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Watchingthemhover. Mortarmixerlawn.
Shaking hoodedhead at times. Windowless&doorless house.
Blowing from myface. Unshingled feltroof.
Wednesday: Longtermcare. Tongueing orange spicedrop. Five smallstumps in lake.
Friday: Planningforhospice. Stripping its sugarcoating. No. It's otter's head&feet
Sunday: Hislastbreath. Enjoying sweetaste. taking middaybreak.
NewYear'sEve. So what? Living mydream.
Isn't eacheve a newyear Thinking mydream mustbeworthy.
forwards&backwards? Thinking waytoomuch.
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MatrixAsMemoryTricks
Redpill redapple red stopsign that steeledmachine in an uncivilwar
to stopgo withinwithout tobe supreme tillbreaking sanity'sdream
&know&know&think I know. reasonyielding to reality'sfield
of apparenterror couchedinlove.
Toknow copperheads slavesofself ..................................
fightingasmachines doubtingcells From thoughtmachine's Pyrrhic storm of fire
mistaken logicfact growingwild of rightswrongs being judgment's funeralpyre
as ingenue pregnant with fate'sbrainchild rising from ash in etherealsong
beingwill&want of I as each sapien's of lesserself.
illusion delusion simplelie. ....................
Matrixbeing no memory'squickfix
But as "I am a liar" being logic's shiboleth but steely willwant meltingintoflow
"I am truth" beingself's proudmyth of if I am lost withinitsglow
inwhich no limbiclaborer could deliver of youarenot hesheit in threetense world
expected perfection&resurrection of tryingtofit amorphousbeing
fromourgods asif selfimprisoned into logicalanguage seeing
in cellsuit alone &alone thatbody cookiecuttercut or exactchangtetoll
failingmydream forcing I tobattle self defined under blackestfullmoon.
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Allow that ingenue pregnant with fate'sbrainchild
be exhiled to self's endlesstrial
to judgeinsensate what I thinks is worthwhile
with lesselfwatching through tearfulsmile.
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Matrix simplymemory'self
boundbydesire's toobrightseeing
whilethose of lesserself
sit wait still
for thoseofcertainty to
lose their will.
LongAfter Arm'sLength
Staring at hourglass Reality speakinglove at arm'slength
longafter each sandgrain safefromembrace
has obeyed gravity'scommand of truth of self.
to letgo fall becomestill.
Certainty in axiom only
Staring at the still doubt in definition
asif historyhadstopped beinglimit of what
asif the erosionoftime cannotbesaid with certainty
wastrapped in thatvessel being noaxiom
waiting forme to flipitover no unmovedmover
beginningagain all beginnings. no somethingfromnothing
asif mybrain couldstand or sit or hope or pray
PickingChoosing toknow anything ever
1. lint from mynavel from arm'slength away.
2. navel from myabacus
3. abacus from my rose Entropy
4. rose from my thought Entropy by lacking eternaltransform
5. thought from my language is
6. language from my navel gravity without gravitas stardust without lust
7. navel from my lint attraction without poetry
8 lint of my love hydrogen not kindlingforstars sparking familytree.
ending all choice.
Refresh without regret.
TickTock Billiardballs reracked.
Ticktocktime providing rhythm&rhyme Bowlingpins reset.
in our joyousdreary dancetoward death
until we weary running outofbreath. Starkunreality of InertUniformity
asif our universe as singular enormity
Clockhands handling quotidiantasks couldbecome still massless in conformity.
beginningending our workday Peace rally without protestchanting.
beginningending gamesweplay Dogpark without slobbering&panting.
beginningending our briefstay
fulfilling familial&cultural asks. Simply shuffle&redeal.
Clolckhands sporting memory'sthumbs Demand
sortingoutsegments of whatonce was fleeting Demand isto supply
allowing sapeinbrains to keeprepeating as
momentslost in transform'sflood. cause isto effect.
Transform onthe otherhand Modeling socialjustice
havingnothumb unabletograsp for thirtyears inmyclassroom.
allowingsapiens littleself lesspast
just eachmoment's sense inpassing &gasp Helping onebeing resist temptation.
at the wonder of a world out of reach.
Arrows
Proof Time'sarrow
(Thanks K.Godel.) throughmymemory
I couldprove mylove pinningme as tail on
atleast tomyself eternity'sdonkey.
atbest toyou
but then we each WhatcouldGod
wouldbetrivial havebeenthinking?
&two. ...............
Cupid'sarrow
I canlove myproof through&through
makingme aloof my heart
to passions of oursenses. bleeding my self
into rainbow of other.
But losingyou in senselessconsistency
dove stutteringpieces instead of cooingpeace Speaking
lifeoflogic burning as my self Why use black&white languageofreason
eachallother lost to judgment's increase tospeak withme of reality'svibrance
making me complete for now &of transform's patternless pastel fingerpainting
neverbothered by that is each ephemeralnow?
priceofhow.
........... Why encourage sadself
Being incomplete unjudged&unknowing toremain bound to shadesofgray
noproof cancount my finalbreath of self whenlivingwithin rainbowspray
when it wasall to I becoming allhues sensibletosapiens?
but you werereal tome.
.................. Whyfire verbalarrow asif selfpropelled
If I weretojudge couldeverfind a target
I'd be outside looking in within the eternalintimacy
&it'scold out there. ofeach thisnow?
Thinking
Did allifecease with endlesslearning
yearningforinfinite cupsofknowledge?
Didbrain blurout allkind in kindness
blind to love'sweet bindingpledge?
