}
Naturesubjectified Natureobjectified Nature asis.
mademine. keptdistant. Me trainingtofit.
Beyondknowing. Knownable Unknowable.
Master. Amenable. Lovable.
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The following is a sequenceofpuzzlepieces that turnedout tobe semanticsinkholes
that I neededto workthrough tofinally purgemypuzzle of allhints of
Divinity&Duality arriving at eternaltransform as ElementalBeing ;
HolySpirit/spirit/Soul/soul/mysticism/gnosticism
a littanyofconsciousnesses &finally MIND.
mind - misunderstanding of self as SupraNatural (rational) locusofcontrol of organism
body - totalorganism including self as autobiographicalmemory
bodymind duality - 1. Descartian intellectualconceit separatingself (a neurologicalreality)
from organism inorderto transcend cellulardeath
2. selfishness in fullarmor&effulgentglory
duality - illusoryseparation causeby
1. LOC-1(LawOfContrast) - brain'sway of understanding usingopposites
a. insideoutside as fundamentalduality
1] semipermeablemembrane causingseparation defining lifedeath
2] originalsin of being apartfrom isolated alone
b. lifedeath implhing beginningendings
c. lifedeath compelling body v. mind corpus v. soul sapien v. God
2. LOC-2(LocusOfControl)
a. brain'sdefault assigningdoer ascause & done aseffect
b. self takingcredit for actionsoforganism whichwer infact interactions of mems&chems
within exigenciesofenvironment ineach thisnow (transform'sgyre)
c. choice asif I am the ghostinmycellsuit ¬ slave tomypast
responding to memchemcascade as natnur
(natnur - a. nature as greatgreatgreatgreatgreatgreatgrandparents
spiraling as concertinalwire of DNA defining border ofmypuzzle
b. nurture as parentspeersvillage especially for firstfiveyears postfertilization
imprinting before self'sdefenses are created&honed
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Having at longlast clearedmy lesserself of Mind I fear useofthatword canonlyconjure Divinity or Duality
so I've abandoned it completely. But its commonuse mustbe dealtwith.
mindfullness - 1. awareness
2. thoughtlesself sufferingremnants of Duality
mindwandering - lesself on a walkabout
mindgame - self onoffense playingames within Duality
spirit - brain in themepark
soul - brain in church
nevermind - neverbrain??
makeupyourmind - makeupyourbrain??
HavingreplacedMind with Self Ifeeltheneed to replaceMind'spartner Body with someword thatwon't
suggestDescartes. Although not particularlypoetic I use Organism whichfeels (mustIsayit?) organic
interconnectedwith allothe where Body felt isolated hollow &filledwith Divinity&/orDuality.
Thus I'mleft speakinginterms of "myOrganism" ratherthan "myBody" with "Iam" becoming the mouthful
"mySelf within myOrganism is" withthatOrganism stuffedwith hopefully lesser&lesserSelf.
Sobeit. Iam anOrganism intertwinedwithinTransform. Partofme is my Self whicharememories
having firstcrack at interpretingstimuli & aftercomparisons&analysis with othermemories
finalsay in response.
(Did I need toverbalize alltheabove? That's why I like writingpoems.)
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ElementalBeing - matterenergy
hydrogengravity
stardustlove
PeriodicTable fullofelements whose aggregations&transformations resultin allthereis
including cellbound sentient selfconscious beings guidedby evolutionaryimperatives of
Maintenance Safety Reproduction
ElementalBeing manifesting as gyre/murmuration of eternaltransform
1. stardustcondensed sparked evolving
2. timelesspacelessdirectionalessrandom elementalgyre/slurry/murmuration
3. continuallyshifting matterenergyfields beyond causeffect neitherdirected norcycling
4. state resistedbyration whose thinkingknowing is limitedbyDuality
&byself desiringconstancy&eternalife
5. timewithoutarrow (only selfconsciousbeings fearingdeath addingarrow to transform)
6. impermanence manifesting as randomovement of elements
withinstrictures of physicalchemicalaws
7. each thisnow in randomdisarray&joyousinterplay
photosynthesis - chemistry occuringwithin chlorophyll in greenplants to trapsun'senergy in carbohydrates
CO2 + H2O + sun'senergy ---- CH2O + O2 (simplifiedchemicalreaction)
ATPmolecules - 1. starlightfireflies createduringphotosynthsis being safe&portablelpackaging of sun'senergy
2. kitchenmatch of organiclife
3. translator of sunintosapien
cellular respiration - opposite of photosynthesis occuring in everylivingcell to convertenergy of
carbohydratebonds into ATP (CH2O + O2 --- CO2 + H2O + ATP)
life - 1. separation + organization
2. stardust&sun trapped as complexmolecules within semipermeablemembrane capable of
a. movement/growth/preservation
b. metabolicmaintenance/homeostasis
c. responsetostimuli
d. reproduction
3. transform expressedinorganism dancing to naturalenvironmentalpressures as evolution
4. transform separatefrom yet absorbedwithin each thisnow
5. self's sensationofseparation within transform'smurmuration
leading to fearofnonexistence after breakdown of neurons codingmemories
6. self'sdesire for permanence
7. thoughtlife as self separatefromtransform
death - 1. reparation to entropy
2. cellular
a. spark becomingcool&dark
b. elements&energy freedfromdemands of cellularorganization
3. cognitive
a. memories(self) lost todisease accident age
b. forgettingwho Ithought Iwas
4. thoughtdeath as self lostwithintransform
lifedeath - swirlingstardust encapsulated&sparked for an eternalinstant with semipermeablemembrane
then goingcold&dark with elements&energy setfree
nonliving - swirlingstardust&sparlingstars dervishdancing within transform'sgyre
evolution - 1. change in genefrequency of populations of organisms causedby environmentalpressures
2. directionless meaningless transform in physiology&behavior of populations of organisms
in response to climatic &/or socialchallenges
development - changeinphysiology&behaviors of individualorganisms during growth&maturation
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emotions - chemicalreactions to anyall ofour ninesenses stimulating self (NOT mentalstates of mind)
Basicemotion serving the ThreeImperatives (Maintenance Safety Reproduction)
1. disgust
a. negativememories of rottingfood/excrement (Maintenance)
b. negativememories of urogenital interactions (Reproduction)
2. surprise - stimulus lackingclearmemory (Safety)
3. sad/happy - memories of un/successful survivalbehaviors (allthreeImperatives)
4. anger/fear - negativememories of failures to protect (Safety)
a. organism from blockedneeds (Maintenance)
b. self from threatenedreputation (Safety)
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Soitbegins as SimplyNatural Imperatives.
Then I dressup
my desires&defenses
inanyemotion Ichoose.
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Love v. Loniness
lesseparation moreseparation
lesself moreself
transform ticktocktime
hate - selfrighteousness + fear
boredom - self's immenseabyss of unfulfilled desires
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MiscellaneousMeanderings
poetry - 1. privatelangage of selfishsubject nonwilling to compromise insight from outsight
2. no nossingwhilepassing no smalltalk no smallshare
3. givingoverself whilebecomingaware of beingbeyondmyboundary
4. fallinginlove
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Ifyoudon'tknow howtoswim
neitherdepth nortemperature ofwater willmake a difference.
Mostshower. Somebathe. Few livebylake&take a dailyplunge.
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poems - product of lesself attemptingtofree conotativepower of wordsymbols
poet - 1. PoorOafEarnestlyTrying
2. PersonOfExcellentTaste
3. lesself in training trying tobreak languaghabit by
treating wordsickness with wordmedicine
haiku - 1. HeartAnsweringInKindness&Unknowing
2. lesself tryingtofocus on thisnow withself dancingthroughmybrain
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Lesself In Sports
competition - 1. selfishness
2. applying fullcourtpressure inorderto beatheshit ourofmyopponents
cooperation - 1. less selfishness
2. notapplying fullcourtpressure onmyopponents
cooptition (cooperativecompetition)
1. trainedlesself
2. applying fullcourtpressure until myfriends learntodealwithit
&can helpcreate a morebeautifulgame
Opponents becomingfriends. Teammates becomingfamily.
copete - to engage in cooptition
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PIES
(An abbreviatedlist of sapienintelligences.)
PQ (physicalquotient) - abilitytoprovide organism with energy todealwith
the ThreeImperatives (MaintenanceSafetyReproduction)
IQ - (intellectualquotient) - abilitytomanipulateabstractions (an overated survivaltool)
EQ - (emotionalquotient) - abilitytomanage overwhelmingsensoryinput
SQ - (socialquotient) - abilitytounderstand empathize &interact withfellowsapiens
StQ - (stillnessquotient) - abilitytoslow streamofstimuli(especiallyfrom memory)&judgments
Notwithstanding my mnemonicdevice PIES the properorder of intelligencies
for me 1. SQ 2.EQ 3. StQ 4. PQ 5. IQ.
