CoinOfChoice
Pickingthrough my pocket'swealth
chancingupon bright coinofchoice.
Freewill determined I fliptosee
whichgod willbe incharge ofme.
If godless whatcanfate decree
but woefultale of callouschance
or head of randomemory
enthralled in devishdance.
MakingTime
Come mylad become rich&glad Theysee theirbeing in black&white
as wemake whateveryonewants. while hearing faintnoise butnever a song.
Come myfriend &we shallsend They wantmoretime for kaleidoscopicsight
ourcustomers on will'sjourney. &tohear sansdrone of self's rightwrong.
We're makingtime &it's sellingfine Ourjob is easy if you'renot tooqueasy
in market of fear&dread. tosellpeople whatheywill.
Rubes thinkingtime a magic lifeline We snip fromthen &add somewhen
savingthem from aging &thedead. while selling land dwellers a gill.
We'll stealtheirdreams until it seems They don'twantobe whotheyreallyare
theycanlive in futuretense. living arid &alone.
If theydoubt our method'sense Theywant eachbone tobecome a sponge
we'llconfure memories of pastperfect. soaked in perfection of eachunknown.
It's simpletosell &we needn'tell Buthey won't maketime totrain I'smine
the reality of eachnow as forever. tohush itswhine of mememe.
They'llpay throughtheirnose evenif itblows Theywon'tpractice skills to connectwithoutwills
&runs from eachprecious thisnow. intheirworld of selfasonly.
They fear morethandeath they fear everybreath We'll sellthemtime in purgatory
that'slessthan thatwhich theydesire. of willfulself's admiring.
Theythink their cellsuit doesn'tfit They'll buyourlie &livefornever
&fear their end in eternalfire. in fullness of timefuldesiring.
= = = = = = = = =
Bursting = Forthose whosimply can'tfindtime =
Lostinbliss = we'lleadthem to the magictree =
each perfectkiss = wherethenwhen is grown for self's sadsake = Two&ahalf hours.
bursting with loveternal. = leavesdrying longbefore the rake. = Threehits tworuns one error
= = &one waningmoon.
Eternalbliss = Piling all I's for a firesale =
bursting with eachkiss = sincefall has made theirspirit frail. =
lovealive in thought'selection. = Thenspark dullflame of self's owngame = Hitover the fence
= while failinglove as eternalnow. = beyoncrowdnoise &thelight
Lovebursting as flower = = intowoods &night.
from unsownseed = We'll sellthem time with burningleaves =
as dreamory's recollection. = of summerpast &future'sthieves =
................. = with being'sburn smoking in transform'swind =
Burstingatseams = of allwhowant &wanting sin. = Sixthinning popup
neversewn. = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = phasingfull tonew tofull.
Lovelost in separation. Fullyfallen caught.
HowNow? HowIsIt?
Sleeping waking washing How isit thatwhen
living loving playing in midocean lifeboat
happeningallthetime I know with allmybeing
intime ocean isin control
yet nevereverdone. but clingtoreason
Inaninstant when in ocean of allbeing
ineachinstant insisting on playing starringrole?
eachnow
thisonlynow How debilitating
simply empty now. can wordsickness be
alphabetparading as king
Dogma withme kissingit'sring
Words wilting whilescratching blackonwhite
from succulentgreen in a world of vividcolors?
to ashengray
fertilizer&artificialwatering Even closestfriends
becomingnecessary. separated from me
by comas colons questionmarks
Fertilizer in mylonelysoliloquy.
beingexcrement
mustbeused judiciously Flashphotography
lest fruitofdiscourse in moonlessblack
yield bitterjuice being poorsubstitute
beingremnant of its source for owl's nightvision.
as waste.
Capturedmoments
Withcare being reality'srevision
unusednutrients blurredbyshakinghand
from wellwornarguments tomouth of riverofpalaver
maybecome nutritious emptyinginto lesself'sdemure.
intheir secondsetting
enhancingrowth Knowinglife as lightalone
deepeningreen nowonder I wonder
increasingyield at impossibility of
of truth dark as sight
& night as breath
withluck all calledother
reality transform
ofwhich thosewords called death.
mayhavebeen boldenough
to symbolize.
**Erection**
Butchances are slim&none I don't reallyunderstand
if thosewords arebeyond their how youcanfake an erection.
permanentwiltingpoint
afterwhich noamount I get hidingone in public
of sweat&tears but in private she'sgoing to seeit
can ressurect lifeoftheirmessage. (you hope).
If revived perhaps And anyway don'tyouwant
by a livelyimagination to flauntyourmanliness?
thosewords mayagain blossom
completing their transform "Election"fraud yousay?
producingfruit OK. Nevermind.
spreadingseeds.
**GarageSale ** **FirePit **
Coming to po'man's mall Ourneighbors built a stonefirepit
inhisrusting pickuptruck &invited nearlyall the surroundingfamilies
with holesinjeans &scragglybeard. to a confligration &relaxingsit.
Leavingwith holeinjeans &scragglybeard We didn'tget aninvite atfirst
inhisrusting picuptruck tillthreatening to drop a dime totheHMO
bedofwhich cluttered with knowing those retiredlawyers would dotheirworst.
dustlayered mounted
twentypound strippedbass Ready with anaccusation of seance
inhaling tinybluegill &/or animalsacrifice
& perhaps druidism or someother paganrite
in passenger'seat wemade Alex&Annabelle paytheprice.
"BilliyTheSingingBass" ...............................................
who'llnever singagain Reconciled&invited sparking firstfire of June
evenwith freshbatteries. aroundwhich we indulged inan alcoholfueledcroon
whiledancingbeneath an almostfullmoon.
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Beards Change GivingUp
Beardedbarbarian Fearingchangingone'smind No emptiedghost on givingup
birdnesting in his facebush asif becoming a differentkind mywar to endallwars
razor'sedge being Occam's of what I usedto think I was. asif mybody housedmymind
ironicsuccess. asif each was stuff of a differentkind
Asif onechange being admission of justbeing forgetful forgotten fullofimperfection
Electricshaves advertised error inmy alloftheabove neverever otherthan
justbeforeChristmas. makingme failed&empty elementalconnection.
with righteousness myonlychance
tobefree.
Clarity LivingGods FreeChoice
Clarity is a lie Gods living in history&prophecy Lacking perceivedfreedom
not a brokenpromise sapiens living in then&when their isno receivedchoice
not a misunderstanding each unaware of simple thisnow. no thisorthat
not anerror of fact or reason. no titfortat
Fearingdeath as moreorlessthan no cat&rat
It's purposefuldeceit simple lossofbreath no leanorfat
designed tofool eachseer eachself striving to savingsame just thisnow without
intothinking allthat's seen thus creating an uglygame when or how
is allthat exists. of Imemine entire&alone. doesmycow jumpover
yourmoon?
Our darklord wouldhave "Life must be
beginningending understood backward Thinkingfreedom
difference&distance but lived forward." whenweonly want to feedon
that neverever were or are. allother tosate mydesires.
Strikeone striketwo
Clarity as straightline understanding self via memory Butwedon't wantopay
in rollercoaster reality understanding future via self &pay&pay
asif angles are allright so distracted forthewrong toplay
&plum the onlyfruit strikethree I'mout &play
in ripplingroiling sea yet so within mygame of capturetheflag
sans beginningending my tinyworld inside myskin. of myunfurledself
differencedistances. while pledgingallegiance
Backwardforward to the unitedstate of mybidding
Clarityofday blindingme. forewardbackward when letsfaceit who's kidding
Clarityofdark remindingme. keeping thisnow blurred we all live intheland of fauxfree
Calrityseeingconnections by futurememory'sdesiring &home ofthebereaved
wherethere is only allasone. strikefour through nine believing against all
Clarity deadlyserious myinside isout. malevolence tothecontrary
wherethere is onlyfun. thatheworld ismine
Timetoplay defense &theonlychoice ismyvoice
Clarity definingtodeath while I pout. singingmymournfulsong.
rhythm&rhyme of reality .............. ............................
asif one&only So defense itis in history&prophecy Therefore truefreedom beingnodreamland
spinning&singing living for an authoritivedecree (where I lives in peaches&creamland)
within transform'smurmuration. that everhthing willbe OK is simply thisnow choiceless&boistrous
thus neverhearing transform'symphony certainly RollsToyseless
Clarity can neverbe love of lesself as all with self taking a knee. being expansive inclusive &lucid
while cuttingtoodeeply lightfromwithin by lesself as lessin
for separationtoheal Thenwhenlost to thisonlynow as lessons in lesseparation
its presence tooreal honoring earthairwaterfire's where perceivedparts tear
for self'scamouflage simplevow unknowinghearts to pieces
its certainty beingleassthan to forego alltenses till selfceases tobe a chooser
ourdarklord to revel in senses. always a doomedloser
itself. livingwith sin death &power of love
vestedinme tomake youone
Clarity as willfullmisrepresentation inprofane inseparable fratrimony.
of all I will inmy desire&defense
of who I think I am.