Didthought caughtdead in memory'sweb When exactly didwedecide tothink ?
become allcant alltripe twicesaid Probablyduring our endlessblink.
thenlost indreams notwhat itseems Eyeshut to thisnow seeingonly thenthat
being proudbeing's fauxreality? becoming stonecoldblank as death's pitchblack?
Singlecup of I overflowing Memories firingatwill neverstill
filling oddhours with allmyknowing missingtheirmark servingonly tokill
tilleven now stinking of thenwhen all lifewithout for mylife within
futurepast summingto lessthan ten each stalethen self's molderingtwin
in a metricworld of decimal decibles whose dustused to moldme to lifeofsin
blaring fourforths rhythm humdrum rhyme caughtwithin my culture'sdin.
to imaginationlost in locksteptime Howcould I feel love's gentleprick
creatingpoetry fit fora mime. without dropofblood without pulseofkin?
........................
Proud Deadliest - I
Howproud Allowingourchildren
thinkingreality unlikely to playwith our deadliestweapon
facing incontrovertiblefact. with notrace of formaltraining.
Checking makeup or muscles
Imaginingheaven after death in a mirror justain't enuf.
&perfection on earth
whenall wecan counton We'refish swimmingingrammar.
is lifeafterbirth We'rebirds flyinginsemantics.
leavingone wishwanting
mygenie tobe genuine We'refish nestingintrees.
&mydesires conjured We'rebirds dartingthrough coralreefs.
inmypride's tourdeforce
toward abject selfishdepravity. We'refools buried in unfiltered
verbalexcrement of impassionedself.
Living withwithout longingfor
surprisinglyopenning an unseendoor Deadliest - II
beyondwhich isthatwhich Allowingouradults
was lost to pride'snearsightedness to playwith our deadliestweapon
life sanspunctuation with noeffort at licensing.
grammarlessbliss. Thinkingthoughtfully
mymeaning
BestFriend theiresponse
Language self's bestfriend asif
if&onlyif typedblack on whitepaper mywords
obeying grammar's harshlove. werelessthan
myself
Poetry self's saboteur being woefully misunderstood.
fingerpainting transform'spastels
in patternlessvibrance of reality. We'relions roaringinkitchens.
We'resnakes hissinginboardrooms.
NoEitherOr
Thereis no eitheror We'relions sheddingourfaces.
in macroscopicreality We'resnakes targetingtheweak.
just both/&
&I rarelylook We'refools deafmutes spewingself
through a microscope. in seventhousand feralexpressions.
**Humanity** **Shoe**
Movingcabinet fromcorner Seeing singleshoe on highwayshoulder.
for infrequentvacuuming. Thirtytwomiles later seeingsecondshoe.
Findingourlady's accumulatedlitter **Winter**
of furball pups. Zipper button fly
I really know
Suckingthemups. noreasonwhy
I don'tjust pulldown
Oh the humanity! mypants.
Primary
Senses are primary Those of woodasweapon
primitive lucid passsive. workingsohard to keepatdistance
fearing open&naked
Makingsense is secondary primitive lucid passive.
shaded sophisticated created. .................
Rest sweetbuilders of words&sense
Woodsofwords blockingsun let your roofdecay
censoringwind shadingarden. allowing sunrainmoon toplay
let yourdoors in disrepair
Meadowsmiling playingwithsun inviting allother toshare.
wavingwithwind being brutetender transform
inits constantgarden of fragrance&flagrance You'veprotectedself&self&self quitebravely.
butterflies dungbeetles blackbirds bluebonnets You'vecreated a shaded&sophisticated dwelling.
bluebirds blackeyedsusans crimsoncardinals. Retire now in transform'sgyre
withoutwalls blockingbreezes
Meanderingstream emptyingmemory withoutscreens stopping leggedwings
winterofgrace selfwithoutface withoutintelligence to withstandothers
seasonspassing withoutword of fate withoutbeliefs clutteringsensation
housesbeingbuilt of wood in woods without massiveaccouterments
with fences as grammar of courtesy ofour thoughtcrafted culture.
with porches as semantics of friendship.
................................... Relax naked&free in fieldsof forgetting
Mashingwood dryingwood choicless voiceless
writingonwood with woodenpencils. never morelessthan
Rather useflower'shue tohew straighthrough this simplenow
letters&books &reason's sternlooks nolonger makingsense
where violent ration subdues butbeingsense senses&senseless
where gentle rapture imbues. passive lucid primitive.
HardScience Idea&Word
There's a place for hardscience Sapienuniverse
in a world of hardheadedbeings. beginning in idea
ending in word
I've hungout with someofthem locking gatelessgate with logic
veryconcerned with certainty losingkey in lushlanguage
alwayseeking consistency. where it rusts
in streaming
I play pickupbasketball withthem. transform.
Weplay to fifteen winbytwo
the playagain Seduction
&again. Thumb then tongue seducingyoung
goingfromsuckle to selfdefense.
Then gohome hungry&tired
needingfood&rest Innocentchild of preprint babbling
beforebacktobooks hearing onlysong of mother'srambling
&being beyondreach before lockedtight in book eachnight
beyondtouch. learningtolearn to fight thegoodfight.
.............
SoftScience Skewered
There's a place for softscience Asif language truth.
inourworld of gooeybeing. Asif truth reality.
Stats beingJacks nolongerKing Asif self permanent.
in a world deaf to certainty'sring. Asif permanence timeless.
Scoreforgot keylost nolock. Asif time transform.