Buddhism & ElementaryBeing
impermanence - transform
nonattachment - 1. forgettingwho Ithink Iam
2. lostintraining - no hallofame
no eternalife
3. lettingoself- becominglove
Clinging
Clingingtothenwhen
hopingforeternalife
hangingoncrossofself
afraidtobecomelove.
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I Presume
Wesapiens are intimidatedbydivinity seducedbylanguage convincedbyreason.
I presume touse nature to challengedivinity
language unreasonably
reason irreverently
all inthename of love as lesseparation.
SimplyNatural
SimplyNatural seeming SuperNatural
when I can'tseeseams Doing undoing
in love's patchworkperfection. &in myself's zeal undone.
......................... If I must bestill.
Countedasillusion whenbeing
withoutdoer
Extinction creditingdivine with whatseems a blur
Sapiens tomy puerilefive &especially sixthsense
driventoextinction beingmemory of thenwhen failing presentense.
causingEarth
to blinktwice Lesselfbehavior from fontofsin
shed a saltytear seemingsinister tothose trustingdieties.
& getback tobusiness as usual. Unbelievingthiereyes when I becomesdim Clouds still &all leaves
realityclashing with their chosenmemories. yet dryingsheets be not eaves
Ants butroofs slant&stiff.
driventoextinction As a sufficientlyadvanced technology
causingEarth seems a magicshow tothose untutored
toconvulse so welltrainedlesself if sensed atall
wretching dryheaves mustseem atbest blasphemy tothose
doublingover spewing stardust hearing a call.
backinto spiralsea.
Unknowingjudgment unabletoexplain
Thursday's or Sunday's cellsoup notseeming tobe "as nature intended"
bothbeing as beingcanbe those of lesself livingundefended
beyond self'skeen in a world of penitents nevereally at peace.
a baldhead with solartoup
forever transforming Nature doesn'tintend nature doesn'tbefriend
&free. in transform'sgyre naturedoesn't transcend Beinglove's easy
with its few simplelaws & a handfulofelements it's remembering youare
& indifference to whatsapiens count as sense. that's reallytricky.
Unwilling to hushwill me miredindesire
needing SuperNatural onlywhen discontent
unwillingtojoin earthairwaterfire
in love'sperfection as transform's mutechoir.
StillWet MyAlways
Stillwet behind our oceanears Myblood
stillcalloused from arborealbeing thatwaterfall.
peekingfromcave into nightsky Then bassplash.
asif beginning to askbyself why. Now rainpockedlake.
Alwayselements
Thinking&knowing &thinkingbyknowing hydrogenoxygen
&knowingbythinking tighteningmynoose earthairfirewater.
whileusing newfouonfire to cookmygoose
beforeconjuringmemories then cuttingthemloose. Mybody
thatcornfield.
Tooproud me havingbeenexiled from sea Then bassjump.
&driven from eden of forest'splenty. Now rolledhay.
Living furtive&futile as refugee Alwayselements
whilecreatingdreams to setmefree. carbonitrogen
earthairfirewater.
Abletoconjure afterlives
&an almightyprotectore as myself connives Myself
tolive inaworld inwhich I alwayswins thatghost.
unaware of intellect'symmetry creatingsins. Then belief.
Now faith.
Singingmypraises in echoingchamber Alwaysdesire
while pretendingdominion over land&sea stimulusresponse
&over allother including the me memoryaction.
I draw on cavewalls as secondattempt at forever.
Mylesself
Now I layme downtosleep thatfamily.
replaying mydeeds from memory'sleep Then friend.
ifIwake beforeIdie Now lover.
Imusthavetrained tostill myweep. Alwaystransform
thisnow
Blink Matchsticks earthairfirewater.
Blink change Buildingmy matchstickvillage
notime torearrange inaworld of friction.
playtoys of transform's Multiverse athand
allbeing. Tryingtoholdsun or betteryet inmyhead
duringmyjourney as I write&speak.
withintransform.
Tyranny
Forgetting grammar'styanny &reason'srighteousness
forgivingMarch her headiness &myblustering impatience
buttercups breakingthrough November's wetblanket
It wasn't its thorns signalingforsythia tofire fourthofJuly yellow Castingintoslop.
or its snowhiteblossoming beforesun's grayingeye turningjaundice tojoy Gelatinous frogeggmass
causingme tostop. beingtransform embarassingtime hiding beddingbass.
beingpresence embarassingtense
being forgottenforgiveness
&imminentabsorption
ofwhat wasonce attachment.
Algae'sattachment to fungi'sconnection
(with carboydrate remuneration)
becominglichen eitherneither symbiontcomponent
stardustconnection viagravity becoming galacticincubation
becomingstars of solarsystems sapiensbecoming lostsymbionts
(separate bymy verysurvival)
beyondtouch aswitness ofother
beyondunion asproof ofpart
beyondtyranny of righteousness
woodpeckerdrumming
Everybush&weed jazzcombo's groundbass Pumadogblending
armedwiththorn or needleprick garbagetruck humming with kneehigh meadow strawgrass.
each stabbingtoquick. whalesongheard through Movement lostinbreeze.
foresthome
eachbeingall in exquisitelonliness
separationlost witinhabsorption
transformanifest as intimation
bathingbeing in stunningapprehension.
EvolutionQuiz - 1 EvolutionQuiz - 2
Facts Facts
Lowerlimb leaves beingravaged Of every ten offspring of whitemoths
by shortneckedbrowsers. two willbeblack bychance.
Ofeach ten offspring eight willbe shortnecked Industrialrevolution's coalburning
& two willbe longernecked bychance. turning London's lightbarkedtrees darker.
After twentyseven breedingcycle longnecked Whitemoths replaced by darkmoths.
"giraffees" well established.
Postrevolution cleanup turning London's
Hypothesis treebark backtolight.
1. Shortneckedbrowsers stretched Darkmoths replaced by whitemoths.
toeat higherlimbed leaves &had
eight of ten longernecked offspring. Hypothesis
2. Shortneckedbrowsers ate their longneckedsibs 1. With trees turningdark
thus growinglongernecks. the eightwhitemoths ate the two darkmoth
3. Conservationsists fed shortnecked offspring &becamedark &viceversa.
browsers vitaminsupplements 2. Whitemoths rubbedagainst darkbark
causing more longernecked offspring. tobecome darkermoths &viceversa.
4. Longernecked offspring atebetterthan 3. Conservationists sprayed lightmoths dark
their shortnecked sybs &competedbetter &later the darkmoths light
in the reproductiongame. 4. Birds atemoths theycouldsee
&eatenmoths rarelyreproduce vice or versa.
EatingPIES Thumb&Tongue
(PQ - PhysicalQuotient) Thumb&tongue beforemybrain
Breathtobrain includingpain bringingsapienlife to valley&plain
neuronsfeeling eternalnow protectingagainst cold&rain
forgetting then my skulldoing a modestjob.
unknowing when
at one within reality. Thumb&tongue mybuilders be
...................... less wit&sly than work&sweat.
(IQ - IntellectualQuotient) both roof&hat demandingfee
Brain'sbestbet at freeingwill but thinking can'think topay mydebt.
fightingvgoodfight neverstill
creatingorder from highentropy Words mostspoken beyondasong
creatingself for alltosee whenworkerswork to plant&build
atodds with each&everyother. are "Pass someseeds" "Mymeasure'swrong"
............................... then backtowork aswords arestilled.
(EQ - EmotionalQuotient)
Buriedbrain namingpain Plansofpower plansofpeace
awash in chemicalmilieu plansofgoodness mercy love.
drowning inits vereyownbrew Sapienblood my planner'sgrease
dealingconfused with me&you planning towork without a glove.
equanimity atrisk from motionwithin.
................................... But tearing myhand whilebuidling mydream
(SQ - SocialQuotient) then tearingthatdream that builtmygreed
Reachingout while stuckwithin then endingthatgreed &coughingupcreed
graspingatstraws of scarecrow's kin my blackbloatedbeing sofar fromneed.
language as a lastlifeline
bindingself with feebletwine Mybrain sodistant from mythumb
atbay within fallowfield. withtongue between withwords sobland.
................ Myfirst bestchoice becomingdumb
Foundation&framing focusing on myjob athand.
from
meat&wheat. Plansofbrains beyondmybread
becomingstuff of pleasure'spride.
Electric&plumbing Talkofgods bestleft unsaid
from need neglected byself's firstbride.
apples&oranges.
Beyond anyserpent's slickthink oil
Walls&roofing beware allwordy new worldcharmers.
from Embracingrain&sun&soil
peas&carrots. raisingtallplants praisingallfarmers.
Interiordecorating **Chowder**
for Eatingeither clam or shrimpchowder
desert. becoming a treehuggerflouter
................. molluskoffering B12&Omega-3s
Please whileproffering Hg&PCBs
eat a balancediet crustacean rich in protein
but allergenic tothextreme
History not tomention microplastic content
History a oneactplay adding undigestiblepercent
with everyone endingupdead. to either/or heartyrepast.