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Honeysuckledusk.
Skunkoder after midnight.
Sweetbirdsong at dawn.
A single redrose Boulder&dozer
highabove even itself beneath unrelentingsun
on its spindlystem. in dirt arena.
Suddenly clearsky Seed germinating. Flower blossoming.
& a suggestionofspring. Roots&shoots rooting shooting. Butterfly pollinating.
Even a warmbreeze. Stem&buds waiting. Ripenedfruit falling.
Racingfallingsun Even gasoline
&billowing blackorange clouds. can'tget allthe roofingtar
Tarring carport roof. fromunder eachnail
Standinginsilence
beingridiculed at length.
Hearing justmybreath.
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Dictionary CruelFact QuantumMechanics
Between "true"&"truth" Unrequitedpast.Relivingdespair. Quantumechanics fixing physics
atleast fourteenwords. Asif mymemory couldevercare whilewavingoodbye to Newton.
for anythingotherthan pleasure.
Even with oneofthem being "trust" An antimatterissue of import
the linguisticdistance is Brainwashedwell yet willneverswell where export was ruleofthumb
theoreticallydaunting withwhat I wouldn'twant (&law of fingers
theologicallydizzying hunger&heat [whichcan always
logicallypuzzling aches&exhaustion becountedon])
therebeing atleast fourteenwords blistersonmyfeet lingering on tipofmytongue
between "true"&"truth" a littany of frustrations inmouth of riverofme.
butonly oneword between of frailties of myflesh.
"real"&"reality". Neither herenorthere
Let thought's thoughtmind nevernow then when or where
Order be muchmorekind each quanta playing
Order! I demandorder protectingme from physicalreality itsgame of fleetstaying.
in mycourt of brutereason. allowingmetolive
whereIcouldgive Dominion
Therecanbe nopeace without a plan a rat'sass for cruelfact. Time demanding
&noplan without order. direction
Burned duration
Chaos is forbidden. Theway of burnedwood. dominionover
Bedlam won'tbetolerated. Backtobranch it was&is consequence.
defying patience
Our onlydance willbe a waltz &short attentionspan Transform nonremanding
to a hushed chamberensemble. of time. sansdirection
beingduration
In threequarterstime ofcourse. causingnothing
affectingall.
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**HeyDad - 1 ** "What is the sound of one hand clapping?"
Heydad whyisn't it noon Shameonyou. How utterly politicallyincorrect
eveywhere intheworld at the sametime? makingfun of our onehanded or should I say
Because McDonald cashregisters "differentlyhanded" brethren.
would overload&crash. Givethem a hand &they'llbuild a village.
Comeon be serious.
OK. It's reallybecause Indiana iswhere farmponds have whitecaps.
makingit thesame for eachculture
eachreligion &all sexualpreferences "Utilize" - what'snext:
wouldresult in a commonworkstoppage I makealize a BM &flushilize the toilet?
puttingpressure on FaceBook Amazon I driveilize after drinkilizing &crashilize my car?
Twitter (X) &alltherest throughout cyberspace I chartruselize mybaits for fishilizing murkywater?
whichwouldcause cloudoverloads I sayilize it's absurdilize to syllabilize excessively-ilize?
resulting in torrential datarain
soaking&destroying every cellphone Trackmeets have interestinglanguage:
on earth. They "put" theshot. Where? Dotheythink they're in
Dad... a bar?
OK. OK. It'sbeause much of ourplanet What did the horse do to deserve tobe
wouldbe inthedark makingitdifficult pummeled?
to makeone'sway to the foodtrucks. What'swith the unevenbars? Couldn'they afford
I giveup. a level?
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I CameToJudge Counting
I cametojudge but fellinlove. Countingeachsecond
I camefrombelow to complainofabove. eachthird &first &evenbackwards
But asIclimbed cold courtroomstairs intowhatever negativenumbering
I noticed onlydancingpairs implyingontology.
&by the fourth &breathlessfloor
I couldclimb nomore nomore. But seconds inself's privateunreality
I couldclimb nomore. weightingmedown
firstservings providing morethanenough
So I grabbed the firstfacsimile of Eve caloricbombast toheat myrighteousness.
&sweeping heroff herfeet to leave
shespread gracewide angelicwings Seconds becomingminutes expanding farfrom minute
&carriedme to where justicesings as hours as minealone struggling towardeath
a lovesong as mysentence isread gravity as gravitas in mathmodel of
thensilence lest a lie bevoiced lifeternal being heatedhoney
or a truth toosilently said. oozing beyondlimits of my toast'scrust
with alarmclock'sweepinghand
So unsaid unjudged unwon ticktockingtime asif a needle
wedanced in earnest &forfun. in yesterday's staystack.
Logic-edOut TryingToLove GermanLove
Havinglogic-ed out You&I youasI asyou Duty being Germanlove
& as emptyunwanting isall Iknow of lesseparation.
reasonedtodeath being beyondneeding
allthat'sleft yet&allknowing Duty being gardener'sglove
is eachasallasone preventingtouch in soil'spreparation.
cell&breath ifonly
& ableto stoptrying Duty neverfrom above
atbest ableto stopholding letmedig my shallowgrave.
circulationofsorts desperatebeyondesiring
separating thisnow separatebeyondsharing. Duty beingboth pull&shove
from thenwhen&how strongwill disguised&idolized.
leavingonly a pulse Unable tostop taklingselfies
withoutpursuit orpass a photobooth. Duty thereof often whereof
&only onedrum but as thisnow rarelyprized.
& Never outofrange of celltower
a singleflute. sending celestialmessages Germanlove a lifedeath sentence
from fauxheaven. atworst a wall atbest gatelessfence.
AnyOne
Anyonecanwrite Glialcoated cerebralviscera Germanlove a statelybow
Noteveryone is alive. offering afferentamnesia neverever a heartfeltvow.
Ink dryingquickly. unknowing winlesseraph's
.............. nonseeing. UnKnowable - 1
Comment Unknowable because
Writewithpencil Efferentflorescence it's happeningnow.
then nowaiting unbiddengiving
for ink todry. of No transform no time.
............. unownedbeing No reason no rhyme.
Comment of
In twominutes what insense wouldbe sex Unknowable because
ink willnotsmear. what inwords wouldbe love knowing is then
what intrainedlesself &
In twoyears wouldbe justhis whenwishingwhen
penciledwords simply thisnow. a nine outof ten
will. again&again
NoLove Division
Therecanbe nolove throughlanguage Division of labor.
alphabetdancing to intellect'sbeat. Labor of division.
Thercanbe nolove with wordsoflove Specializing for efficiency.
spreadwide black&white&separate. Isolatingproficiently.
Therecan belove in wordlesslanguage All Acesofspades.
beatingintellect at itsown game No Jacksofalltrades.
played on ivory's dark&light
nonliteral nonsensical nonknown. Partitioningnumbing
participation.
So whistleorhum
or singsong'slyrics Capitalist ideal.
butnot within earshot Ideal cappingcommunity.
of shoguns or clerics.
Memo as seed of metallicplants.
Pretending Manufacturingbots no manualabor.
Pretending fact&truth play onthe samefield.
Howtoscorelove thenwhenjudgment so sullies Headoverhands.
oursimplegame? Heart&health at risk.
Pretendingtruth asdear aslove &fact&ruth conjoinedtwins
asif each separatewords couldgrow a sonnet Farm becoming parkinglot.
asif individualnotes couldblossom as symphony Farmers as food simplyforgot.
or any wordorsentence or any soundorsilence
couldeversever onefromall FisherFarmer
afterthebinding hadbeen undone Fishers&farmers fields&fathoms
&you &I discovered that intruth &/or fact fungi&phytoplankton
we werenever otherthanone. toknow one is toknow all
embracingelephant nomatter
Voice howtall.