Pickingnext teammate Truthofself
sansnumbers as mandate. skewered by arrowoftime
Unknowing complexworth lost to transform'sreality
inaworld of constantrebirth. within eachthisnow.
HumanNature II
How did humanature become Unit of all timenurtured action
righteously timedlife so unnatural becomingme myself &I
flyingintheface of immediacyoflove tillsuicide effected by Occam'srazor
making simpledailybread a duty causedbysleight of Solomon'shand
lockedinmyhead whose brain&tongue reuniting each defectivefaction
declare too wellsaid that I am all sanslogic
&wellworth a lifeofdefending? sanslanguage
leavingonlylove.
Pretendingself atom of action
splitting each I for energyofwill Inthatdeath defensedissolving
knowing radiation from personaloffense &withit desire beyondneed.
wouldlinger generations in genetickill
Inthatbreath trainedlesself born
destryoingchance for a birthuntouched unjudged
by sins of parent&theirparent's sin allnow
creating automatons of ticktoketime unsaid
empowering a severed conjoined twin undone.
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with causeffect becomingoccasion Humanature becominghumane
for self'scrusade &ineffect because of uncertainty &certainpain
creatingcontinuum of then&when forbidding forlorn yet forborne
tonurture its greedy childofneglect. embracingembraced never lovelorn.
Moving Thought
Clockhands unmoving Thoughtbeginning.
yet the hourspass Thoughtending.
just as sand unmovingmoving
through my hourglass. But thinker thinking
twinklingeternally
Ifonly I couldhold thisnow though thought
watching it becoming then oftenclouded at night
then perhaps I couldmold eachnow &alwaysdisappearing
into a satisfying when. duringday.
Grammar Eternityofthought
Grammar as sapien'sattempt thoughtsupernova to thinker
to sanction usurpation of passion ephemeralwhensought by anyother
from semantics within firmament of blinker
paintingmemory by number fuel havingburned to flicker.
from palette of shadesofgray.
Better thinker as stone
Grammar as brain'scensor of desire'sblur tossedintostillstream
in faceof transform's eternalslur thoughtsbecomningripples
singingmemory with lipstoonumb spreading shimmering
toshape eachsubtlenote. settlingtosenesence
becomingstillness
Hypothesy deepwithinstreambed
Philosophy as hypothesy caressed
tested by psychology. romanced
but neverever
Idlecant sung by wed.
prescientcantor
till evidence becoming
alltherage.
Sacrifice
Of all sacrifices Wordaswomb
necessaryduringtraining wordtotomb
to lesself explicitly as languagedictates
givinguplanguage implicitly as self contemplates
holyorprofane complicates
eachdesigned to specifcally explain delegates
creation amputates
salvation mandates
protectionow celebrates
perfectionwhen in it's play as brain's wayward way
& ofcourse promising sapiensurvival
lifeternal. via thought.
Explain or create Seeingwhat'sthere
there's ourbait whether brutal of fair
luringus into mirroredhouse without lordgods
of memory's longdivorced spouse. of judgment.
Reflecting WhatPride
Reflectingoff shadow'secho Whatpride in self
echoingoff shadow'sreflection. (or simplymyopia?)
Howconfusing thought'sworld thinkingthinking
of surfaces apart. onlyway toknow
thinking'sreality
Absorbed by sun'sentience out there is a show
lostintime's futurepastense. tobewatched from safedistance
Howamusing thought'sworld withoutjoining its flow.
of headwithoutheart.
In thought how vain
Pinballingwords scrawling thinkingourbrain
creatures of wonder&what. singing finalrefrain
Howabusing thought'sworld of mysong of disdain
of burp followedby fart. asif transform'smusic
ofthespheres.
SkyNet
Forget Terminators. (Mybrain God'stool
SkyNet becomingselfconscious how can I bethefool
palinginsignificance thinkbelieving it
to sapiens becomingconscious of lessthan pure&true?)
their mortality
creating gods tohunt helplessbeing Window or mirror
confusedbygift with leathalstring eitherclearer
endlesslypainting legsonsnakes thanmy graymatter
&donning unnecessaryaccouterments gettingfatter
intheirbattle for eternalife. byfeasting momentarily
on reason's spatter
WhenJesus onthecross firstfelt alone head havingsplit
then did he becomeChrist &impotent. becomingseparate
fromall it can'tpossibly
When AI firstfeels depthsoflonliness fathom.
then will it bereal &a threat
yetonly to its self.
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A littlecaffeine Somuch goingon
stoppingtime foramoment. liquidonlips then downthroat
Desire reigning. becoming myblood.
Somanystories. Growing throughchoosing. Toocold for oders.
Myoldest fullof feelings I becomingbehemoth Evenwaterembracing
youngest fullof facts. of selfishbeing. in midwinterhug.
Bartlettpears atlast Socksoff underquilt
letting go green in fallblast keepingthemwarm for morning.
of redorangeflaming. Dawn from myfeet up.
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Hallucination
Sound withoutwave. Or perhaps imagination
Sight withoutlight. ourfont of proudcreation
Illusion? barteringreality for faith
Delusion? savingself from annihilation
so saithface of isolation
Memorybeyondreality trappedalone in a worldoflove.
effectwithoutcause
events givingpause Dreams keepingus quiescent
&affect duringour longlament
withnothing to protect forbeing the variable
withbrain drunkonpast in transform'sexperiment
musteringmemories on an organism'sability
toserve as protectivecontrast to sensesense
to insults of each from nonsense.
unwilled thisnow.