Costumes of splendidpalette
but blood always cold&red. So pickyourpoison
&enjoy yourprotion
**Porn** knowingwell the toll
Porn as sexualexcitement. when sapiennurture
Nothingatallwrong till it challenges Mothernature.
gets outofhand.
SevenSubtleSins
Belief = Self desiring.
Brain choosingmemories.
Brain choosingsupernatural
thus insuringlifeternal.
Faith = Self clinging.
Thoughtknowledge that I
canbeprotected now
&receiveperfection later.
Handmaidentograce
allowingself tothink
lessuffering canbehad
without doingthework.
Hope = Self pleading.
Longjohns pants
shirt sweater
jacket hat hood
scarf mittens
layeringagainst
reality'sfreeze.
Meaning = Self affirming.
Ignoring thisnow.
Dreamingofperfection.
Gagteway to immortality.
Purpose = Self confirming.
StrivingforMeaning.
Forgiveness = Self's magnanimity.
Pseudolove after
causing separation
throughjudgment.
Goodness = Self's righteousness.
Pseudolove
at a distance.
**Floating**
The rootbeer mustbewarm roomtemp more Gentlysipping before plasmaquaffed
whereunscrewing barelymoving povoking no urge crystalintact longafter liquidonslaught
bringingbubbles to surface as circleofwhite crashingicecream on coolinglips
till screwedbacktight to suppressanysurge. mouth lipchewing in reflexuntaught.
Icedream mustbecold nearlyrockhard Liquidslurry as frozengoodness
needingtobescraped in shallowscoopmotion becoming wellordered bodyofphysics
creatingwhitecurves foldingflaps as funnel &liquor of primevalearth.
guidingliquid delight beginningourfun.
(Tips toohigh thosetips ofherbreasts
Pouring whiteningwarmbrown slowly soslowly thenasking thoselips tomeet in a yes
down incliningicechute at anglesacute tomynevermouthed but somatteredrequest
bubblingliquid becoming eddyfoam frozen wordswallow inmy fooldrunkstupor
crystalsbecoming both/& randomplasma becomingplasma of mypueriledearth.)
of undefinedtexture &undefinabletaste. ................................
Spooningcontinuing till balanceachieved
Sweetbeer neveragain nearlybrown of brown&white of liquid&bite
icecream neveragain merelycrystal flow barelyremaining &tinyfloatingchunks
neveragain warmcold with alchemycontinuing of remembrance of beginning
till risingeffervescence threateningoverflow of that summer'stease.
cannotovercome H2O's surfacetension
or attention from waiting kissoflips. Oh theycallit a float
yet allrising thensinking
Spooning foamlaced icecream to mouth in glassofswirling
balancing sweetsweetersweetest brownwhitewonder.
pressingcurves to curveofcup
blending sugar&sugar in lightbrownpleat Oh theycallit indulgence
tillonly by deepcut canwhite befound. when its puresworship
of allbeing in allform
(Frostymugfloats usedtofloat tomycar thisnow's swirlingsensualstorm.
with rollerskatebeauty of catlapcurves
&moonlit crescentsmile.) Oh thegive it a name
........................... &call it profane
Spoonbeconinglost in foam&bublle but it be holierthan
slidingbeneath stormcloudsurface all thatcomesnext
stopping slanted but fartoolate &all thatevercame
to preventstickyhandle from fulldunkfate. inthatsummer of youth
&passionunproven
Onlyafter tipsip canspoon be retrieved thatfloat of root
now coldhandle mouthcleaned of crystalperfection
beingdried on notsoclean sleeve. &herpast drunkdaily
in cooliquid dreaming.
Then lip&coolmeeting a sensualcruelgreeting ...........................
meltingmemory aftermemory of then&then ......................
in transform of thisfleeting smooth&sweet ..............
to desire'sgod &restraint's flacid defeat. ........
..
Salty
Eighteenwings onegoose Yoursaltykiss
risingthrough squawkingstillness mysaltytears
nine thinecks gliding. ifonlystars
couldknow
ourbliss. Millipedesummer
hearingthemcrunching whencrushed
Vapor fromcooling smellingsweetoder.
ourearth ourpassion
purefresh for thirst
lifebeingrehearsed
before finalpooling
Crushingmillipede &molecularfueling.
with collegedictionary
thenback to poems. A marriageofsorts
with mineral leaching
&
particulate breaching
asif
birthingourfamily
from
crytaltobreast Givingitallup
saltingourpurity forsomething of novalue.
withincellsuit of me Cicadas. Moonlight.
&
oceanofyou.
..........
Where stream&ocean
comingle
blackishslurry of blood&sweat
Dog rollingindung moreocean than stream
disguising hisownoder lesself than mydream.
disgustingothers.
Blackishslurry
an herbaltea
of
stardust you &me
coarsingthrough coarsefewpercent
of oceanentombed in shallowseawomb
permitting ouraqueous stardustkiss Fromacross the mall
& lookinglike myold lover
soshortlived sapienbliss whoI'd nevermet.
before returning to eternalall
as transform'stimeless
beatificthrall.
Glacier Fireflies&Fruit
Glacier movingslowly. Berrystainedfeet being fruitofmeditation
Littlevelocity. while lastnight's jar of fireflies being
Massivemomentum. nothingbut dark deadinsects.
Then whenmeetingsea Whatchild believes fireflies are stars
failingtorecognize or moreorlessthan ourstar's light throughleaf?
its ancestry.
Whatchild failstorelease bottled luminescense
Chipbychunk meetingitsmaster before thinair dimming theirgift forever?
yetstill some bobbingicebergs
strugglingforbreath Whatchild cleanshisfeet of berrystain
nostrils their lesserself. without feeling wildlife goingwithout?
In longdays&warmcurrents Deadinsects. Squashedfruit.
thawbeginning changingform Yet nightsky is nolessbright.
changingstate a beatificfate Birds &other forestbeasts
becoming fluidformlessgrace finding foodenough tosustain
of indecision in face of sapienfact their selflessbeing.
in fact of sapienfate
thinking &thinking one'self free. YouMe
You as gravity me as stardust
Finally losingconsciousness sparkingoursun's elementalmust
regaining primitivesentience then warmingsea of usaswe
longlost to longfreeze. togetherapart within singleheart.
Now spreadingcollapsing Trespass
spacetime beingocean's face&fate. Gravity'sfire
causing stardustgyre
Livingwhatwas&isnomore creating spinning
glacier iceberg seas&shore funeralpyre.
lostintoss of spray&sky
never in allbeing everaskingwhy. Earth's rotationabetting
each sunrisingsetting
Heatingtovapor in transform'sperfection asif criminaltrespass
oxygenhydrogen in endlessaffection. thateachday willneverlast
beyondemands of mydesire.
WiseEarth
Bacteriaruling in oceanburgeoning. (Pennypoundreckless
Simpleplantsthirsting to feedlifebursting redtapefeckless
from embryonicsea. spend onepercentnow
for loveofshading
Suncatchers coming or become swelteringsmile
startingbellowspumping of Venusfading.)
oxygen for earth'sgoosebumping.
Creatures of need&greed
Drylifebreathing burninganimals defendingself againstallother
into evolution'snextchapter chanting alreadyoverblown
deaf to blessedrhythms unknown
(Onesmallstep for life. defining others in separation
Onehugestep towardeath.) refining self as preservation
filling what'sfull
Energyaccumulating in emptying what'sempty
nonliving tolife consummation manipulating with evolution's thumbtonguebrain
being subsumed in transformation in righteous seeing
but for consumptive sapiens. blind to elementalbeing.
(Overfeedingself while Lost withintransform's eternalgyre
onehundredforty hungry.) confusingcontrasts suchas lowerhigher
partwhole
Presapiens outofplace in seas bodysoul
soon tobechased from protection in trees lifedeath
battlingmass &dessication willbreath
farfromdream of Eden'sgarden. fearhate
lovefate.
Distanced by naming &naming'sfate
wordsickness becoming separation incarnate (Housefly'slife of fivedays.
a lifelessentence with noprayer or pardon. Honeymushroom'slife
of twothousandyears.
(Given a fish Tectonictime beingtime
eating for oneday. immemorial.)
Givenlanguage
starving in indecision Wise earth steadilypurgingparasites
&argument.) duringmeantime darkening greentime
while we wisehominids
Sapiens outsmarting our veryownselves harsh to nature'sgentle rhythmrhyme
with appetite for mastery playingout our roles in pantomime
within shouting from Babel'stower
orphanage of misery. "Is this our finalhour?"
(Me livinghigh onoff thehog **Life'sWork**
with he living life Thanks for the compliment.
of starvingdog.) I'veworked long&hard
to accomplish what I have
Chapternext nearing its end & I am regrettably a bitproud.
warmingthreatening pimplingoose.
Mywife'swork yousay?
Goldeneggs overharvested Oh. Nevermind.
failing in firstfinaltruce.