Chosingchoice.
Choking onmy chosenvoice. Nomore watching basketballgames
from courtsideseats
Can I eversurrender using highpowered binoculars.
mywill towant?
Artifact
Then wanting thisthat&when Is time an artifact of self?
mychoice becomingdisguised
&ventriloquist'svoice willarise Knowingdeath fearinglife.
allowing woodenheaded I to recognize
kingdom of neverever heaven. Does the universe knowcare
that stars are sparking
Or choicelesschoice burning
transforming silencedvoice thengoing
of mylesself as love. cold?
Dichotomy
Self in desperation Drainingswamp of continuum Female or male without hormonalhaze
seekingsimplification thinking dichotomy couldovercome becomingintolerance of blendedgays.
needing primalcorrection insects snakes &alligators (Sexism beyond maledominance.)
embracing thought necessitating wearing of kevlarwaders.
of perfection Evil or good wrong or right
tokeep my messycellsuit Black or white without shadesofgray blindingme to other'splight
frombeing lessthan absolute creating racism in love'sdecay. asif mylife the onlyway
&mylife asif tostray wouldbe to betray
everlasting. Fast or slow without mediumgait sanctity of simplicity.
causing eletism asif geneticfate.
TwoChoices Time'sTravel SupraNatural
Twochoices Timetravels eachday Sanding planing
for sapiensecurity: with lesself atplay filing steelwoolscrubbing
1. Belief that thereisorder cellularbeing unknown each being appropriate rubbing
but thatorder is beyond as fact. beforelayer of transparentlaquer
my understanding. or spraycan matteblack rustoleum
2. Believing thereisorder Meditation cogitation creatingcoating of what oncewas
which canbeunderstood frustration desperation Persian imperfection
with reason. expectation innovation perfectlyflawed.
relaxation stimulation
If the former anticipation appreciation Reality nowfit for catwalk
I choose a beliefsystem time'sbellows sparkinghot at intellect's fashionshow.
&stickwithit atallcost. shaping iron into
horseshoes swords Aquarium
If the latter ornot Aquarium in billiardparlor
I work tomake duringtransform's on Titanic.
seemingly chaoticreality dancingduration.
into something I canlivewith. Cruel juxtaposition of
..................... Hands oceanology&physics
Third nochoice Clockhands Cousteau&Newton
is randombeing makingdistance randomneglect&causeffect.
surrenderingtohopelessness of time.
accepting eachthisnow asis Bouyancycompromised
neverexpecting eternalbliss Digitalnumbers intellect victimized
simplyaccepting transform'skiss numbingsize sapiensdoomed in death'sdive
believingnothing choosingnot of now. fish in aquarium
either&or completelyforgot. alive.
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**Luck? **
While onmy afternoonwalk Some trailingviscera
alone asusual toavoid alltalk givingme a feel thathisdeed
about a mile&ahalf fromhome was donefor morethan a meal
orso but lessthan trueprimalneed
comingupon a denogginized perhaps a trophykill orless
torso. perhaps a tragedy of psychogreed.
Takenaback from whatwas Wonderingthen what
rightinfron ofme couldpossiblyappeal
I see fourunlucky rabbit'sfeet to an animal withafullgut
attached toafurry ballofmeat rememberingonebeast
within thefury of a killingspree. of infiniteglut.
Oh somehere in thisfavoredland thesun is shiningbright
theband isplaing somewhere &somewhere heartsarelight
&somewhere menarelaughing &somewhere childrenshout
but somewhere over someone'sbed hangsthisrodents
fiercetoothedhead.
(Thanks E.L.Thayer "CaseyAtTheBat".)
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Time v. Transform
Time explains sequence Time explains duration
stimulus then response seedbecomingfruit
cause then effect through passageoftime.
this then that.
Whichseed? Whichfruit? Whichnow?
But
showme an event with only a singleantecedent Youspeak of now implying thenwhen.
otherwise embrace watercolor of transform with Whereinthisworld is thenwhen antecedents&descendants as fallingwater into planted&grown but in mymemory?
singlepool
instantly eternally unique. Hold thenorwhen longenough
for myself to trulyacknowledge.
But I sow&reap. Surelyseed precedesfruit Then inthatmoment of certainknowing
producingseed precedingprecedence. let transform be unknowingeternity.
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Time explains the ultimatearrow
lifebecomingdeath.
Withoutsequence withoutduration
firstlife thendeath isas emptyas
mycontinuous scream.
Life&deathboth livingdying
within eternaltransform'swomb.
.....................................
At lightspeed or near neutronstarmass
matterenergy boggedown.
Paradox of time. Reality of transform.
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Tendingtolonghose Threadingardenhose Rawhidebone gonefirst.
lawn&garden serpentstream through bush&flowerbed maze Tiltedish spilling drychow
whileshe watersrose. during seedingdays. near her kennelgate.
Weedwacking thinstalks Evengrass is weed
yellowflowers fallingsoft in stumprock leaflitterlawn
onto velvetmoss. &needs tobe wacked.
Grass here butnot there Growing here&there Mowing mustbedone
inour barelyreclaimed woods gardening is so unfair before my inlaws arrive
full of nature'sblame. in this clayroot soil. &barbecuefun.
Moss drying brownhard Rain or shine theycome
beneath pale spindlyspringshoots never lessthan twotofeast
barelygivingshade. on mute birdseedbell.
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Godel II Immortality
I couldprove mylove SuperNaturalseeing
atleast tomyself notimplying
atmost toyou a SuperNaturalbeing.
but then we each
wouldbe trivial Letmeindulge in mysticism
&two. whilemaintaining my superioratheism
notneeding God toget whatIwant
Icanlove myproof inmy privatereality of desire'sfulfilled.
makingme aloof
topassion of mysenses. If alongmyway I happentoforget
then letmecontinue mypirouette
But losingyou in senselesscoup perhapsdizzying beyondcomprehension
(touchbeing both consistent&complete) whileliving in perfectinattention.
to lifeoflogic both truebutsterile
wouldbe sheerest sanity. OrganicNow
Self tendingarden of thenwhen
Unjudged unknowing nurturing undigestedseeds
counting noproof as myfinalsowing of fruitof mymemories.
of myseed oflove
when I wasGod toit Flower fertilizedbyother.
&you wereall tome. Soil fertilizedbyforgetting
what I wouldhold
Reason asmine.
Reason counting allunaccountable false
&alluncounted illusion. Digestingfruit ofthen.
Passingseeds ofwhen.
Countingnot nobeing accountable Transform becomingagain.
transformbeing a breathlessconfusion.
MyBrain
Watchingame through highpowered monocular Mybrain's a slowingthing
seeingparts butnot wholes a welldefinedblur neverever a flowingthing.
reasonbeingsight through justoneye
constantly losingcount whilebeing onthefly. Stopping&naming &bynaming maiming
Increasingpower fieldofview shrinking transform's gentleirrelevance
realitybecoming blinking&winking. &ecstaticvow
of alwaysthis &alwaysnow.
Foregoing duty as lookout whilethinking
clearsensing's ship capsizing flooding sinking. Mybrain's a knowingthing
&inknowing a stowingthing
MyopicKnowing collectingdead but unburied
That settingsun is minealone truth
throughself's myopicknowing. tobe ferriedacross riverStyx
tobe joined withself's othertricks
That settingsun is the onlyone &schemes of fulfilling mydreams.
when I as no other is the showing.
Clocks
Unperceived as nature'sweave Kitchenclock becoming grandchild's cellblock
eye&brain unknowing self learningsobrutal how totelltime
mymembrane becoming soselective learningearly circadianpace
limiting me from perception'swealth. learningtime as adultworld's mime with powerbeyond its handlacedface.
No hardwarstore of parts&tools
no mechanics working as duality'sfools. Bedroom alarmclock always an adultshock
nightime'sprime becoming daytime'scrime
No reducing me to parts of thee as
as organic I atlast breaksfree. gotime&showtime
partime&pastime
Then settingsun becomingall onemoretime&overtime
inits dailynightly fall. anytime&everytime
Lesselftransforming becoming no one peacetime&meantime
distancegone nowill undone. onceupon a lifeoftime
&sapien'spartner inmycrime
Sun of selfimportance inmy lifedeathclimb
I existingonly in language&memory. grasping faithope from abyss of I'm.
Obviously.