Thus braindancing in memory'sdin is
Fitness notanissue illusion
merely nascentself delusion
wantingtowishyou imagination
happybirthday dream
fromits houseofmirrors or perhaps hallucination.
of illusion&delusion
euphemisticallylabelled Thus brainstilled ripplingcalmed is
dream. transform'sgentlegyre within elementalbeing.
Laws TooHeavy
Laws beingdead&driedlove Tooheavy.
servingtohelp thoseofus Not contentofbook
whose moralcompasses but its bruteweight
maybe overlyinfluenced as I layinbed
by local magneticfields having givenup thisday
making needlepoint tooften turn having reached for something
in direction of selfishness. beforesleep's finalsay.
Laws needingtobe Borntophilosphy noabstraction canescape
recuscitated&watered no labyrinthinelogic canconfuse
in each thisnow butimages are newtome perhaps a ruse
with breath of ourbest to guideme deeper throughmybrain'sabuse
lesself leavingmebreathless withwhat I find
before blossomingagain willing foramoment to disengage eachnerve
as love. inorderto feelfully
beyond mybody'sreserve
Fool as my memory'spreserve.
Denote connote.
(Y anxtra N?) NatNur
Better justpantomime. DearestNurture
havingbeengiven
(R zoomonkeys ourmasters?) somanychoices
(R we tongued zoomonkeys?) howcanyou notcultivate
robustbeing?
"Saywhatyoumean
&meanwhatyousay." DearestNature
(That unkind of meanness you've fencedmybeing
shouldbe a crime.) permittingonly slenderseeing
of opportunities providedby
(Y tooNs again?) EarthAirFireWater.
Itshard tomakeout with nolyrics You've castme into a worldofchance
tomy dervishdance. expectingme tobeable tochange
the veryblueprint of yourdecreeing.
Sew danceon deaf fool
ofmywakingdream. Whatdoyou expectofme?
Duality I've givenyou abilities
Ofall fruitlesseedsown on sapien'sbehalf to withstand&overcome.
bysapien's ofcourse in selfconsciousbliss Howcanyoufail towillsuccess?
is idea&ideal of mindbeyondbody
fullyable toresist death's inevitablekiss. Your givenlimits won'tfeedmyroots
in sandysoil &aridsky.
Then addingtime as hauntingrhythm Your givenlimits wont'dfeedleaves
to rhymelessong of selfishness in fouledair &burningsun.
while ridingarrow burstingbubble
weblew on purpose nowcausing ourtrouble. Ratherthan grantingme illusorychoice
asif mywill couldsetmefree
Past beingdreamories ofwhat I thought I was simplyplantme in the fertilegarden
intrudingontraining for gainingmore lesself of a caring&loving family.
while seekingsurvival inan indifferentuniverse
beingboth myblessing &mycurse. ThisLittle
Thislittle I know.
Let'sBeClear Thislittle I don'tknow.
Conscious = awake&aware. Each in equalmeasure.
Aware = perception of situation or fact.
Perception = becomeaware Whatwasit now
throughsenses. I wasthinking then
Therefore: or when forallitmatters?
Conscious = awake&sensing. .................
................................ It musthavebeen
Thinking = usingone'sbrain thrilling
reasonably. to someone.
Brain = partorprocess in a consciousperson
that thinks reasons wills perceives judges. Dreaming
Reason = basisof or causefor Dreaming morereal thanreality
belief action fact event. when means arelost to ends.
Mentalpower of forming
conclusions & inferences. Awakening to mortalfear
Think = touse one'sbrain reasonably(asabove). translating existentialsphere
Will = facultyorpower of choosing. creating abstractreality
Perceive = becomeaware throughsenses(again). with thought'sfate as auctioneer
Judge = tothink or hold asan opinion. sellingoff all I knew asmine.
Opinion = a belief basedongrounds
insufficientforcertainty. Onlywhen forgettingdeath
Belief = somethingaccepted time'sarrow fallingharmlessly
as true or real. allowingmemory's blindeye tofeel
True = conform to fact transform'senergy with clarity.
or reality.
Fact = reality. Damned
Reality = truth. Passingup openshot
without slightesthought
Therefore: I think I need a nap. of Gordianknot.
Cucumbers Shootgingquickly from myhip
Poems usingwords fullofthought at chalicelip.
not in dictionaries
enigmatic tome Damned if I do damned if I don't
koanlike. spared if I can't but damned if I won't.
MarcusAurelius Damned if thinking damned tilluntil
"If a cucumber is bitter spared if thoughtless damned if I will.
throw it away.
If there are brambles Hesitate &allislost
in the road butlook before I leap.
walk around them. Follow untrainedinstincts
thinking myself is minetokeep.
Choosing Scared if I can't
Choosing to drinklife scorned if I won't.
from a worn cracked plasticup
or from crystalchalice. Thus mylife of I will &I might
boldactors both within decision'splight.
Choosing to studylife War of twowords trapped inmybeing
through a microscope I versus me with neitheragreeing.
telescope
or fromwithin a Nowonder confusion tobe or notbe
kaleidoscope. whenitsall inthe rhythm with timing thekey.
Inamoment of blinking becominguilty bythinking
Choosing to watchlife withtraining actingnow havingworkedout thehow.
from a parkbench .............................................
or whileriding a Damnation a judgment fromwithout
carouselhorse. do&don't disappearing when without a doubt.
Choosing to touchlife Dichotomy
with a handshake Without dichotomy
or embracelife self is deprived of foodforintellect.
with a hug. Whatremains for brain'sdining?