Perhaps to inundate all in realism Time glowingallnight
as our regrettable finalfirst baptism. in red digitalreadout.
.................................. Noneed for alarm.
DyingOfDare
Hunters dying of relentlessdare
living on edge of season'suicide.
Bloodstained by both tooth&claw
dailybearding lion'slair.
Farmers dying of steadfastwear
Searching brightnight sky splittingskin of motherearth.
for myself's constellation. Nurturingseed by hand&heart
Seeingmyowneye. in season's of labor's sweat&prayer.
Millworkers dying of dullingdespair
seasonlessorrow of working forpay. Dog's mudstreamstepping
Sound&fury in dailynightmare creating growingshadow
beingaspart in slavishdisplay. on rocks&minnows.
Cyberwriter dying in confusion's stare
emptyreflection in computerscream.
Lost in wordworld of reality'sdream
Smearing all symbols playing a game of solitaire.
whileattempting to erase ............................
springmeadow fallake. Sapiensdying of self unaware
of season'passing without a care.
Building Babels beyond elementalbeing
forgettingtransform as reality's heir.
SapienBrain Linking
No flatfeltgreen billiardtable Lipids linking into originalsin
or wellmanicuredlawn by definingwithout &refiningwithin
with wroughtironchairs placed becoming guarded againstother as alien
for color&symmetry in what willneverbe a carefree swim.
& a smalltable used for
an occasional breakfast Alien towhat's becoming I
or duskaperitif. with haplessinfant beginningtocry
as sufferingseparation begins.
No nothat atall. .........................
Capturing sunbright
Certainly&foremost no desert creating molecularmight
of windsweptdunes flowering chlorophyll as miracle of lifedeath
with pricklypear &perhaps transform'sbreeze becomingbreath
an ancient thickarmed saguaro. on anearth soripe for complexity.
Eachcactus hoardingwater.
Thenthose without any greenwithin
For toomany an innercity becoming slaves of originalwhim
potholed roads abandonedbusinesses learning to consume
greenedged mosaicblack basketballcourts mobility in fullbloom
with netless bent rims ingestedbonds broken oncommand
&shirts&skins games on demand within transform's slowing
fromdawn to neardarkdusk. on demand by tranform's flowing
greenbeing becomingflesh.
For most perhaps a wetland ........................
lush barelybalancedecosystem Twotypes of tranform give &take
eachstimulus myriadresponses each usingstardust that nonecanmake
eachresponse myriadstimuli butonlyborrow during cell'selfishsucor
a wetdream of self'sdesires tobewithout whiletrappedwithin.
a soddenvanity with presumed order
a memoryriddenporosity
ofall that wouldbe
Imemine.
InLimbo
Self as darling of limbicsystem
sofullof feeling.
Lostinlimbo of sensorydeprivation
deepwithin synapticsea of revelation
of self seekingself in selfish isolation
unknowinglove &flightofdove
over&beyond desire'sdestination.
Gatherlostsouls abondonedtotrolls
Exhalingquickly livingbetween nature&divine. Exhalingslowly
to inhaleagain deeply. whileputtingout ripegarbage
Honeysuckleduck. Sendthem tolimbo tostar inits sideshow this latespringevening.
of twoheadedwhores &twofacedsaviors
of believersintruth &lamentors of youth
all forprice ofprice ofall.
Lovelost inlimbo where I am alone
separate&suffering with no ass'sbone
tobattle philistines topaddle promqueens
who feelspecial beyond justdeserts.
Limbicsea of me&me
neurotransmitters spillingfree
thisnow'simperative lostomemory
of whatIwould ifonly Icould.
** Pond**
Ground winterhard grass deadshort Afterbriefwake my rudeawakening
devilhole both downwind &downhill to pond. that grassbeachdrop pitch wouldstill beabitch
Fountain frozenoff bullfrogs buriedinmud with still dearkwater darkwater nowstill
myswing sportingrhythm of ElmerFudd. withfinally loftgreencup tofill.
Steppingup to fourthswing after thirdfutiletry Lyingthree whiletrying tobefree
toreach pinnacle soharshly mislabeled as par of fearof slantface &height of flight
souhdingsoroutine but causing a sigh swingingmindlessly ballbeing struckclean
when scoresofstrokeslater myscore soaringhigh. archingently overwater overtrap overgreen.
Teemarkers setshort but notnearlyenough Afterchip&skip&rabbitlikerun
for chillcompactswing at rockhardball Zenolikeputts leavingjob always halfdone
conspiringtomake lagonlip layup eyeing undulatingsnaking icefast eightfooter
through winterwhip crosswind a steelynerve tossup. beforemaking stroke that couldn't havebeen gooder.
toppedrive boucingbouncwe &bounce&roll Struttingfromgreen onthat singlestrokefix
sendingball halfwaydown steepslantinghill carding mystandard parfour six
tolie slopingdown to depthsofhell lifting scorecard from myone goodknee
green raisedtoheaven a hacker's deathknell. limpingsmiling to nextproblem in topography.
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Facingdownhill lie &longirontry
creating foraninstant a fountainofme Newton's bigmachine
with toppedballbottoming foreversilent sufferingfromsentience
in bosom ofthat unpartingsea. whilebecomingreen
**CorpusCallosum** Parasite
CorpusCallosal highway Parasite lifeinlife
from hemispheretohemisphere. when onelife shouldsuffice.
How canIhope to become oneme Recall rehearse rehash relive
when Iamtwo orperhaps eventhree? eachthought of life so nice.
Medullaoblongata runningupstream Parasite lifeindeath
riveroflifeparting justpast limbicmilieu whendeath won'tbeallowed.
to twinbrainconfusion of specialization. Delay denude decry deny
deathoflife thoughtsoproud.
What insanengineer wouldn't scrapthisplan
or atleast severlylimit thismonster's lifespan? Parasite now deadtolife
itscorpse a memory.
Forgetting forgotten neverknown
SavingTrait digestingnaturally.
Doomed to dryearth's dangerousfate
hominid chancingupon savingtrait
digit opposed to graspinplace
conspiring tospur sapienrace. Thumb to dribble
shootblocksteal
Thumb separate &ornate in playgroundball's
providing ability tomanipulate selfishsin of freedom.
conferring asitwere ability tolace
causeffect into database.
Playingoff the plays
(Thought beingseed of separation.) yet sometimes huntingmyshot.
................................... Still worktobedone.
Doomed to dryearth's dangerousfate
hominid chancingupon savingtrait
mouthmuscle able toliberate
providing spur to associate. Tongue calling each
wellplannedplay
Tongue burgeoningbrain's helpmate in chalktalk obedience
providing ability tocommunicate to ourwe.
resulting intool todominate
with subtleskill toevaluate.
Watchingdragonflies
(Word beingsoil toconjugate.) dramatize lakeshore highgrass
................................. withtheir dartinglife.
Doomed to dryearth's dangerousfate
hominid chancingupon savingtrait
ability morelike savingrace
tobe asother as singleface. Language to adapt
improvise overcome
Language mediumtointegrate oursin of separation
providingability tocoordinate. without will beingdone.
Ironyofeach becoming eachother
is beingbound isto liberate.
Ca
(Other beingflower oflove &hate.) Calcium
stuff of strongbones&teeth
Elemental excess accumulatinginkidneys
Hydrogenhelium gravity's fire passingpainfully ifnot pulverized.
planetsforming from elementalgyre.
Furnacestoked for longslowburn Memory
in universal toss&turn. building successfulsapiens
autobio accumulating as self
Hydrogenoxygen forming water painful when energized
becomingmedium for lifeas squatter. needing tobe neutralized
Cellularbeing layingclaim before the needtoapologize.
in boldassertion of eminentdomain.
Simpleoxygen forming air NeuralKnowing
then oxygenbeing everywhere Neuralknowing as puerilegoing
insoil inflesh as nature'sthrall clinging ratherthan winging
allowingcells toaccess sol. throughtransform'sfirmament.
Sapiensnaming thirdrock earth Hormonesdiffusing never refusing
belying its firetowater birth to fullyembrace reality'sgrace
soil being life'seed &finalform within transform's gentlelament.
chemicalcomplexity its unheraldednorm.
Sobeginning all inspinning
fabric of ElementalBeing.
Dedicated Repetition Reproduction
Synapticircuitry Repitition torote torule Reproduction. Simple.
dedicatedtosurvival sendingourkids to memoryschool. Testes&penis. Ovaries&vagina.
sparkingFrankenstein Would wetruly wishthem tobe ourfool Testosterone&estrogen.
as memory'srevival never fullyliving theirown cleverlives? (Wait. Both have each?)
ofwhat doesn'tfit Masculinity&femininity.
thisnow. (Asif repetition possible atall (Wait. Each as other?)
withintransform'slurry
Lessdedication withintransform'sfury Adam'srib to glibassumption
moremeditation of neverever of perfection of sexualidentity.
neededtostill thatnow
monstersofwill again.) Divinity loving distinction.
whichworked Descartesloving dimorphism.
then Asif basepairing basemettle Nature loving diversity.
perhaps even togold
when conferringwisdom without Polymorphism as Pollyanneism
with selfchanting experience. in themepark teacup intoxication
amen confusing simplecalculation
while hidingfrom Asif Lamarckcorrect refusing simplexplanation
eachunique in inheriting recusing my moralobligation
now. acquiredcharacteristics to fullyembrace variation.
of your trainedlesself.