(Justlook at oursun.) Then livingroom's wellworn granfatherclock
grinningitsgrin with eachtick eachtock
My self also anartifact addingrhythm tobeing's ageoldrhyme
fearingfor itspassing its nowheregoing no arrowoftime
ifwhen I stops its endless pendulous herenowbeing
remembering speaking humblyhushed &subtlysublime.
talking
& TrueReality?
(notsomuch) Couldlanguagebe
writing. intersection of
truth&reality?
Itisn't enlightenment I need
(justlook at oursun) Rain - getwet.
but simpleawakening. Cold - shiver.
Hot - sweat.
Throwingbackcurtains raisingshades
sleepingpastdawn awakening to Beginningending
(youguessedit). wetshiversweat.
Whenoursun begins totalk tome Logic
then&onlythen is I lost Self beingboth
&allhope. thought&ambition
each jailedbylogic.
Mutual Somanychoices
Mutual - heldincommon. whichcoice as lock?
Exclusive - resistant to outsiders. Somuchwill
withwill as key.
MutuallyExclusive - occurrence of one event
dependent on nonoccurence Lesself loosed by lessreason
of the otherevent. freetorevel in eachseason.
e.g. we're goingsteady (I promisenot tocheat onyou.)
e.g. science v. religion (I promisenot tocompete withyou.) Gatelessgate unlocked
e.g. Simply v. Super Natural (I promiseto complete withoutyou.) keyschiming on nochain.
Mutualexclusivity no oxymoron here HugePine
sharingknowledge of incompatibility Singlehugepine
mustcertainly be signofmaturity. makingmockery of time
emptying suncycle&seasons.
Nontheless SuperNatural soundinglike
freefall In its shade
SimplyNatural soundinglike a shoppingmall. filteredshafts fade
............................ to emptied rite&reason.
ContinuumQuiz
Which are on a continuum Fails
&which are mutuallyexclusive? Then
black white when
flight fight now
eachillusion
time transform eacheternal
extreme norm alleternal
allillusion
femalemale orperhaps
succeed fail onlyfusion
ofyou&I
SimplyNatural SuperNatural caughtinsails
christening funeral ofbeing'sbreeze
aslanguage
self other asusual
liberate smother fails.
**YouKnowYou'reARationalistIf **
1. Whenasked "How'stheweather?" 6. Youthink Physics explains
youlist temperature humidity humanbehavior.
barometricpressure windspeed...
7. Youcount geese
2. Whenasked "How'd theteam do?" astheyfly overhead.
yougive the finalscore.
8. A goodayfishing is the
3. Whenasked howthe teamdid number&weight of catch.
youaccept the finalscore.
9. Youthink youwon the argument
4. Youwear a digitalwatch &seetime withyour impeccable logic.
in numbers ratherthan pictures.
10. Youthink a map showsthe
5. YouthinkChemistry is betterthan bestway from Point A
Psychology becausechemists to PointB.
createdplastic.
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WholePart Become
All beinglonely If I becomeyou
withoutother. who willbearwitness
tomybeing?
Other becomingpart
butnot a part. Better we stayseparate
Keepingallcompany. individualthreads
howevertightlyknit.
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Zeno Prediction
Thereis norest fortheweary. Prediction
We'reall alwaysweary. finalarbiter of truth
Therefore thereis neverest. intheworld of hardscience.
Therefore nostop therefore nostart Empiricalrationalists allbelieving
therefore noending therefore nobeginning metereadings math &intellectualcleaving
therefore nodeath &evenlesslife canmap a world of onhundredtrillion
exceptforself biochemicalinteresections witheach unwilling
startingbeginning withprison tostay inits ownlane &neverspread
stoppingending withparole freedomconstrained by no lefturns
with soulasloophole in desireforcontrol freedomregained with rightonred.
of allbeing'scasserole
halfbaked to imperfection. Reducing thistothat deducing whenfromthen
believing causeffect obtains againagain
When moonphases weredelineated certain that repetition willoccur
Zeno heldsway doing nomath certain that ration isn't transform'sblur.
goingfrom firstquarter tofull .................
to thirdquarter to new Approximations
inits regularirregular path within proteantransformations
obviating the apparentparadox isthescience of softsensing.
of hisbeloved half
withall ensuingbull. Empirical integrationists striving
tosee clearpatterns inorganisms thriving
Paradoxbeginning with hubrisofcertainty within a sociochemicalmilieu
endingwith acknowledgement of synapse&relapse within eachsentient
ofcertainty ofmystery. who neverknew whichcause whicheffect
affected whenwherehow theyspent
Meta their pseudofree but wellboundwill.
Thinkingabouthinking.
Dreamingofbeingawake. Expanding this&that inducing thenfromnow
l lost inaslurry of ifwhen&how
Awake&daydreaming softsciencesinking in twofoot snowfall
of a dream that I thought. of crystallinewonder blanketingall.
Atleast Ithink Ithought Iwas Knowing
awake&alert. Omniscience
thought to enhancefables
Butperhaps mydream convincedme failingtolive atall.
thathathought wasempty Fact lackingpower
oremptying oremptied. of indwelling.
ThemePark Hypocrite Searching
On carousel Allthought hypocritical Searching for elusivelectron
truth is round&round thingsinthemselves made unseen bytheveryact ofseeing.
reality is up&down. memory's analytical Search unscrewingmyhead
for sensuallystarvedmavens findingit withmyfoot
In teacups havingbecome reality'sravens kickingit outofreach
truth is spiralingspin lessparrot than piebald witheach Chaplinesque
reality is nausea. beingboth black &voicecalled discovery.
seeing with scienceyeyesonly
In bumpercars flower'scolors bird'songs Soitgoes headless
truth is target beingbutwavelengths hunting tillperhaps
reality is crash. cellsuits of lifedeath throughblindluck
beingbutwaningstrength or trainedskill
On rollercoaster ticktocks of mechanicalclocks trippingoverit
truth is plunge beingbut rustedlocks landingonit
reality is blur. onmy pulse&breath screwingit
elementalbeing backon.
In Festhaus as otherthanfreeing
truth is sixlayercake self fromguaranteeing Thereyouhaveit
reality is glut. my separation&eternalsuffering. backtosearching
.................. formyelusivelectron.
On raftride All language handmaidentothought
truth is glide&spin beingequallyhypocritical But nomoretwisting
reality is splash&soak. confusing contorting nomore unscrewing.
tillusers finallyresorting
Day at themepark toviolence servingself. This timelessness closingmyeyes
truth is price ................. gettingrealstill
reality is joy. Thinking&speaking. lettinglight searchforme.
Let the hungergame
DryGrass commence. Sure enough
Rumi speaks of soul lions feelingwarmth
hidden in dry languagegrass. NeverSeeking within my chosenblack.
Water neverseeking
It's beenadvised to treat unknowing its perfectlevel. Taking a quickblink
hotsickness with hotmedicine almostseeingsight
coldsickness with coldmedicine Me foreverseeking thinking
wordsickness with wordmedicine. asif error inmybevel. orif I did
was I mad?
Poets watering drygrass Atlastpeeking ...............
revivingsavannah to verdantbeing. beginningtorevel Blind&warm
indetails unknown or
Soul lions sanscamouflage to perfection'sdevil cold&dark
roamingfree consumingmemory of life rippling&blown choosingwisely
leavinglanguage for hyenas. by transform's gentlebreeze livingaccordingly.
Selfishness
self = braintrapped in thenwhen
...........................................................
good = selfishness of me
evil = selfishness of you
will = selfishness of desire
hope = selfishness of protectionnow
faith = selfishness of perfectionlater
time = selfishness of faithope
then = selfishness of choice
when = selfishness of dream
supernatural = selfishness of fearofdeath
supranatural = selfishness of certainty
reason = selfishness of pride
truth = selfishness of justification
grief = selfishness of denial
joy = selfishness of satisfaction
LessSelfisness
lesself = braintrained to thisnow
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simplynatural = lesself of training
love = lesself of lesseparation
**MIND**
Manifestations of Myriad Misunderstanding Memory of Mystic
Individual Interpretations of Imagined Individual's Idealizations of
Neural Nascent Necessary Narcissistic Naive
Data Dogma Devotion Delusions Dream
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Walking this longnight Walking this longnight Walking this longnight
somuch artificialight somuch artificialight beneathsummer fullmoonbright
yet nothingtosee. &noplace togo. with nowhere tobe.