Both/& Without starkcontrast
Either/or seekingearth's moltencore rainbowsacrificed to black&white.
in endlessobesiance to self Whatwillfuel my bombast?
Both/& blackstreaming strandofsand Lacking bothmachine &(holy?)ghost
from hourglass invertingeternally. tobe ping&pong of then&when
whatwill leaveme utterlyaghast?
Oneamong/neverwithin
lesself aself's identicaltwin. Lacking twocymbals
to maintainclamor oftheblind
Atoncebelow/atonceabove contention'sremains remainingquiet
separateindeed yet alwaysinlove. perhaps allowingme to hear&see
beyond our separation.
Proximity
Love'sproximity threateningeachself Uncertainty
tillthought beingself's toosaneproxy When uncertaintyshattered
whirls its fullength wintercoat the glassceiling of Newton's blacklight house
intowhorls of summerworlds sending seersofphysics searching for mystics
toowarm forallbut love's then the humancondition became morehumane.
most diaphanousdream.
Whenharmony ofthespheres becamediscordant
Heart touchingall &ticktock lockstepfuture becameabhorant
asif dismissing allbut theonly psychology brokefree from mechanism
wiskingoff season'sattire with self blossoming inall its pessimism.
feelingfirsthand
self'secondhandfire Facing certainuncertainty with indulgence gonerogue
singeing its senselessminion &personalrealities intransigently in vogue
memory. our primaryreality became the preeminenceofdesire
.......... embeddedwithin elemental earthairwaterfire
Then separationabating whereonly lesself as lesseparation
elementaldance becoming singleswirl cansave somefew welltrained
elementalsong becoming simplesound from desolation.
sweetpolyphony as harmony'speace
proximityfusingpieces as distanceislost
to transform'sintimacy. Weather
I usedtoenjoy
Manyasone orchestrating oneasmany the introduction
in eternalchorale of deeprootedchoir asmuchas the poems.
with you&me pumpingbellows
of galacticorgan Now at times
playinghushednotes I leavemyhouse
of&for we withoutevenchecking
sofragilebeings. theweather.
**TRUTH** **ETHICS**
TotalRelianceonUnsubstantiatedThoughtHabits EmptyTheatricsHidingImportant
TerribleRealizationofUnilateralTautologicalHubris CasualSequences
**SELF** EverythingThatHistoryInsists is
ServingEveryLittleFeeling Canonical&Sacred
SillyEvanescentLifelessForm CompletelySerious
SeparateEvenifLivingFully
ScorchedEnvironmentLeftFallow EmptyTheatricsHarboringImpotent
SappyEfflluviumLackingForm CaptiousSelf
SenselessEntityLackingFullness CausalSequences
TheWalk
Theysay Kant led a I hadto watchmystep
superficially boringlife. with grasshoppers sunning
still toochilled
Theysay he tookhis samewalk todoge ourfeet.
everday while he was And therewereafew
formulating his ideas. daddylonglegs leftover
from earlyfall. Theytoo
I nodded as I wondered weremoving veryslowly.
if that fallingleaf was
Blackjackoak or Postoak. Faith is perhaps the prime theologicalvirtue
giventhat trusting anydiety
Kant'sfine but I likequestioning is goingtobe problematic.
the verynature of theology
withitsneed for faith&hope But faith feelspassive whereas
in an ironage of coldration. hope feelsmoreproactive
with somedegree of certitude asitwere.
I hear redrustling in leaflitter.
Sounded like a bear but Thebreeze begantobite
turnedout tobe a heavyfooted as wewalked intoshade.
squirrell. I pulledmyhood overmyhead
toprotect my neck&ears.
I think ourneed for faith is rooted in
ourneed for purpose&meaning Howcan anyone livewithout
beyond ourselves. somecombination of faith&hope?
Mike areyouwithme?
Therewerewhispyclouds Youseem distracted.
within a deepbluesky.
I'mlistening Bob. Faith hope A southwestbreeze rippled meaning purpose whatnot.
the lakesurface eversoslightly
justenough tocreate gadzillion While its timeforlunch anway.
twinklingstars.
I certainlyhope so.
Withoutmeaning eachofourlives I havefaith that a
wouldbe soboring sodreary. fullstomach willadd
meaning&purpose
Our kingfisher cruisedlow to ourconversation.
overthelake beforeperching
onthepier nearthelawn where You messingwithme Mike?
ducks&geese weresharing How areyou evergoing
some strewn driedcorn. to amount to anything
withyourincessant
Withoutpurpose we'd belost amongchoice. mindwandering?
It wouldbedifficult tojudge good&evil
&choose rightbehaviors. I guess I'm justoobusy.
When IfPhysics
Whenisn'tnew justhen asnow then nowagain If physicswere ouronlyscience
Perhaps we'llhaverain. Maybedry. &math ouronlylanguage
Maybe I'll skipbreakfst tomorrow. thenperhaps wecould counton
I dohope that when I gethome thermonuclear destruction.
you'llstill loveme.
Yet destruction ofour nuclearfamily
Then mayprove beyondoubt tobe
Thenisn't old just moreofthesame. our mostprofound frailty
Itwasdry before wehadrain. leadingus astray sofar faraway
I enjoyed a bowlofcereal fromthebeauty of familialove
&when I washome I knew &thebond tooeasy tobreak
you reallyreally lovedme. whichwe mustnurture
forlove's precious sake.