............. Passion. Pleasure. Cuddle.
**StatenIsland ** History of eachnow Dopamine. Testosterone. Oxytocin.
StatenIsland NYC's suffering uniquesituations
redheadedstepchild within nature'slaws Yet allthree in a puddle
infested by resurgence replete with sapienflaws makingsexuality a muddle of
of wildturkeys. whilesearching for self orificesforexcretion
without knowinghow. &organsofsecretion
Simplefix. all inservice toexpression
Reintroduce Tribalis bibleism ofwhat atbest couldbe
endemicpredator. intransigentwill neverstill lesseparation
Bringback the noble tillself feelingpower (not oftenenough
Graywolf. overother. recognized as
love).
Soon wolves&turkeys Eachgeneration
doingtheimpossible loving itsmother
crossbreeding creating killing itsbrother SugarSea
TurWufs in nameofname Born as saltsea.
flyingwolves w/ talons. of beingnamed Borne as sugarsuntea.
within brutemass
Simplefix. of other. Former
Designvirus heterogeneousmixture
causingarthritis History of youth'svanity all sons&daughters settlingout
in thishost only. caused by reason'sanity totheir veryown periodicfamily.
trying to stitchthreads
Backfiring with from windtattered flags Latter
Manhattanresidents into tapestryoflove. homogeneousmixture
becomingstiffer solution ironically to our singlesin
thanusual. of eternalseparation.
Thenthedecision Another snowday Being saltsea sunbound carbohydrate
to monetize more videogames toplay. letme embrace my saltysweetfate
makingStatenIsland Schoolyearend I'llpay. nevereveragain willingtobe
TurrasicPark my wretchedpersonality.
chargingtourists
what they'llpay
tohunt thisexotic
trophy. Blackbirdberried bush Sevenstorieshigh
suddenly fallingupward searchingsea for milesaround
(Steepdiscounts from crystalperch. yetstill shipsinking.
for NewJersey
residents.)
**UnIntendedConsequences**
LawOfUnintendedConsequences It's the LawOfOther thatall I's rue
cleary SELF writlarge in prepping for their proudsuccess.
fullyexpecting ourwill tobethiers
nevereally expecting a charge. But iftheyconfess thathey
think theirself blessed
It'sme bet three myhand mustbebest then theirplans for success
that riverclubqueen makingmystraight. being anybody'sguess
But oh (in a hush) it couldn'tbesuch maybesaved fromdistress
that itmakes yourhand a flush. by never havingintended
to impress
Fourmoves tomate ifhe takesthebait. the ficklegods of chance.
Baitaken yet I getmated inthree.
NoChicken Eden
Nochicken therefore Eden being tidepool elements
noegg in randomaggregation
therefore unknowingseparation
nochicken beyond electrochemical law.
except tobeg
your neverloving Yet norevulsion by physicalforce
indulgence no psychichoice no willfulremorse
in a journey to tide&time being transform'smine
thenasnow ofgems ofeachperfect unjudged now.
beforeanychicken
beforeanycow Then membraneforming foreshadowingpain
beforeanyomelett of beingalone in seaofallother.
or Becomingimpurity becomingprofane
EggMcMuffin within lifeunknowing touchofbrother.
evenbefore
EggFooYung. Clusteredneurons synapses pooling definingdistance neveragain toregain
Birdinhand simplicityofgravity holding withoutouching
asmuch bindingwithoutblinding what cannotbeseen
an illusion in memory or reflection.
as
twoinbush Aggregatesynapses creatingseparation
is becoming electrochemical flaw.
delusion Seasonlessreason ruling partaswhole
of self masturbating in imperfection of each judgingsoul.
whenitwould
ratherbe gyrating From tidepool element to dryland lament
abovebelowithin sapienstruggling to understandescent.
feralmating. Facingintellect's failingintegument
sufferingseparation unwilling to repent.
Ofcourse eggalone
camebefore chickenfullgrown While willessgo wanton lovingfew
asif to atone transform'sgyre their curlicue
for skin&bone spoiling caringless whileplaying peekaboo
simpleperfection of seed. within ElementalBeing.
Butmembrane is AirRoots
asmembrane does Sapiens misunderstanding
with separation itsroots dangling fromcrown
becoming it's was never toreachground
leavingus sowell ofbeing as reality'snurture.
selfsuited&searchin'
as asexually unselected Stealingsun whilesupported
parentless urchin by photosynthesizing organism
in earliestdraft sinofcommission in transcendentglory
of evolution'splay. subtleparasite in sinofomission.
Simplesinglecell Wateredbyrainforest's persistentmist
in shallowsea creatingmyth of supernatural sustenance.
doomedtobecome Unneedingsoil inits arborealtoil.
you&me Toying with heaven asif chosentorule.
on dryland
without remand Yet completelydependent on immanentbeing
to our aqueous joining cellularsupport inboth life&death.
ancestry. Lesseparation unknown aslove
in arrogance of sprawl of naturalbreadth.
Complex incomplete
repletewithsin BlinkingSun
ofbeing apartfrom SoakingCO2 in H2O.
insteadof partof Bakingbread.
ElementalBeing
within Inspiredtolive. Breakingbread.
transform'slove. Unholycommunion as eachmeal.
Respiring havingbecome wellfed.
Such a wildwedding.
Felled split dried oaklogburning
warmingwoodenhome.
Barkless to threefeet. Washedoutpath to stream
Pantsless young streamsidePoplar leaving pineneedles in swirls.
toonear beaverlodge. Bootprints filledwithrain.
Stillfield cloudtide. Lone dark divingduck Dusksun lifting geese
Flockingseagulls farfromhome disappearingsilently flapping flashing silentsmooth.
feeding on springplow. surfacing somewhere. Dayending in peace.
Halfallen proppedpines Winter beeboxes Six cawbirds. Twoclouds. Cicadas bullfrogs.
addingenergy to woods. stacked atedgeof barewoods Earlyevening crescentmoon. a woodland symphony.
Decaying lightning. beyond unplowedfield. And only Monday! And mywife snoring.
Brightflopping clicking. Sunset without dusk. Goldweeds abovewhite.
Seeming to want tobeseen. Treeline severingalldoubt Insectscrawling intheirwild.
Then landing &gone. in a world of youme. A butterflysight.
Trailingedge of wings Still light in still dusk.
melting gray melting away Rabbits becomingbushes
whileplaying with sky. bushes roostingducks.
Stream cuttingwestward
carring lateJune sunset
deepintosummer.
Liar LifeDeath
Liar. Damnliar. Memory. Lifedeath what a fungame to play
Then's now becoming when'sworld afterdancing with angels&devils
of will&want. &gettingtired.
Sixthsense fourthtense I'llpretend I'mgoing to die
memoryfloodingsynapticmilieu. (asif I could even if I try)
Selfstarter in energeticbarter thus addingspice to eterna now
for myattention as mywill. although I can'tknow reallyhow.
Liar. Damnliar. Memory. But you'llreallydie & we'llallsigh
When'sdream becoming now's scream then laughoutloud till settingsun
of will that can't. of sun thatneversets.
Sixthsense fourthtense LongBefore
memoryworshipped as salvation. Longbefore thumb&tongue
Realitybecoming desire'martyr longbefore selfconsciousness
in battle for lifeverlasting. presapiens living in
pseudobliss
Chlorophyll in a walledgarden of preEden
Proudgreen proudleaf unaware even of awareness
transform'srandom molecularmatrix till distinction'sbite
catchinglightning inabottle. &thebeginning of spite
inourfight for lifeternal
Proudleaf inourflight toward lifeinfernal.
ifonlyguilty of masking dawndusk
when not in hibernation Asif there nevereverwas a before.
then bludgeoning springpastels Asif naturesings in butonevoice.
sosoon toosoon Asif awareness was a choice.
as forsythias azaleas dogwoods swoon ...............................
with oakpoplar foregoinglove for duty As soon as I realized
becoming enginesofenergy I was goingtodie
underApril's aweful mutedfullmoon. I created life[after]death
&begantocry.
Letmecatch beddingbass
whileblessed with fragrance&fiercespectrum Clearing
fullflushblush of bloom&tint If winterdeath does nothingmore
of vision'slove's fingerprint thanclear both under&overgrowth
&olfactoryopulence revealing proximityofproperties
before returningto wearisomework. &nearness of myneighbors
Invitation then let its expansion of space&time
Tectonicmight spreadaslucid crystallinevine
ripplingsight enmeshingsight with warmth'sdelight
graniteshearing when visitingother's home&hearth.
reflectinglight.