Hearing lonebird song Thinking it couldhide
withouthinking of lonebird. in arching TigerLilies
Dawn without a day. skinny gigglingstream.
Bird callingdawnsun Searchingforlonestar Dawnstar atlast lost
or singing to fadingstar. in lightening predawnsky. &mymosquito long gone
Istheretruth toknow? Streetlamp stillburning. yetmyblood is theirs.
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Darwin DoingThis
Darwin as basketballcoach "WhyAmIDoingThis
startingwithwhatworked ToMyself?"
thenhaving diversity&variety
of players toreact towhat Beginningmiddle
the defensegives. never nearend
of every stillsit
Is that "thinking"? my existentialquestion
Is theteam a "mind"? fullofdrama &gravitas to wit
Is theteam a "self"? whyme?
Am "I" a "self"? whythis?
Am "I" "over'thinking'"? whynow?
whyever?
Fact toconcept concept tofact lovepromised
inductiondeduction additionreduction withoutneed forwork?
concrete toabstract abstact toconcrete
divergeconverge analyzecreate "Why" - Alwaysdeflection
imaginedreal realityimagined alwaysmisdirection
avoidingwish&artifice from clearsimple reality
writingdialogue foreach comedyact to ambiguity'sbrutality
readingaudience to properlyreact as paradoxofpride.
designingplay with malleableclay
moldingaction to tectonic lay "AmI" - Whoelse?
sense&perceive then judge&decide
acting asif self's virginbride. "DoingThisTo" - breathing shortonbreath
needingto reinflate
Somuch to thinkabout. windthrashing attractor
Solittletime toreact. infrontof my usedcarlot
beckoningall to kicktires
Somanywords comingbetweenus. &take a testdrive.
Somanymemories todistract.
"My" - Possessive possession
Somanyways tosay "I loveyou" alwayswithdirection
withoutlosing simple elementalfeel. intomy funnelweb
intomy pitcherplant head
Onlyoneway tomake lovereal. tobe incarcerated
without an inkling astowhy
Patented I am so achinglylonely.
Ethics waspatented yesterday
with stemcellcompany "Self" - Myfinalfrontier
arguing that morals my undiscoveredcountry
are voyagingendlessly in alienspace
intellectualproperty. searching for mirroring master race
toreflect mywill &grantmegrace
Resolute as eternalife eternallysafe.
Relative&absolute
meeting in those Credit
resolute Sometimes threeplayers sixarms
trained towatch self stretching for rebound.
as pingpongball
in endlessgame Theball gets tippedin.
of knowitall. Who getsthecredit?
MouthNoise NoNumbers
Letmost ofmy mouthnoise Nomunbers inlove
be as waggingtail yet cellsaddingup
totallywithout issueof self countingdown.
tooth or nail
fail or prevail Reachingover touchingher
free or jail allpassion feltgently
fresh or stale from pastofskin as pastofsin
retail or wholesale beforesanction of church&state
in or exhale. beforefreedom for finalsate.
lark or nightingale.
Reachingover touchingher
Tongue for kissing or socialconcert allbeingshare unaware
never for elaborate aria. of skinorsin or churchorsate
thisnow zerosum
Grammar nevereaten for dessert. unadded uncounted
Semantics no allyoucaneat cafeteria. nowill beingdone
in lesself'sfun.
All palaver becomingpurr
while curlingup in loved one's lap. Doomed
Havinglearnednothing taughtnothing
All demur becomingsincere demure arewedoomed torepeat history?
withme beginning restfulnap.
Tell yourteen howtheyshould livetheirlife
Dogs&cats informing our selfishinnocense. then askme thatquestion.
Each songwithwords becoming lovingnonsense. (Anyway why "doomed"?)
Before It'sOnly Test
Beforeprint pressed us into It's onlyrational Each lifetest graded&graded till level
black&white&readallover toadmit it's onlyfashionable sealevel of course
a rainbow was a kaleidoscope tothink &thinkthinking isallthat. where airearth&fire earn AE&F
mysensing asif skippingrope &I'm exhaustedbyhiking
onplayground of elementalall. With leftbrain against right normalcurvehill ofmy stubbornwill
both hearts against clearsight savingillusorythrill
Now I watch &begintothink threefourths ofme a majorityofmight of running academictreadmill
&duringthought as ration'sblink is nontarional simply passional whilepraying for higherGPA
I fear I'vemissed somethingofvalue. with reasonshrinking in perspective withouteverchosing testbyessay
of separation inmy vainsearch for ran easyway
Then I think it'sjust transform'swink ofether of eternalnow to an unexaminedlife
&my kaleidoscope remains a rainbow. loominglarge in union amidst transform'sballet.
through crowdedages of willingallwant
AreYou? tobefulfilled ifwhen if neverthen. Melt
Areyou partof a basketballteam Snow
if playersarecounted? I rates. You rages. meltingonlanding
Hesheit raves on&on&on.
Am I the I in team It usedtofeelike
whenplayers addup? Thenwefew neither I nor ir rational I wasbeingcheated
but misty &unabashional orit wasbeingwasted.
Better "Tenplayers shootingball" seeing sterile I
buthen whatofalltheothers smelling fecal ir Now
teamates refs coaches fans whilebeing earthairwaterfire I thinkthathought
eachall my sisters&brothers? reciting fundamentalfacts hasrunitscourse
whichnoone candeny or melted wellbefore
WouldGodel count mycount complete that I thinks therefore I is it everfell.
if countingfromwithin doesn'tcheat separate
the coldlogic of our febrileplay? &
alone.
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**Rules **
Intheinsanity of bumpercarbeing Or wecan justletgo thewill topower
there mustberules unhinderedchoce runningamuck
onewaymovement asif sliddingabout on ice.
speedlimits
no headon crashes Howelse willwe findout
no rightonred. who'snaughty &who'snice?
**SinTax? **
I alwaysthought thewages of sin wasdeath. Buthat doesn'texplain sementicks.
Or wages of sin is death. Or whatever. Who's evenheardof sementicks?
Butwhat's allthe tado about taxingsin?
Soundsfilthy tome.
I mean its reallymean addingtax tosin
whictakes a toll allbyitself. Dothey sucksemen insteadofblood?
Or suckblood fromphalluses (phalli?)
Andhowdid Gramma getinvolved inthis? causingsemen togetstuck ina flaccidpenis?
What? You'retalkingabout syntax What? Your'etalkingabout semantics
being rulesofgrammar. beingmeaning ¬hingtodo withsucking.
Wellthen nevermind. Wellthen nevermind.
..................................................................................................
Butinfection? That's gotobe nasty.
Noway you cantalkabout infections
without someone gettingsick. **TrueDepth **
**Rhetorical ** Threadfromhood
Coldmeds&lackofsleep Inflections? Changingwords? ticklingmy ear
leavingme morespacey Syntax&grammar&semantics filling myemptiedhead
thanusual aren'tenough? withfear
I answered the prof's (butnever actually
rhetoricalquestion Nowonder you smartalecks don'tknow complaining).
&theclass got a whatyou're talkingabout whatwith Grandma
heartylaugh. beinginfected with sementicks &stillneeding Breakingmymeditation
to paytax on everysin. todealwith aggravation
But I laughedlast revealing truedepth
whenthe prof Whatconfusion. Couldbe you'renot ofmy training.
toldtheclass as cunning a linguist asyou thought.
that I hadgottenit
right. What? Let'sjust callit a day.
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Grammar Hard Certainty
Grammar of sentience Hardcandy in a Self's uncertaintyprinciple
being cellmembrane. worldwithouteeth memory's myriad storedstimuli
Its semantics makingresponses difficult topredict.
semipermeability. Sucking.
Eachknower neverknkowing
Guardedflow resisting Swallowingsweetsaliva forsure.
culturalgradients. tillnothingisleft.
............... Memories firingfaintly
Pumpingions with forceofpassion Hardscience in an &faintlyfelt.
creatingstreams of more&moreself organicworld.
a molecularvortex suckingsense ToThink
into cesspool of adverbs&adjectives. Nature abhoringvacuum Tothink theirexists
swallowingsweetcertainty truecertainty
Lettingo all positivenegative tillnothing is left todoubt. is nofault ofthought atall
feedforwardback looping ............... but of flawedthinker's desires
eachbeing biochemicallyimpossible Lesself a hardsell embalmingself as though thought
&nonrationallyuntenable. withinworld requiresthinker
........................... of inits search for perfectdefense.