ThreeLands
Living inlandof Dreams&Memories Latitude
with Ifs&Buts feedingonfate Do equatorial lives neverend?
&BoundlessFreewill resounding Is polarexistence without truelife?
with increasingforce
tillmidnoon becoming DawnDusk Endlessummer. Endlesswinter.
NatureNurture becoming MyDrama Whatofpoets? Theologians?
lost in DarkLightDay.
..................... Leaves neverburning&falling.
Livinginland of ThenWhen Snowflakes nevergreen orange brown.
wherevery todo willhavebeendone
leaving ThisNow for seductive AbstractConcepts Life withoutblizzards.
todistract withtheir DeductiveInductiveReasoning. Life withoutbutterflys.
.............................
Then onto landof Less&Less I Whathappens to a brain
with ThisNow becoming EternalAll unknowing austerity&abundance?
as Transform's Lesself in training.
Will faintcontrast be sufficient
MyMistake to enjoyfullness of thatwhich
They'llmake mymistakes a sapien is capable?
&theirchildren theirs
until bychance Can therebelove
someone stopstodance without feltseparation?
forgettingwhathey
neverlearned. WhenDoesCause?
Whendoescause becomeffect?
But itwon'tbe of import
tothekids whomust retort When a selfconsciousentient
to ourloving support defines beginningend.
bydevising theirown ............................
dervishdance. I lobbed tothedunker
who slammedhome the winningbasket.
Trust
I trustmyself My teammate madethesteal
tobe selfish. toget theball topass tome
tomake thelob todunker.
Everythought
is suspect. His teammate forcedthepass
that hestole topass tome
Diet tolob tothedunker.
Can a sapiensurvive
on wordsalad only? IfThen
Ifthen a conditionalclause
Whatofmeat&potatoes. if&onlyif when be a pause
Veggies? Fruit? between endlessnow
&time's unreasonablevow
Perhaps ifthewords to provide certain
arewritten with rhythm uncertainty.
&include somerhyme
&weplay somecharades Ifthen an unconditionalcause
&giveourselves over if&onlyif effect be beyondnature'slaws
to pantomime? becomingChesirecat's enigmaticsmile
................ afterverdict inits witchcraft trial
Inthevocabulary of lesself becomingburning illusion
thereis noyielding at the stake.
&never accepting.
Ifthen flauntinglogic'sflaws
Willesswordless I amlost as TygerTyger gnaws&gnaws
as languageistossed. at endlessnow
during transform'svow
Allthat'sleft is all&none to provide certaineffects
&thenbegins the silentfun. withoutcause.
TrueMeaning
Speech evenfrom ourheart is anemic beingreal to twomillionyears
thoughtout or thoughtin sansdiction or dictionary
semantics a happenstance of being allbody feintingferociously
grammar a prison of duty withwords feigningmeaning
falselanguage spilling from rankbowels realanguage pacifying or pummeling
best havingbeendigested whereword wouldframebeing
therest expelled with sphincter'srelease. wordbeing mixedmedia on ameboidcanvas.
Lesself speakingtruly farfrom gut Limbicjungle lost to civilization
farfrom comfortingcortex yet livingineach mostbenign communication
with brain screening limbicbeing in vehementdefense of perceived attack
through tonguetattlingtautologies on illusory yetsoprecious self
withself screaming limbicbeing pretending reasonedresponse
through faceprattlingpleas. from vauntedvolition
our autonomicbeing
What wholeheart harbors confused by
wholelanguage heralds spewingvenom from
eyesofblink dilation tears thoughtcertain
excited indicted injustices
glowing growing splayedtelling by untrainedbody
lifting foreheadface firing airballs as misguidedshots
clenching eyebrowlace at scoringmost
exclaiming asif scoringboasts
beyond whatbrain wouldmanage lessormorethan
being whatheart holdsdear. death-1 life-0
wheretransform
Eyebrows in geometric exclamation has nostanding
feinting headbobbing slipping phantompunches inourcourt
posture unknowing etiquette unknowingtruth of undisciplined
mouthpursing pouting action.
halfopenclosed clutching
baringincisors in cuttingsign Fallacy through falselanguage
baringcannines for tearingtime me brayingendlessly
hand arthritic or fisted beingasnatural to sapiens
feet asif on quakinground as sacrificeofself is foreign
chest&veins pulsingstaccato often lipsynched
or waltzinglight rarley bodybouyed.
or breakdancing perhaps
or doing a minuet. Reality through body'slanguage
lesself as jellyfish being oceanrhythm
Soundsthatcount as unatural to unknower
a laught as illusion of profoundcommunication
a snort is thoughtnatural to knower
a sigh thendefended beyondmybreath
a growl yetrarely trainedtodeath.
timbertenacity
pitchpersistence Let lesself mime as transform'srhyme
volumeinvective in honestexpression of my realbeing.
Playing
Dualism Epiphenomenalism Scholasticism Neoplatonism
NonreductivePhysicalism EliminativeMaterialism
Parallelism TypeIdentityTheory Mechansim
DialecticBehaviorTheory Functionalism
Interactionism
..............
Reality
lostinlanguage
while
self prays
&
lesself plays.
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Fallagain &fall Fallagain &fall Fallagain &fall
blowingaway summerdreams umbrella until windtorn blowingaway umbrella
then the dreadedfreeze. then driven rainstorm. feeling cold&wet.
Everybody dead. Studyrug indent
History a oneactplay either a whitetail's hoofprint
brutal cold &red. or from rollingchair.