Barewoods exposing paths unknown
Motionappearing when chlorophyllfills all linesofsight.
as moltenbrightrock Lackingintimacy but wintershown
provokingfears life beyondflesh life of barebone.
asif mineralgears
mightgrind my punybeing. Homeagain from hiberanlhike
havingseen beyond summer'sveil
Yet risingsoftly asinflight knowing winter's pall notloss atall
asif a haunting igneousprite butlife beyondsummer's constrictedscale.
silentlyappearing purebornlight
only only toinvite.
ThreeBranches
Hunt&gather being nameofgame But language separating asmuchas suturing
threebranches of sapiens blunderingseparately creatingself of feltpast &dreamfuture
starting with barley sapienbrain skills causinghesitation ineach lifedeath battle
for guidingtheirgathering &coordinatingtheirkills. &confusion duringcohesive socialprattle.
Most ancientbranching of treeofme So itgoes with selflost deepinthought
havingtrouble retrieveing eachmemory notknowing what their newabilities hadbought.
within thierbrain self unrefined Losing thisnow you becoming lessthanbrother
eachroot&hunt beeing differentkind. beingdefined byself judgingother unkind.
Rememberingthis then rememberingthat (Seeingcutter havingweakhandle
a process illfitted for lifedeathcombat liking mychances of hitting trey.
being alonewithoutfire in caveber'sface Choosing thentaking missmaking shot.)
reaction necessary at wholisticpace. ............................
Couldtherexist mythical HomoHolistic
Notime toconstruct survivalplan noancient cultculture but whollyrealistic
wherememories needbe clumped&coherent. unnowingburden of self as survival
Reaction's throughtraining mustbe athand &bacchanalianself as sanities archrival.
not onestep atatime whenbear havingmyscent.
Notlivingconfusion wheretohunt if towar
HomoSerialsapien sufferingseparation wheretogather if toget morethan thenmore
unable tobring morethan onething tofight. withfaith dividingfamily want defyingneed
Lackingcohorts&battleplan doomedtodefeat with I lostinlanguage sensingonly throughcreed.
moreoften eaten than bringinghomemeat.
Couldthis species of sapien trulybewise
(Seeingcutter no thinking tofake existing with lesswill as each faithlesself cries
mydefender &make bouncepass. for deliverance frombeing trapped in selfish hell
Allhappeningwaytoofast.) unknowing they're creating lesself's dwell?
..............................
Morerecentlimb of threeofme Or willself's will for lifeternal
coalescing bestmemories to moreuseful degree blindsapiens eternally from thisnow's lifefraternal?
inchoateself forming as neuralnets Never finalforgetting as thisnow's kiss?
responding inaninstant tomost pasthreats. Neverfloating yetgrounded in transform'sbliss?
Thoughtprocessing lessserial moreparallel (Cutterdefendershooter a singlesense
aided by opposablethumb &agiletongue. then&when lost in singletense
HomoHandy&Verbal nowable to excell with actionforever as action now
in necessities of hunting&gathering. unique sapienlove as neverspokenvow.)
Gathering theydid clanmembers as cohorts
coordinatinghunts for animal or vegetable. NotyetThanksgiving
Becomingbound to symbols as uniquesupports but fullmoon ornamenting
moreable tofeed theirfamilies tillfull. weathered deadoakbranch.
Nova Distinction
Do stars lament their finalflare "Envy is the tax which all
or am I affectingenlightenment distinction must pay."
bybeing unmovedbydeath? R.W.Emerson
My hydrogenself compounded&cellbound Indistinct in shadows of never
sparkedbysun's gravitational ignition returning havingslain clan'shunger
exhausted in a whimper darkcold in aninstant. bodylanguagebeing's of basicneed
Yetknowing. Yetfeeling. beginningseparation as survival'screed
self created as "hunter".
With handmedownbeginning &humble ending
challengingstar'smajesty with mysentience Withkill plantingseed of selfaswill
knowing inmy briefpassing tobe otherthan simplebrother
what their brightglowing can neverknow diversitychallenging clan's facelesstill
feeling in my amassing envybeing priceoflove.
what their proudshowing can'tfeel or show
as I feel myunknowing when myself trainedtoquiet. "Others create me
then desecrate me."
Stardust mydust identical inthrust inlust Anon.
each unmovedmoving eitherboth briefsparks
born in galacticinferno Logic
borne in earthbound utero Even mostdetailed
transforming again to elementalbeing topographicmap
as nova or as finalsigh tellingnothing of weather
therebeing noregret withoutpossession or mywanderingself
whereonlyself can cling during my longforgottenhike
whereonlyself will cry. or tomorrow'sfolly.
As coaltodiamond Why try to iron
as ashtoeternity mothernature's bra
as earthtoearth asif
in lifedeath'sbirth flatchested
mylesselfburning light&bright shecouldnurture
ineach next tonext nextnow. ourworld.
CruelMaster Fluttering
Wellfed&warm Air
yet cruelmaster No militaryorder
demandingmuchmore. in chevronediscipline
but glidingtrafficjam
Fromsea totree to unforgivingflatshelf of loquacious kin
from handtomouth to memory as self rushingonhigh
&on to endlessappetite. fromdusk's explodingstar
honkingwildly
CreatingEden losingsame through flaming far.
whileholdingclose a name
&blame. Water
Two slimlegs
With thumbtograsp one pointedbill
becomingslave of tool. stalking bankshallows
for stabbingkill.
With tonguetogall
becoming gossip'sfool. Its bulkofgrey
above wateryprey
With braintoglean givingaway its
becoming pridetorule. appetite.
....................
Wellfed&warm Earth
withoutmaster or demand. In barelylightened dark
Beingofsimplefate. a sudden flutteringstart
reedwall feathering
Trainingtopain becomingpeace to redwinged life.
dwelling in innocense of thosewhocease
to live eachmoment fearingdeath No coming going
to die eachmoment fleeinglife just flapping&sowing
beingblind to thismoment's sweetgentle now seed of myfear
unfeeling each sweetgentle moment'sbreath. above feedingbass.
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Wellfedorhungry Three elements effulgent
warmorcold in faintwake of mywill'sfire
lesselfbecomingnorm. elegantlydoused.
Livingdying each perfectnow My lesselfbecoming almost allbeing
within elementalbeing's transform. as mysense's near theirfinalfreeing
with honkingstalkingfluttering
memoriesfleeing.
** Engineer**
(Don't) thinkabout it Becominglife of a differentkind
the same engineering genius while kayakingthrough
who sends urine&sperm this specialfind
down the sametube of
designs ourarms justlongenough unseeking
to hold ourwong to urinate simplyloving
& stroke ourdong to masturbate. emptiness.
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14 x 0
13 x 0
12 x 0
11 x 0
xxx 10 x 0 000
SELF 9 x0 LESSELF
xxx 8 0 x 000
7 0 x
6 0 x
5 0 x
4 0 x
3 0 x
2 0 x
1 0________________________________________________________________________________x internal STIMULI external
Desiring Imagining Thinking Training
Dreaming Creating Planning Reacting
Defending Protecting Adapting
Locked Closed Open
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CaveBear
Cavebear or coporateboss
fightorflight & allislost
inan ancientreaction
to thenwhen's abstraction
with memory ruling
at direcost.
I AmHun I AmGath
Havingslain cavehear Havingdiscovered nutritiousleaf
impaled bychance clan creatingGath withbelief
on walkingstick. that I canfeed them all.
Renownedbyclan as "hunterman" Whenalone avoiding sensetheif
needing tobe inface of fear. knowingstrangeffect.
Whenalone hidingfrombear. Whensearching withpeers
Whenincompany challengingbeast. forgettingfears
Self becoming fate's sadfeast. in defense of mynewbeing.
WhichIsBestOrder?
1. Important tome. 2. Transform asmembrane 3. Trainingtoforget.
Myseparatepiece ofall. winkingtoitself injest A mercilessdiscipline.
Toall simplyall. as I sufferdeath. Quietingmyself.
Birthedasdifference. Finalforgetting Membrane forminglife.
Sustained as separation. withtransform neverblinking. Exquisiteseparation
Returning toall. Separationending. as eternalnow.
Traininedtoforget. Important tome. Birthedasdifference.
A mercilessdiscipline. Myseparatepiece ofall. Sustained as separation.
Quietingmyself. Toall simplyall. Returningtoall.
Finalforgetting Birthedasdifference. Transform asmembrane
withtransform neverblinking. sustained as separation. winkingtoitself injest
Separationending. Returning toall. as I sufferdeath.
Transform asmembrane Membrane forminglife. Important tome.
winkingtoitself injest Exquisiteseparation Myseparatepiece ofall.
as I sufferdeath. as eternalnow. Toall simplyall.