Grammarofbeing sweetindulgence.
beingduty ............... FaithfulThought
its semantics Swirlingtransform. Faithinthought
beingdesire .................... wherefaithitself is thought?
energizedbyself Swallows in murmuration
envelopedbyculture defyingwhileflying. Perhaps thought instead of faith
circumscribedbycircumstance asif thought faithless?
restrainedbynature SingleEnemy
retrainedafternurture Single enemy Chosingwithoutjudging?
yetstill enabled by I always twochoices
tobe pathogen self only one I Faith as knowledge
resistant tolove. beingmywithin as denial of limits
................... completelywithout except ofcourse
Excisingtumors of carefullyselected definingcertainty nagginglanguage?
thenwhen. &certaindoubt.
Openningself to invasionbyother. Love beingwithoutlimits
Reading allthat'swritten &withoutlanguage?
Allowing guardedflow of sensing. within my intenselight.
Pumpingout self cesspool goingdry Learningall fiercepower Thuslove asboth faith&knowledge
verbs hardlyeverasking why beingblindedby myright. only lessaid thandone
desire&defense &morethan twicethefun?
dominateself. Dothemath &weep.
........... Thuslove asboth faith&knowledge
Defensesfraying desiringdecaying Ignore thisenemy with languagetransforming
allgrammar straying fromself'scheming. &beslain again&again. milk tocurds of gibberish
Becomingsenseless&tenseless &thewhey?
as lesself in transform'streaming. Face thisenemy
&beblinded. Earthairwaterfire.
Cellmembranes becoming lesselective Eat. Don'tbe eaten. Reproduce.
acceptinglove from nature'scollective Conquer thisenemy Train tostill defense&desire.
of earthairwaterfire. &itgrows instrength.
Spots&Dots
FordGuy Forget thisfoe Dancingonspots on floor.
SomeFordguy bought an Edsel &ithaunts Playingdots on staff.
simplybecause itwas a Ford. each halfwitted Passingto no teammate.
moment. Fallinginlove with a photograph.
SomeProtestant killed a Catholic
simplybecause hewas a Christian. Puttingaside allplans Ofallintellect's shenanigans
allcunning allthought ofall attemptedisciplines
Some father ate thelast porkchop training by boxing duty the finalaugh.
simplybecause he is father. eachshadow toetotoe
tillsweat burningeyes Stale
SomeGermans boughtintoHitler muscleswhispering Indoors enhancingoutdoors.
simplybecause he was a German strainedcries Libraries enhancingadventure.
offering porkshops toall singlenemy collapsing
Aryans. dying. Air can'tbefresh without
staleideas&frailresolve.
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Reroofing complete. Refoofing complete. Reroofing complete.
Cleaninghands with gasoline. Nomorekneeling forawhile How I willmiss the leaking
Removing kneepads. until mynext sit. withits healingbeat.
Eleven blackbulls Coldwater at dawn.
holdingdown our universe Hot tea inthe afternoon.
withtheir selflessmass. Warmsoup for supper.
Nomatter howgray Woodpeckerdrilling Kingfisher sitting
noonsun becoming fullmoon inour dying pineforest onsign naming lakeMalvern
thiscold snowlessday. nearour frozenlake. owning allhesees
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Entropy
Entropy lackingdirectionality Entropy beingneither
yet saddledwithmemory. state norcounty normunicipality
(Howmuchenergy lackingenergy for empathy
did I have havingbeenborn
yesterday?) inmath's icecaves
remainingstill butfor
Within randomtransform myneed tobe.
of universe aswethink
weknowit (Am I legs ona snake?)
evolution of selfconsciouslife ..................
feeling itsownend as endofall Forces being immaterial
of import. but farfrom supernatural.
Unlikely> Inevitable? Subjectivitybeing simplyme
Both? Neither? &neverever unnatural.
LawOf ExcludedMiddle?
Phenomenologicalsuspicion Universalpulse neither
of nothingbut middle? herethere
Synthesis thenwhen
sans thesis &/or antithesis? eachheartbeat eachbreath
LawOfContrast simply thisnow
lost in graymatter impossible to nonknow
of black&white whileclingingto
unknowing? Imemine.
....................................................................................
Oftenforgetting if I'mdead
or simplyonvacation.
RoyG.Biv Sobriety ToThink
Can RoyG.Biv evertruly Logic&Reason Here'something youneed to thinkabout
see a rose favoritesofsapiens whenthinking cutsloose its cacophony:
brain beingcluttered with intentoncertainty Lifedeath isnot a riddle.
wavelengths? alliedwith supernaturalbeing
whensapiens insist on perfection. There'snothing noone needsornot
Is Mr.Biv boundtoabacus toever thinkabout
in radicaldichotomy Yet expectingsobriety simplyneeding tobe lesself
rattlingnumbers withintransform's then
into emptyspace? lovedrunkbeing play withwhat you'vegot.
being folly atbest.
Can I mixpigments Deduction
without mathematics Division Deduction worth a damn
paintingtheworld I sense Divisionoflabor. onlyafter you'veplayed longenough
with a fullpalette? Laborofdivision. to reanimate inference.
Or perhaps thereare Specializing for efficiency. Form meltingtofluid
twogifts tobehad Isolatingproficiently. in heatofbattle
forthose then flowingtofill
unjudgingfew. All acesofspades. whatever downstreamvoid
No jacksofalltrades. it incounters.
SapienNature I
Our SapienNature Partitioningnumbing I wasn't bornsmart.
fullyacknowldedged unnatural participation. I wasborn ofthestreet.
or betteryet
our InhumanNature Capitalis ideal. Studying
or best Idea cappingcommunity. Studying meadowplant
our InhumaneUnnaturalBeing fromdrawing of rootsystem
(borntobe severlyapart) Memo as seed of metallicplants. flowerfruitseed.
livingalone &dying destitute Manufacturingbots. No manualabor.
without a glance or passingchance Studying meadow'sbutterflys
ofbecoming whole&loving. Headoverhands in nolove. &grasshoppers from collections
Heart&health at risk. dried&pinned for comparison.
In languageofnouns
standing stout on verbs. Farm becoming parkinglot. Studying meadowsoil
In scienceofatoms Farmersasfood simplyforgot. by mineralcomposition.
unmoved unmiffed unmitigated.
In economy of mercenaries. IQ Studyingmeadow.
In marketfree to openwounds. Intellectualpleasure
In realmofsport of finalscoreonly. of willoverwant Studying.
In psyche of intimateself v.
where existentialsate physicaltreasure Meadow.
is ultimatefact of taste.
&certainfate. **Frog? **
Emotionalmeasure Brainfrog? Whathedeuce
There I plant my seedofbeing of lesself'sdominion is a "brainfrog"?
expecting unwateredgrowth v. Somethingaboutbeing "braindead"?
of blossoms morethan socialpressure Croaking. Get it?
blackwhite of bodyimage.
flacidfoul&withered. "Brainfog" yousay. OK. Nevermind.
Stacks
Theycalledthem "stacks" Therefightbe a crypticnote
rottingcore of campuslibraries carvedinto mustywood
longbefore warming glow suggesting a worldbeyond.
of screens thatknow
&knowing show. Andyou mayanswer.
.....................
Books shelvedthere Some feralovers squeeze
stacked ifyouplease within thosepassageways
in sevenfootceilinged richwithimminence
singleperson arrowaisles [sic] butmostly emptyeyed gradstudents
of decayingpaper print idea. zombies of intellectualethargy
socialapathy
Fiftywatt lightbulbs emotionalatrophy
unadorned unreflecting breathingair oncebreathed inearnest
among tomes to self bylover's of idea&language
&self'simportance. passion'sauthors of truth'sessence.
Claustrophobic elevators Filling MondaythroughThursday
toeach alphabetofendeavor Friday&Saturday beingfordreams
if daringtoride coalmine of lesseparation
container. &Sunday perhapsforphysicalrestoration
or immanentintent.
Rather bang elbows
screwingyourself Yetsome are weekendwarriors
into next halfstoryfloor daydrinkingaddicts
via wroughtiron ensconcedinself.
spiralstaircase. ................