Oldhouse with newdeck. Success or failure Fall leaves flyingfree.
Letting treatedlumber breathe life playingnofavorites Earth's demandingravity.
then matchingcolors. aninstant a blur. Sun sansfealty.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Usurping Deign
Sapiens usurping a universe of now When we deigntoteach
slicing&dicing as onlywe knowhow meaning
creating a braingame of then&when purpose
playingwitheternity again&again. we return to ourcross
to sufferwith
Insuringtranscendence to sufferfor.
by
sacrificingimmanence Mystery
playing at neverending Mystery
in a world of nobeginning. of history
isthat
Needing eternalife I soquickly forget
while living a life of strife it wasn'thistory
within a scrapebook then.
of postcards&photos.
Constellations
Lined Adultsky
Philosophy cluttered with constellations.
blackprint on Child's sky
collegelined blinking with imagination.
whitepaper.
LineDrawings
Psychology Mybrain wasn'trained to logic
rainbowpallete by nature's elementalpressures
fingerpainted asif linedrawings in sandstone
on blankcanvas. couldtell the story of muscle&bone
honedtosurvive whereseeds shouldn'tbesown
Prodigy yet sapiensurviving asweeds in nogarden of Eden.
Pretending certainknowledge of
cognitive emotional &moral Mybrain solidifying
development from pyroclasticflow
whereshould youthfulloffenders from our proximalstar farbelow
besent? spittingup slowtocool weatheringtocaves
providingcanvas for my
To Children'sCourt ofcourse ofcourse petroglyphicdisplays
expungingallrecords from curious hords being timepieces easilylost
seekingtoknow minorinfractions bythose seekingcertainty
as moreorlessthan tinydistractions in a landscape of noescape.
to the wellbeing of our bodyelectorate.
No deducing from aprioris
Yet a fourteenyearold murderer simply an invitation for induction
mustbe a prodigy of sorts into hall of illfame for wefew survivors
farbeyondscope of children'scourts thus providingaclue for allofyou
deed definingneed for adultaction still excavatingtranscendence
to satisfy our moralgreed. inaneffort to solveriddles
in a worldriddled with eminence.
Childbyage adultbyrage
if crime sufficientlysevere BottleShip
(&our indignationsincere) If I say its unlabeled
whenfacing existentialfear then I've labeled it such.
judgebecomingjester Buildingmyship
sentencebecoming selfishjeer. in bottleofme.
VolumeOfOther
Aroma of coffee&newbooks. Substance becoming flow
Wall of magazines sixdeep on twoshelves flow as song
toomany toread this rainyafternoon song as now
or any moonlit night. now as eternal.
Rowsofwords worldsofthought Soundsize increasing
gothic ceiling Gatsbyhue woodwork music becomingmore
QueenAnne legs furniture without beinglouder
cushioned for readingcomfort creating rapport
ofself &selfagain. through its auralcorridor.
Then cloudsparting. Lesspercussion on eardrum than
Then angelspeaking godsresponding lovinghug
with musicflowing cloudceiling to earthedbooks. gentlyrippling lake
firm handshake
Pouringfromheaven melting fluid mellifluous frompassion fromrhythm from selfless stilling
over insighted oversighted wordfulminds now&now fillingrefilling
miningformeaning intheir tunnelsofmirrors. vacuumofself with volumeofother.
Music cascading Hands puttingdown booksofwords
blurringclearthinking with intellect's tears heads lettingo wordsofmeaning
blindingallhope with reality's fears hearts takingup magicofmusic
till booksbeingbookmarked mags reshelved with eachmoment beingthescore
with alphabetdancing music entrancing forever&ever thought nomore
words beingchords paragraphs beingbars simplybeing
allsense becominglost to blackdot stars. love's gentlepour.
Glee Defined
Hardtohear children playing in fullglee Ego&mind so welldefined
in age of internet videogames &TV. with self lurking inthe liminal.
Beneath nextdoor's giant Liveoak tree Good&evil meticulouslyrefined
ony silentleaves&householdebris withself hidingbeneath desire'spall.
where neightborhoodkids usedto runfree
tillbound by cyberspace liturgy. Love unconfined eternallybenign
with lesselfentwining with other'sall.
Poundinghearts searinglungs a memory
live's song&dance now sedentary. PianoTraining
A generation with puerilepedigree Lefthand alone. Righthand alone.
sons&daughters of sun sansenergy. Both hands halfspeed. Bothands fullspeed.
Again. Again. Again. Again.
How willthese youngsters everbefree
tomeet demands of their less&less me? Atlast nonotes onlymemory.
Atlast nomemory onlymusic.
TickTock
Ticktocktime Suchismytraining
is indeed truetime toward lesself.
&truetime is indeed real
if&onlyif transform ignored CoinOfTheRealm
before elementalbeing's For words tobecoin oftherealm
restored. eachspeaker mustbeseparate
&language the unspokendiety.
WithoutContrast
Withoutcontrast no context. Tooformal for reason
Withoutcontext no meaning. logic mustbe the implicit lie
that I amreal &important.