Membrane forminglife. Trainingtoforget. Finalforgetting
Exquisiteseparation A mercilessdiscipline. withtransform neverblinking.
as eternalnow. Quietingmyself. Separationending.
OrOrderThemAsYouSeeFit.
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WhenTimeBegan
Timebegan whenErectus ran Swimmingincircles at feet of clock'shands
tohisclan with a clearbrighthought sapiens bastardchildren of cunnilingualconjugation
separatingbipeds somebecomingsapien washedup onbeach of hourglassands
with a selfinsane clearlynotsought. fatedtobeslaves of clockworkconsecration.
Not simpleconciousness of being an I Ticktocktime tellingthem whentomeet
whenburyingdead or planningahead for hunt for sleep for somethingtoeat.
but concsiousness of self abletoask why Selfishtime comingwithseparation
becomingsapien'scurse when all's written&said. eachself in time owingreparation
for living thenwhen &alwaysalone
Groaning&grunting wavingarms duringhunts as Eden's serpent forwhich each I mustatone.
finally givingway to language with grammar.
Beginningablililty todo mentalstunts Time beginning &beginningtorule
evenwithlanguage moreorless a stammer. eachsapien watchinghiswatch like a fool
wishing his start didn'tinsure his end
Separatenow in both bodies&brains in a timefulworld thatself can'tmend
sapiens comingtoknow theirend in death. while eternaltransform remainingsame
Knowing tiethatbinds is tiethatpains as endlesstruggle of endlessgame.
nowsevered forever byeach wordybreath.
Timebeginning with memory of imminentdeath
Sorting through their newfoundskill timending with training to followeachbreath
hearing first tick of lifedeath clock. into eternaltransform being lesself in silence
Feeling an emptiness no words couldfill disappearing in still of each presentense.
feelingfear of theirown last tock.
Time becoming morethan aging&season Between buildingwings
timeneeding to carry payload of reason. lone hotdogwrapper dancing
Then lostfromheart becomingrooted in head. flag havingnosay.
When becomingdream of pleasure&dread.
DemonGenes Becoming
Demons usingchromosomes Desire dominating incipientself.
climbingthroughtime Fear the onlydeterent.
replicatingmypast
reifyingmyfuture. Thankgod for hell.
Myonlydefense being nodefense Then the hellofother
notusing mydefenses unwilling to weft to mywarp.
trained for somanyears
to letgo defendingmyself Howcan I complete my tapestryofme
whilescaping. if I needatleast someofthem to agree
on color texture pattern?
SixthSense
Memory my sixthsense Perhaps if I treatother as abstract
sendingsignals unsolicited I cando myduty whileavoidingattack.
insleep as nightfrights Betteroffsafe thansorry.
awake as insights
always inaccurate&perfect atonce Or might I sew hand&hand withother
sendingmeflailing on fatuous witchunts treatingtheirbecoming as sister&brother.
leadingme amiss lostwithin nevernow
from thought'scomplacency as woventhen As needle isto difference as thread isto distance
to desire'sdivination as chosenwhen. becomingsharedbeing lackingdefense.
Saddestsense this sixthe of eight Or might I sowseeds in a garden of other
full of fear&politics treatingthierbecoming as sister&brother.
separation indemnified
selfighteousness deified As corn isto bean isto squash in sharedgrowth
with internalrevenue of desire becoming aslove whileliving love'soath.
&casuistic rhetoric.
Self'sPersistence **TwinSinners **
Justshort of permanence self'spersistence. (Whatwould Henry&Marten think?)
Foolmeonce becomingmantra of survival. Two culturalinstitutions of separation
automobiles&religions.
Yet&yet livingtoregret neuralinflexibility
with circumstance favoringagility Cars makingneighbors mysteries
beyond moribundhabit. openfields into picketfences
playmates into playdates.
A firstglance living memory'strance
enhancingsurvivability. Notsomuch religion's as ambition
CatholicsJewsProtestants
With furthereflection habitualconnection HindusBuddhistsMoslems
inhibitingrhythm of transform'sdance. butmypastor's admonition against
MissouriSynodLutherans
Trainingtogo traingintostay since I was ofthe WisconsinSynoc
training oldneurons new waystoplay edition.
within self'srippling &self'still.
Hydrogen StardustSuffering
"Carbonbasedunits" Stardust&gravity caughtincomplicity
myass. spattering solarsystem with freshsparkedfire.
HeavyAugustair.
We're stardust fromfirst Hydrated earth teemingwithelements Softfairway&gnarlyrough.
tolast. creatingmembrane beginningourpain Mydriver? Iron?
of originalsin as cellularseparation
Hydrogenfusing in lifeitself becoming sapien'shame.
energybacchanalia
withme safely ninetythree Membranetomiracle of photosynthesis
millionmiles fromtheblast. energy tobe movement&sensing. Hittingintowoods.
Needsofseparation becomingsimply Learningthat I'mnotalone.
H-bombs exploding. eat Finding an oldfriend.
Candybars imploding. don't be eaten
Carbon alwayscoming reproduce.
in secondplace
with chlorophll being Simplesensing light&heat Cottoncandy spun
sun's firstface leading us to stufftoeat collecting sugarchildren
in buildingfood withintransform's randomgyre. for dissolvingfun.
to sapien'staste
yet farmingframed Brain serving my simplesurvival
in lowercase as I becomeother's tooth&nail rival
whilebeing our in Darwinianworld of adapt&overcome.
merchantsoflife.
Thentowhen caughtasmemory Stamenpistil tongue
Carbohydrates assuredly. tool of fitness when planningtopersist hidden in color fragrance
Hydrocarbons certainly. but causingconsciousness of internal me. Frenchkissing springbreeze.
But neverforget water
being twicehydrogen Thus self's firstsuffering beingmortality
toeach singleoxygen tillbrain in coup of survivalfelicity
without a "C" inourgrin creatingsoul againstbody'sdecline
beingaqua pure&simple. affording me lifeternal.
Carbonbeing oursmile. Butcost suchcost becominglost A new backyardguest.
Hydrogen beingourdimple. self seemingreal in limbiconfusion Sunset held by greentether
leaving me alone with separation'scontusion near open fencegate.
BlueSkies within survivalist's push&shove
Blueskies. Calm. with I seeking you in attempt to love
whilesuffering my cellsuit's desperation
But itstime hadcome as needygreedyself.
to break&fall in silence
joining rootshoot **WhenEver **
stemleaf Whenever men'sbathroom Next to AC drone
flowerfruit in teacher'slounge is occupied silentlyblossomingbush
in browndecay & I need touse the women'sfacility each in monotone.
of I'm always atodds asto pee
unendinglove. standing or sitting.
ItsOwnLevel
Howcanwater seeking itsownlevel Yet waterlevelcircumscribed
alwaysfindit by squirtgun of amoeboidballoon
in a world of pridefulsentients? becoming a joy of summerheat
in coolingbattles of shoot&soak
Seekingnot waterdammed throw&splash.
canbe a blessing to jaggedland ......................
fooding rollingwoodlands Itsownlevel yes
submerging allbut tallestrees yet stillminion of topography&gravity
creating aquahabitat rainshowering snowflowering
for fin &familyboth fallingunfallen risingjoining
with crowns becomingbushes fogmisting hailfisting windtwisting
on a freshorizon. in total willessjoy.
........................ .....................
Seekingall selfishdamned Her leavenedlevel
becoming Sisyphiancataract. of oceangust &batteringlust
.......................... splayingwhite in eternaldance
Betterworse yet waterwill with infiniteshore &unyieldingrock
seepover itown bevel being whitecappedcrescent
defyingravity on upwardcrawl to sun'symphony of wind
undereaves &overhangs &roilingcrescendo
entering each&every crack to earth'spull against all
being insidious&rotting. causing norippling for those faithfull to water
.......................... evenduring equinimity's mostbrutalbreeze.
Faithlesswater filling kichensink ..........................................
till angledplates cups pots pans Ownlevel indeed.
knives forks spoons We sentients leftinawe
becomingremnants of Atlantis of water'sfaintwill.
or forebodings of a feveredplanet.
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LipStick
ORP Lipstick on pig or on ingenue.
(Ontogeny Disrespecting porcineperfection?
Recapitulates Misrepresenting reprodutiveimperative?
Phylogeny)
Oncebeing singlecell in warmsaltsea. Is moralitysomehow atstake inabove juxtaposion?
Oncebeing gilledfish in gildedreef. A renderingofpork for candlesoapflavoring?
Oncebeing tadpole denizenofdevelopment. A rendingofcauseffect for performanceorpayment?