Nocalendars noclocks
At endofaisles alongouterwalls beingcasinos of intellectualwagering.
studycarrels of molepeople
burrowedinto woodenhistory Somecome sacrificingallmaterial
permittedpeek of campuslife tobecome eternal
through ivybraidedbranching. trainingwithoutblaming
gambling stagnantvows
Youcouldiscern daynight against vibrantnows
butnot dayofweek tobecome more&lessthan
oreven weekofyear. transform allows.
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Reading inthestacks Writing inthestacks Dozing inthestacks Sitting inthestacks
pageafterpageafterpage. pageafterpageafterpage images ghostlyflowing freefromimagination
Becomingeachpage. Becoming mypen. yetneversowing. unknowing page pen.
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**Raptors **
I canunderstand howraptors Lucky they'renot pigeons. Lesspoop.
in yourattic coldbe a problem Lucky they'rnot owls. No whoooooing.
whatwith yourkids enjoying
playingwiththem &all. What? You'rekids liketo swingfrom the rafters?
Andthethreat to yourcats! Oh OK. Nevermind.
Money Understood
If timeismoney then moneymustbetime Meaning nevereally understood.
one greenslime theother sublime. Wordsbeing funeralpyre's sticksofwood.
Hushmoney blushmoney My bestattempt atlove upinsmoke
slushfund or funnymoney leavingmebreathless as I choke
but nosuchgames with sweetime's honey yet I standproud in utterdismay
madeby hardwork of busyme's unbelieving theprice topay
prepping self for memorysprees for tryingtosay what can'tbesaid
that evenmoney can'tbuy or feedingabeast whocan't befed.
(with oddsagainst neverpassing go
or everwinning in a daytime gameshow). Pollutant
Language as pollutant
JudgeNot creating I as mutant
Judgenot within mutualistic all.
neitherbecause myheart islarge
norbecause I fear recrimination. Language creatingseparation
selfconsciousness becoming desire'sdamnation
Judgnot of thatwhichonce waspure
bothbecause self is obscene of thatwhichonce was secure
&eachsapien embracesintimation of thatwhichalways seeks cure
unknowingbyheart fromcancer of illspoken wordsickness.
thatvaluing is isolation
which no organism shouldever needtobear. Let tonguebetied to poetry&song
detachedfrom edicts of right&wrong.
Judgenot
or injudgment courtdespair Let verbalizing beonly vernacular
each selfishverdict embracing a dare usedsparingly &only toinsure
tobecome&stay thoroughlyunaware that inspiteof reason's willfullblur
of distancegrowing between you&me. yourhear youknow that I love you.
Evenwith mostgentlecare
judgment becomingrealm
of reason'tlair Idea
fromwhich nolove canescape. Cicada's slivermoon dustsettling
even in lastsummer's latechill
NoWires smellofdog'spee orperhaps from me.
Nowires in sapien nervousystem
neuronsdiscrete &incomplete Vinechasinguptree
tillweeping totheir neighbors. catchinglight from slivermoon dawnsliced
or simplymemory of summer&fullness
Sapienbody fullofsaltytears &ideaofyou
each cellempty yet replete &ideaofme.
&able tosecrete chemicalove.
Stats
Assists sansturnovers is simplyinsane From singlevent in broadnessofnow
points without shotstaken arenumbers invain. thoughpath benumbered future'selusive.
Wanting a single magicsatistic In timeneeded tocompute eachsinglehow
seeking in ration forthatwhich ismystic. ball'sbeenstolen play's gonetogive.
Don'tgetmewrong allnumbers are right Give&go&give thatwhich belongsto Caesar.
&ration is certain butalways a tease. Becomebreath ofthatwhich can'tever betaken
Mystic meaningonly wedon't have enough with fuzzlylogic creating a gentleblur.
todefine toexplain causeffect asitflees. Crunchingnumbers forfun but unknow toawaken.
InDeed LOCK Boots
Late for sermon. LawOfContrastKnowledge Pullingonstraps with nofoot inmyboot.
Rushingpast ailingparishioner sapienbrain embracingduality Standinginsocks wonderingwhat wentwrong. Polishingwool till I thought I wasme.
sitting disheveled inits struggleforsurvival. Buffingimage tillimage wasgone.
failingtofeelchoice
when facetoface withneed. LocusOfControlKnowledge Hikinginsocks as pedestrianpedestrian
sapienbraing in frontalassault withothers driving riding flying.
Thoughtword tooften impedingdeed inorder toassign individualfault. Walking a path I hope lesstaken
slowingcirculation of vialthumors unceretain if I hadbeenforsaken.
itnoringreality to vagrant rumors CauseEffect doerdone
when notordained as Holycreed. lackingresponsibility Nevereverasking
what'sthefun? thequestion implicit.
Pulledfromwomb hypercephalic Nevereverseeking
sapiens notknowing their preciouself LOCKingin LOCKingout theanswer illicite.
sickwith priceofcertainty lossofdoubt (Orperhaps that
moralblinding thought worthmore thanthe shouldbe
oralwhining madnessoflove. viceversa?)
judgmentalbinding
renderingothers moot Numbers
but howgives a hoot Tobe onwof firstwentysixnumbers
whensafe within thoughtword's or one of twentysixletters.
sterile defenses. SomeThing
Tobe distinctlyshared Two orthreedays of somethingother.
Let HolyHouseburn in effigy or meaningful onlyinaggregate. Two or threeweeks of somthingdifferent.
with thought&word eachon oneknee Then backtonormal to discover
tendingto thatsuffering parishioner. Howould sage answer whatnormal never wasis willbe.
thatcall toself as emptyfull?
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Stuckincellsuit Livingincellsuit Lesself intransform
knowingboth lightdark lifedeath. forgettingall pleasurepain. breathingboth air &theall
Waitingtodecay. Knowing less&less. in eternalnow.
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** Dump**
In inhouse outhouse at inlaw'shome Gaggingonleaving spottingmen in parlor
there's matches plunger emergencyphone. smoking C-gars sippingbrandy mejoining asif sailor
After halfeatendinner all becomingclear despite neverbefore havingsmoked or drunk hardstuff
mydump splashinghigh inthat unventedzone. butafter myenema feeling macho&tough.
Afraid to lightup fearingbeing blowedup Yetsoon it becameclear I wasn't drinkingbeer
flushingrealfast with refill as backup thathis smokeyliquid wouldn'tleave from myrear
onlypart of brown havingbeen suckedown or anyotherway thanto kneel&pray
now beginning suckup with plunger&frown. at ceramicthrone not diarrheagray
butan uninviting semiviscous yellowgreen.
Spotting rubberboots &rubbergloves in bath
not takingme long todo themath. Soitwent thatday outanorifice onetoomany
Stillingslurry with eyestillblurry makingme an outlaw inmy inlaw'shouse.
from excrementmix no inlaw wouldwish Nextvisit ifthere beone weall made a promise
ontheirown (butmaybe on other). that I'd stayathome &sendonly myspouse.
AddingMind
Addingmind tomatter makingmindgames spatter Head gamesofchance trippinglazily&wanting
witheons of naturaloutcomes yieldingincomes whowouldgamble against sureloss
of unnaturalacts. ratherthanramble at fauxlowcost
throughcountryside ofthought with sterilethinkers
Freezeflight beforefight becoming testofmight searchingforasong thatlingers
self becoming tensile with tissue becomingissue longafter singer is silent.
more threatening thanany cavebear.
Hearingthatsong learningtodance
Unnaturalcreature of prideindomitable inall selfconsciousnakedness
playinginmist of defense against sequence tillfat meltingaway with movement's sway
of mysterious but oh soserious contenders withinwinds of willess whippoorwon't
asif heir tomythrone thrown intotheair gliding at highnoon in celebration of nothing.
of heaven'sperfection failingreality. ..............................................
Pathetic culdesac of neuralnonsense
Each windshorn spider'sweb as articulate notknowing mywayout whilespinningmemories
asmy neuralnetwork or bird'snest so intricate onlooms ofdreams with yarnofschemes
asif my fourpoundtest monofilament fragilestrands barelyheldtogether
unravelling inwind of want'sdesiring withfaith (selfblinding withmemory)
under cloudlesssky of myself's retiring withhope (even myseeingeyedog goingblind)
with fledglingscrashing to forestfloor withcharity (throwingbone tothat starvinghound).
tryingtoohard to fly.