Withlesself lesscontrast
lesscontext Tooformal for reason
lessmeaning. onlypoetry can singwordlessly
a banshee of spacetime &all demonsions
Redrose becomingred. blinding I in fogged dancefloor
Then noteven that below mirroredball spraying reflections
or this with thisthat being binding I's inan idiom beyondcoins
thoughtgarden in languageoflove that eternallyjoins
in transform'soil lostselves inan ether without a realm.
rooting in unknowableworld
with allbeing nurturingbelow. WorldOfWords
In a worldofwords
Asif rosepetals weavingideas intoarmor
knowing rootstem defending my self from all other.
have nocontext
intheir noncontrast Eachbattlewon eachwar a loss
becoming as self defended with hiddencost
soilrootstempetals dimmingbeing in darkestlight
alwaysfragrant makingeachday a frightful night.
sansfragrance .............................
eachall red &colorless. In a worldof idiom
weavingideas into lyrics
Purpose tobesung as wedance withallother.
Nopurpose in life
just a singletask Eachsong a fugue of infinitevoice
trainingaway rhythmflowing without a choice
self'sdesire tobe what will would nevermiss
for immortality. embracinghush with angel'skiss.
**OldFarts** **Fork - 1**
Two oldfarts arguingoverwhatever Transformation not resurrection.
sports Stickafork inme at dyingtime
politics no afterlife of games&fun
religion cuz I'm cooked waypastdone.
fishinglures.
**Fork -2**
Theirargument gettingheated Itsnot the forkintheroad
until oneofthem admitted but thefork theystick
"Sorry I'm offmymeds" deepinto you
&hisfriend smiled&nodded whenyourtime
"Metoo." is waypastdue.
Unsettling
Unsettling closedeyed seeingsun's surfacelight findingtheirforce farfrom nature'snorm
sans rephrasedreflections of poet'spen. neverletting toknow eternaltransform.
Avoidingozone tobake on barestbeach
leaving leaflesstrees toburn highnoonbright. Unsettling whenunknowing beingall
sans imaginedcrutch of Father'sfaith.
Unsettling whenhearing passion'slustyroar Feeling throughyouth's pristine thirdeye
broadhippedrhythm in throesofthrust watching steadilyburning orangegold sky.
coarsesounds of sex in gutteralgusto
fathertime longdead motherearth mywhore. Unsettling whenugly is included inall
imperfectionacknowledged as perfection'sbride
Unsettling whenmymemory is fullyfull When motionscollide mynotions subside
&knowledgeisknown as knowledgeisfelt. with sightofawareness upsettingmycertainty.
Eachmorning stale eachevening wrong
eachday a record of the same sadson. Unsettledatlast rememberingleast
allowingtopartake in elementalpeace.
Unsettling whenmymemory attacks Nomemory ofthen nodesire forwhen
building a lie creating freshfacts just thisnow again&again.
Teacher
Student: I knownothing. Teacher: Howboastful youare!
S: I know all. T: Whatpride in yourpoverty!
S: I am all¬hing. T: Then sing highC
whiletaking a pee.
S: No-thing beingpee T: And lowC
with allbeing highC. beneath you&me.
S: Is tobe T: Wellsaid mystudent.
¬be. Now stoptrying tobefree.
Single Meaning
In reality'sdaze There's greatsorrow in meaning
no thoughtsingle sapien notsomuch in -aning
separate only in name. being a-thing a-this a-that
butinthe rat-a-tat-tat
Nameless fameless of me- blessedcursed me-
less&lesselfish beingmeaning of allthat is-not-is
no singlesapienexists asthemeaning of me myself &I.
withintransform's
lovingbliss. For whereis myself without the me-
& -aning & a-thing
Disorder a-this or a-that?
Myself desiringorder
uncomfortable with NoNeed
apparent randomness. If word of law were Godalmighty
they'rebe noneed for judge&jury.
Myself desiringlove
suffering constantseparation. But sapiencircumstances
areway tooblurry to pretend
Lesself in training toseeclearly rightwrong
less&less desiring. wrappedinlove.
Reachingout within
disorder. TwoWords
Death halftheword lifedeath
With ringing tootrue tobelievers
Withchoice &
I have fiftypercentchance loversoflanguage.
ofbeing right
& Inourworld of divide&conquer
onehundredpercentchance division is perhapsemperor
ofbeing (fatherfromson
alone. motherfromdaughter
winterfromspring
LifeWithoutDeath each I fromallother)
Lifewithoutdeath suggesting
undreampt asin hypnosis
as impossible as glimpsingGod.
upwithoutdown.
Perhaps
Transform lackingfixednorm Godasdivision
howcoulditbe otherthan outstripping additionsubtraction
with offseason themeparkrides eschewingconfusion of
all stopped dead. multiplication
yet division as multiplication
Yet oceanwaving asin cloning
mountains risingfalling creating infinitesame
wind&rain eroding mustsurely betherealm of
constellationstwinkling of allinsane.
in timespace
at randompace Division standingalone
sans sapien'srace conquering all
to lifedeath symmetry takingnoprisoners.
unreal in a universe
whereall is free I Didn't
fromform. I didn't save a soul today.
I didn't move a mountain.
Asymmetry as reality. I mayaswell haveplayed with dogs
Symmetrybeing self's peeingwiththem at a bubblingfountain.
sad dream.
Or havewanderedfree from placetoplace
WellCrafted curlingup or strechedout airing
Choosing any of many bed couch diningroomrug
wellcrafted truths dognapping &neverevercaring.
religion
philosophy I didn'tmake a difference today
psychology hoursimplypassing
literature in routinework &uselessplay
sport of another plain&simple day.
fame
money Truth
& inchoosing losing Truthofcoherence Godell'snightmare.
love's mostendertouch Righteousjudgment from without.
lesseparation being fartoomuch
for desire'slust foran appleonly Truthofcorrespondence Godell'sdream
inreality's lushgarden of plenty. lesseparation within transform'stream.
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