Oncebeing serpent in nogarden do Eden. A renderingofsapienmorality
Oncebeing failedfeathers unfitforflight. tosimilar mammals with identicalcompulsions
rendedbrutally by superiorspecies
Nowseeing harshlanscape of flightorfight thoughsuperior in thoughtonly
for hirsuetehero of aridsorrow &ability todemean?
battlingtosurvive to eachtomorrow
becoming in variation evolution'swonder Lipstick on ingenue enticing dipstickboor
till becomingself as evolution'sblunder. while lipstick on pig neverconfusingboar
notwasting geneticdominance in confusion
Assembling withintranform's fleamarket notdistracted into sterileinsemnation.
of elementalbeing
becomingeipitome of adaptablility Lipsticked or cleanlipped pig
neither from myraidoffspring living in elementalinnocense
nor from neatlynarrowedniche with ingenue sufferingloginess
but because of thumb&tongue &brain's of sapien's unrendered cerebralfat.
progression expression aggression
inspiteofmemory's inbreedingsuppression. ContinuousCommerce
Oh damneduniverse constantlymakingchanges
Nowpretending mybeing priviledged in your continuouscommerce with
&unending time space stars pace
while rendingmyself fromallother of myplodding geneticignature.
becoming prodigalson of my earthmother ...................
till loveless&loney Whydidyou sellmeout
realizingbaloney tobe apart separate alone?
is madefrom dead but unburied
avarice. Didyouthink seeingmyself
couldsate mysensing
Evicted &that seeingmyself
Evicted from my ancestralhome seeingmyself seeingmyself
traveling light into mynew fiercenight would foolme intotheillusion
as a singlesack of waterfromsea of companionship
with a pinch of stardust warmingme. asif seeingself becomingself
believingself belovedself
Thus intosafety ofeach talltree in eachfragment of my
imagining myself finallyfree nowfractured whole?
tolive in relativeharmony ...................
safefrom vivisection&dessication. So herewesit damneduniverse
you condemned to constantrepair
Competitiongrowing me condemned to eachmoment'stare
&my increasingknowing into emptiness lonliness &despair
thatI'm tobe evicted tolife on dryflat or comfort of life
with opposablethumb trumping prehensiletail in illusion of
graspingtools bettering arborealfail. transcendence.
Forcedtoburrow then liveonthego Can I possiblypretend
from safe cavehome to hunt&gather tobe the condition of mysituation
as mobileclan learned tosurvive together with myself resistingsame
before cleverbrain creating sapiensorrow in a logisticsgame
individualtrapped in interpersonalflow. of tryingtodeny thatsame I
.............................. where totry is mostcertainly
From simpleconviction our finaleviction tofail?i
sea totree towill befree
from memory's gated barbedwire boundary Leaves
with trainingtostill asouronly key. Trees&wind in wild display
widespreadingleaves heretostay
LoverOfGreen during gloriouspring&summertocome
Eachleaf'schlorophyll being loverofgreen season's smile as ruleofthumb.
mother of carbonhydrogen mating
sparked by starbright sustainer of all Not merelycatching sunforshade
let tribute be humblypaid. but snatchingenergy asif beingpaid
for feeding chloropylll's foodbuildingneed
May mytraining erupt to fruition with eachtree'sdestiny builtinto eachseed.
asin your annual rupturetorainbow.
Then sotheygo to dry&brown
May I share yourwavelenght'srepertoir falling gently defining ground
duringmyeffort to lessdesire. effacedcompletely as decomp'sgrace
completingtransform leavingnotrace.
Andinleaf's dessication&fall
letmeshare transform'scall Prey
weatheringeachwinter Squealingthrashingbleedingdying
knowing we're wellrooted as heavenless helless entireseeing
in earthairfirewater's as elementalbeing.
eternalall.
Drug 1: Passion
So mypassion is nothing but a dopaminedream or simply a cog in fated psychobiobeing
nocloser tolove than spillingmilt inanocean being a possesivemime of evolution'srhyme
of anyother's eroticless abandonedggs? settingtraps to snapup eachmouse of desire'screeping
from my thenwhenhouse through your opennedblouse
So I'm overcome with endogenousecstasy witheach lookingon in blushinginnocence.
pharmaceutical masturbation of sorts?
Naturenurture neverallowed to mature
Neitherme noryou choosingthatchosen in fauxforce of freewill.
stimulus of my alwayserectstate Dopaminedousing flameof truelove
who happens to remindme of mymother in chemicalmilieu of psychosocial swill
exciting ancestual[sic]dreams of Freud leaving you&I in moonlessblack
forcing my self into a sociopatheticvoid dancing to silentmusic hearing mutebells
makingme mother of allmothers playingout our selves each a patheticsack
of ohso responsive but never responsible cells.
Drug 2: Pleasure
Ismypleasure notsomuch fromlove shipping reason'sglory to a runawaytrain
as from serotonin reigning? of indulgence in this season'storms of thoughtneeds
foryou orme
Am I an obsessivecompulsive test inflesh orfeeling
or simply civility mildlydepressed insense orsynapse
withnothing I wouldorshouldorcould do fromwithin fromwithout
whendoing is beingdone withoutme? withuncertainty withoutdoubt
while I feel what I will
Answering to primalsocialneeds only despiteyou?
mylonging questioning my ancientbrain
Drug 3: Peace
Is my everlastingfidelity
my pridewhore of wellplannedbeing Am I
myvaunted selfrighteouscontrol living happilyeverafter
simply an oxytocinloop feeding back&forward beyond passion'sclaim &pleasure'spain
quellingtheforce of my rovingeye &selfishlie in stateofacceptance with biochemruling?
keeping who'svow sacred&true?
**AdaptiveAdvantage ** Winking
Acknowledging that notall evolutionaryadaptations Whatislife
result in advantages therefesters a fission to a star'sblink
within the burgeoningfield of Cognitive-AdaptiveTraitTheory to a star'swink
asto the felicitousness (ifyouwill) of the ancient ifnot venerable between what'sbeen
act of sexualselfgratification (AKA masturbation) as a tool &whatwillbe a moment
(ifyouwon't) for 'beatingoff' demonsofdesire&sexualust inthatblink
visavis waste of premium 'babybatter' (ifyoudare). inthatwink
elementsforming
Mostpractioners (better adherents) of the positivemanifestation reforming transforming
of the ancientexercise site the practiceffect as crucial asone&separate
in exploring selfintimacy&sexualresponse without &separate asone?
involvement in labyrinthine socialinteractions
implicit in either homo or hetero partnering. Noneed for me
suchcomplexity
They alsosite increasingsocialorder especially in spring from stardust's bruteimplicity
in societies that encourage practicingalone. &urging of mysteriousgravity.
The naysayers hypothisize that a society rife with selfabuse Enough becomingalove&conscious
will inevitably have a diminution in birthrate with the but then becomingself as conscious
subsequent loss of genepool variation necessary for with poets blinkingwinkingwords
successfulchange intheface of environmental&cultural change. acrosstheuniverse.
.......................................................... .................
In an ancillarytangent of evolutionarythought Absudity of complexity
within the field of AdaptiveBehavioralAssessment fromsimplicity of matterenergy
there hasyet tobefound a suitablemodel suggesting atom molecule membrane
a positiveoutcome for the puzzling yet perhaps pregnant tissue organ systems
(there I go again) behavior labeled (onthestreet but ohso back&forwardfeeding in
descriptively deadon [ignoring the moreaccurate "suck") hedonistic homeostasis
the "blowjob". thatcouldonlyevolve
asinnocense
Clearly oral ingestion of semen is counterproductive &devolve as pestilence
in fulfillingnature's ThirdImperative being Reproduction in pulsingindiffernence
(third to 1 - Eat [Maintenance] & 2 - Don'tBeEaten [Safety] &randomobesiance
only because of the necessity of numbers 1&2 to enable to phisicalaws
individuals to partake in #3 which is ofcourse the 'sinequanon' lackingdesire for
of speciesurvival). personalimmortality
....................................................................... within eachmoment's
And co-independentconfusion lingers astothe efficacy of immolation
"being eatenout" as anadaptation contributing to healthy everyoung everold
sexuality thus resulting in a morecohesivesociety everdark evergold
with a highrate of healthybirths. in nuclearannihilation
The almost ironicsense of "eating" inthiscase becoming a seemingly
nonadaptive sexualbehavior resulting in noloss of geneticmaterial
but little nutritionalvalue forcingone toplace thatact of erotica
in a category separatefrom both masturbation &blowjob.
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Perhaps the persistence of fellatio acrosstime&place
lies in accustoming the female toaccept the male's
"gift of fertility" whilemaintaining the freedom to spitorswallow
as she sodesires.
There are intriguingtheories notall connectedto
evolutionaryfitness asto the Work/Pleasure aspect
of "jerkingoff" theact clearlybeing Work resulting in
forthemostpart Pleasure visavis the WorkPleasure ratio
of a blow "job" wherein I Work tojerk to getmy privatePleasure
whereanother doestheWork in a blow "job"
perhaps dutifully.
And I personally donot ascribe tothesupposition
thatheword "blowjob" is a torturedacronym
(goahead &trycreatingone yourself)
BurningLustOffWith
JounceOfBone.
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