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When willyou atlast willnot becominglost fromfantasies of yourownmaking
inmist of amnesiacdespair inaworld ofyour privatetaking
unknowing selflessly thathat hiddenvalley whileproud tobe a thinker therefore a blinker
is lesself's kingdomofeach thisnot inaCartesianworld of
as anyallother allknowingstares
¬hingmore? surreptitiousaffairs
soapoperashows
Orwill you willall continuingtofight wherenooneknows
neverever takingflight thetrouble I'veseen?
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Run run donotfight.
Run hide tillseeing thelight
givingup whatwasnever youoryours
while studyinglist of dailychores
whiletraining to
less remembering.
FoundInTranslation Furor
Sobjects flinking in conab neing Twoheadspinning in furorofthought
netnor talse in pholic's bleing brainstormsclouding all peaceonearth.
nuncious of empal's faitledge dight
thiows lifath's firast plaight. Theyspoke asifwords wererice tothem
strewn ontheirmarriage of toofertiletongues
Translation: a joiningofconvenience nomorethan contrivance
Subjectobject floatsinking in concreteabstract nonbeing with mutualselfindulgence being
neithernor truefalse in partwhole's blindseeing their intellectualconsummation.
nonconscious of emptyall's faithknowledge darklight
thisnow's lifedeath's firstlast playfight. Sterility oftheir cyclonicthought
surelybirthingactions lessworth theireffort
Exmachina of matinginsane
Comingto trickypassage pregnancystilted
in pianopiece I'vebeen delivery
practicingforages. mostcertainly
stillborn.
Whoops. I'm through it.
TwinPillars
ImplicationOfAbove Then&when twinpillars ofself
a. ghostinmachine corollaries of axiom of separation
b. training to/as God with implicitdichotomy
c. trainingtolesself called picking&choosing
d. two or three of a-c between this&that butalwayslosing
e. KISSoff&enjoy with twinpistons of desire'sengine
theride. nevereverstill
called quitesimply
Reality I will.
Truth. Proof. Reality.
Pickyourpoison &paytheprice. Hiding
Beright. Becertain. Befullyimmersed. On Descartes's tomb
What'sthedifference? Tossthedice. "Benequilatuit
benefixit"
Calculatingodds a losing gamble (He whohidwell
truth&proof beingself's certainvice. livedwell.)
Playingintuition with sapientouch
cutoff yourhead becomeimprecise. On Descartes's tongue
"CogitoErgoSum."
For precision isan inbredmeasure (I think therefore I am.)
a nepotistic numbersgame
with clonedresults lackingvariation Ifthinking bemybeing
eachtautology alwaysthesame. must I hidefromthought
inorder tolivewell
Allow a wild outbreedingspree thoughtbeing
of sand&sun becomingsea chickenbroth for oldfolks
with rhythm&rhyme rulingspace&time stickingtoappetite
with you&me dancing in fullmoonglee. at highcost?
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With inhalation With exhalation
"Youwant someofme buddy?" "I offer eternalife."
Then exhalation. Asif I'm alive.
Continuingbreath Breath mustneverstop
at its peak lest allife end at itsbottom or its top
in hesitation. lest I die between.
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Bat When
(Thanks R.Wilbur.) When stumblingover unheardtree
Ifonly I could unthink doesmy toe hurt if noone hears me
like a bat bemoaning mycruel destiny?
flashingfrom mycave .............................
into stillnight Being tree toe lung &listening
seeingall that intellectfears unhearing emptiness of thisnow
beyond its unknowing transform'scruelty.
selfishsight.
Entropy
Retreatingtocave Entropy an interestingconcept
onlytorest coucheduncomfortably in indirectproportionality
nevertoput meaning itsgain being lossofcomplexity.
tothetest.
Whynot haventropy
Emptiness share a sofa with sovereignity
Youcan't fillaglass that'shaking. directing the proportionality
tobe increasinglyfree
Yourdreams willspill on groundlessbeing allowingenergy to roamrandomly
evaporatingunder intellect's dryeye. within the thermodynamic landscape?
Stop foraninstant tobecome whatyouwill Entropy as simplicity asbeing elementary
ceasinganychange thatcan onlykill increasing with transform'sproclivity
the I youwant tobe. for variety&diversity.
Soundsgood to a self Then I could lookforward to "death"
full of goodsense asif a finalrelease of a longheldbreath
yet my vesselremains mystardust nolonger put tothetest
fullofemptiness. of serving my longdeadfather.
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**ForThose ** Andwhatoflove being indirectlyproportional
(Re: Climatechange.) to separation
Forthose whothink (butnotoomuch) itsgain being proximity
science is weakened by changingitstory uncomfortable tothose of pride?
asif dying in sterilelaboratory
ratherthanliving ourpurgatory Then I could stoplookingforward orback
of mutation&exploration. confidant thathe intimateblack
isyou becomingme inanearnestkiss.
Constantcorrection in transform'storm
changeneeded beforecant becomingnorm
lest **WordlyChallenge **
1. shipsfallingoff edgeofearth Bowedheads bobbing
2. magicfailing tocure eachplague pursedlips purling
3. satellitedish beonly a wish noxiousgas spreading
4. lettingblood forgettingpulse creating meditativewedding
5. Na+Cl feared alchemy ofthose somoved beyond self'scontrol
6. Icarus survivingravity withthose stilltrying sufferingtoll
7. sapiensbecoming lessintelligent of intemperatefeasting bordering on obscene
8. weather beingunpredictable on dinner of rice&tooabundant bean
(whoops - withintolerable withmaster's analbreath asif subtlefragrance
percentages). of succulent houtecuisine.
Cunning Shape BeingDrafted
Whyaren'twe Shapeofuniverse? How is beingdrafted
as cunningascats like an unplannedpregnancy?
orasloving asdogs? Howmanyangels
inan angelfoodcake? How is enlisting
Boundbymoralrectitude like delivering a baby?
yet unforgiving Truth
becomingfood forthought Truth likeocean PeekABoo
wherelife isfor theliving. funforplay Peekaboo notagame of falseortrue
dangeroustodrink. butofthe veryexistence of you.
JustRead
I can'tmust read. Immortality Babydoesn'think you'redead behind yourhands
Eachbook withpencil Immortality beingboth buthat you're nolongerthere atall
pagemarker. insufficient&unnecessary justaswhen coveredby blankee
tocomplete thelogic theresimply isnoball.
Eachbook edge ofmyexistence.
top bottom Not tobeconfused with Schrodinger'sPiaget
annotated. Better a chalkoutline arguingover whatmaybegone &what mightstay
ofmy murderedcorpse. &never the drama of a Godelianplay
Everything flowingtome. with judgment&love on fulldisplay.
Everything flowingthroughme. Betteryet a fingerpainting
doneby fouryearold me Each sapienoffspring will learn objectpermanence
Eitherbothways whenasked what I want &maygrapple with statesofbeing
I chronicling tobe. butmost willchose &inchoice becomethevoice
I beingchronicled. oftheirown unlovingseparation.
Confidence Rant
Confident in myfaith Is mypurpose mymeaning myall
as supernatural motiveforce tohave sycophants listen tomy egorant?
in a simplynaturalworld
Is mypurpose mymeaning mypall
neither uncaring nor unaware tohave sapiens listen as I dronemycant?
ofmyprayer as a solitaire
inaworld bound by elementalbonds Better to bowhumbly &disenchant
knowingneither warfare nor welfare. in a world towilling tobelieve.
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Unknowing neither faith nor confidence WordSickness
trainingtobe as presentense "Interdependence, a central Buddhist concept,
to livewithin primalsense refers to a coproduction in which impermanent
whilesuffering ration's schism phenomena condition one another mutually
while seekingnature's within an infinite network of dynamic causality,
unreflectingprism. which can be innovative without being arbitrary
and which transcends the two extremes of
GoingWhere chance and determinism."
Where youaregoing (when)
&theplace youstay (now) A basketball game.
come (now) tothesamething .............................................
(when creatingthen outofnow). "...meditation...is not a semipassive way of
learning but a fully engaged one, conducted
What youlongfor (when) in a coherent way.
&whatyou've leftbehind (then)
are as useless as yourname In other words, you prepare a workspace at a
(causingexpulsion from Eden). metalevel of awareness that allows for the
generation of unified states."
Justonetime walkinto anyfield
&look at a toweringoak Inotherwords sticktothe firstwords
&see anacorn beatingitsheart then get unstuck fromthem.
(eternaltransform).
--Sofar sogood.--
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